About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple

The sun sets in the west, and the sky is as orange as fire. The neon lights of the city light up, and the streets under the high-rise buildings are gradually covered by the afterglow of the sunset. In the golden gauze, people and cars come and go, intertwining the prosperity and hustle and bustle of the international city.

"The school's infirmary is very particular. The windows are positioned so that you can enjoy a good view."

Hearing the voice behind her, the girl on the hospital bed closed her eyes. The setting sun falling in the window reflected her outward profile face softly and brightly.

“The scenery is nice, but the people are not nice.”

"But you were unconscious in the afternoon, and it was the bad guy in front of you who carried you back here." Sakakihara handed the freshly peeled green apple in his hand to the girl.

Tianhai Qimingyue's eyes only stayed on the apple within reach for just a second, "It's just a matter of carrying it upstairs. It sounds like it's some great favor that must be repaid in this life."

Sakakihara Raku's hand hovered in mid-air for more than ten seconds, and finally he could only withdraw it.

He cut the apple into slices with a fruit knife, put it into his mouth, and said while eating:

"Indeed, it's a trivial matter. This kind of trivial matter can't prove anything. The school doctor said that you didn't get enough rest and suffered from heatstroke, so you suddenly fainted. Just now Liuli, Zhixue, and Ling all came to see you, Zhixue went out to buy the apples, and she was afraid to face you."

"Sakakibara-san."

"I am listening."

"In the past month, you have cared about me like this many times, including but not limited to coming to deliver water suddenly when I was thirsty, and learning from my sister that I couldn't eat and cooking for me alone. But unfortunately, In my opinion, these are meaningless entanglements. Whether they came to me out of nowhere last night, or they carried me to the infirmary without my consent at noon today."

Tianhai Qimingyue's voice was not considered cold.

It's more like plain. Plain without any ups and downs.

She closed her eyes again.

"I know you want to apologize to me, but unfortunately, in my opinion, your apology is just effort and not sincerity."

"Sincerity means sending Zhixue back to Tianhai's house?"

"otherwise?"

"That's a pity, Qiyue, I won't send Zhixue back. If I send her back in her current state, what do you think she will be in? Will she be very happy?"

"At least--"

Sakakibara looked serious and immediately interrupted her:

"At least it's better than being by my side? Regarding this, you can ask Zhixue's true heart in July. Does she want to stay with me, or go back to that home? If Zhixue says she wants to go back, does she want to go back?" She truly volunteered and said she wanted to leave without any hesitation, so why should I not let her go?"

"It doesn't matter who it is -"

"Look who did it? Qiyue, I don't want to discuss this too much. When Zhixue first moved in, did you really care about her? I know you are all busy with your own affairs, but just In fact, when you faced difficulties in Zhixue, which one of you really cared about it?

"I remember Uncle Ying told us when he sent Zhixue over, and we agreed to treat Zhixue like a family member. But what is the reality? Did one of you teach her about life? There was one of you at the beginning. Do you express condolences to her while eating and wearing clothes?

"I will always do these things at home, and only Liuli is willing to help me.

"I know you can blame this on 'she can do it on her own', but please don't forget that Zhixue is a child with a birth defect, and there are too many things she doesn't know how to do."

"Is this what you said?" Tianhai Qimingyue's expression remained unchanged.

"It's not a rhetoric, it's just an explanation for what you just said in Qiyue. Don't you know these things in Qiyue? How can you talk about this matter?"

Tianhai Qimingyue lowered her head. Her head was still a little groggy. She didn't know why she said those inexplicable words just now. She knew that she really couldn't refute this.

When Zhixue falls in love with someone, several people in the family are responsible.

It's one thing for Dan Zhixue to like someone, but it's another thing for someone to respond and break their promise.

Tianhai Qimingyue took a deep breath, "I have never cared whether Zhixue likes you or not. But the current person has no integrity at all."

"I'm trying to apologize."

"Heh, I told you before, your apology is just effort, without any sincerity."

"I will not agree to your sincerity in Qiyue."

"Then you think your apology is an apology?"

The exchange between the two fell into a long silence.

Raku Sakakihara stared at the shadow stretched by the setting sun outside the window, feeling that time passed so slowly.

"Sakakibara-san."

Hearing Nanamiyue's voice, Sakakihara Raku did not raise his head.

"Don't you think you are annoying now?"

"Really?" Sakakihara continued to lower his head.

"It's annoying, it's annoying to apologize, it's annoying to give gifts, it's annoying to come to me pretense, it's annoying to forcefully carry me here. No matter how you look at it, you are just an irresponsible scumbag now."

Sakakibara lowered his head and listened to the neither salty nor bland voice of the seven bright moons.

He was thinking, what caused the current situation?

What makes July say such things to herself?

At first, he just liked Liuli and after being entangled with Qiyue, he inexplicably remembered his past encounters with her.

Because I had made a promise to Qiyue in the past, I felt sorry for her now, so I had to shoulder my responsibility to her. During this period, I felt Qiyue's devotion to me, and fell in love with her.

But there is no doubt that this conflicts with Liuli who relies entirely on herself.

The two sisters began to quarrel with each other and fight over relationship issues.

They argued and argued with each other for a long, long, long time.

As for me, I am sandwiched between the two sisters.

On the one hand, she has to face the dependence Liuli seeks, and on the other hand, she has to face Qiyue's infinite love for herself.

I don’t want them to get hurt, and I don’t want them to hide in a corner and be sad one by one in the future, so I want to take full responsibility and let them get hurt again and again.

And I also have to go back and forth between the two of them and take care of their feelings.

Why not let them rely on themselves voluntarily like a strong person?

Sakakihara Raku could only answer: What they ask for in themselves has never been "strong". What they need has always been a single emotional sustenance.

As for emotional sustenance, even if Sakakihara Raku completely controls the Amami family, it has no effect.

What they care about is always whether a person will understand and take care of their feelings. Then they will give more and more responses.

There is no doubt that they are both good girls.

They are all worth entrusting for a lifetime.

but why?

Sakakibara suddenly felt as if he was living between them, needing to be responsible for this and that. He seemed to have given them too many unrealistic feelings.

On the one hand, he makes them fall in love with him infinitely, but he cannot give them all the feelings they want.

"I want to hear your explanation, why should you accept the snow?"

Sakakibara tried to capture some information from Nanamigyue's face, but unfortunately, all he could see was the paleness after waking up from a coma.

"As you said just now in July, be responsible."

"Then you don't have to be responsible for me and my sister?"

"Of course, I must."

"Then?" Tianhai Qimingyue looked at the floating clouds in the distance outside the window, "Then you said those words to my sister and me a month ago?"

"They are all responsible. July Snow needs someone to sympathize with. You can take on Zhixue's identity and think about it——"

Amami Nanamigetsu sighed, "I'm fed up with your rhetoric about 'putting yourself in someone else's shoes.' Sakakibara-san, why, why do you have to put yourself in someone else's shoes? From my standpoint, why do you have to put yourself in someone else's shoes?"

"July, I don't think you would say such a thing." Sakakihara smiled at her and grabbed another apple on the plate, "Want to eat an apple? I'll peel it for you. It's delicious. of."

"Why? Sakakibara-san, now I just feel that you are taking advantage of the emotions between us and kidnapping me. In addition, I now feel that the way you always come to me with a smile after doing those things is very fake. .”

Qi Mingyue's tone became increasingly calm.

It was so dull that Sakakibara felt exhausted inside.

Even the setting sun falling on my palms feels so dim.

"Are you dissatisfied with me?" The half-peeled apple stopped in his hand.

"Yes, there is no trust at all." Tianhai Qimingyue touched her forehead, frowned tightly, and pinched her eyebrows.

Sakakihara looked at the half-peeled apple in his hand and the fruit knife hovering above:

"You probably didn't hear it clearly when you were in a coma. Let me say it again. While I accepted Zhixue's confession, I also rejected her. I asked Zhixue, 'You know that I will never agree to you in the future, but you are still willing. Follow me?'. Zhixue's answer was as expected, she agreed, and she didn't care at all. She didn't mind who I liked or not. As long as I could still appear by her side, she would treat me as a family member and sister. It doesn’t matter.”

After Tianhai Qimingyue heard this, her original uncomfortable expression disappeared instantly. She opened her eyes, paused for a second, and then closed them again after returning to her usual cold expression:

"What? Do you think this is not betrayal?"

".You think you can forget it. But I have to make it clear. I never wanted Zhixue for anything. I just saw her suffering and wanted to give her a suitable place to live. Facts have proved that Zhixue is also very good. She needs my care, and even likes you, Liuli, and Ling. She is a good child. After knowing that she hurt others and embarrassed others, she chose to quit on her own.

"I feel like I see you and Liuli in Zhixue. Just as I couldn't give up on you, I can't give up on Zhixue. What's different from how I treat you is that I understand that I can't truly accept Zhixue's feelings, and I never I have never regarded Zhixue as a lover, what I like is always your feelings for me."

Tianhai Qimingyue understood what she meant, "So, now that I want you to give up Zhixue completely, is it equivalent to you giving up on me and my sister?"

"That's it."

"Then let's go."

".What?"

"Since the conflict cannot be adjusted, you can go. You don't need to apologize to me or anything in the future, I don't need it."

Sakakibara's voice suddenly became quieter. He raised his head and looked at Amami Nanamigetsu, who was frowning tightly and pinching the center of his eyebrows:

"I hope you're talking nonsense."

".I do not need."

"."

Sakakihara Raku was silent again for a long time.

He closed his eyes, the sunset shining on his face, bringing a layer of warmth.

What I recall in my heart is what it was like in July.

The first time they met, teasing me with dirty words in the literature club, watching the fireworks alone on the day of the fireworks display, coming to see me in a snowstorm with my head covered in white frost.

Scenes of memories are recalled in my heart like a revolving lantern.

Sakakihara feels that all of this is a sign that Qiyue likes him. He is also willing to respond to her love and wants to be responsible for her.

But with my personality, I can't bear to see anyone sad.

Let the situation become what it is now, and no one wants to encounter it.

Sakakihara stood up suddenly, "It's my fault. Maybe I shouldn't have so much sympathy in July."

"."

Tianhai Qimingyue did not respond, perhaps because she no longer wanted to speak.

"In this matter, I feel sorry for you, so if you want to stop being so sympathetic, I can certainly do it, if you want."

"You want to apologize, that's the basic requirement."

"Yes. What's the most basic request that we can't agree to?"

"You agreed?" Nanami Nanami held her head with a headache and looked at Raku Sakakibara who was standing beside the bed.

She didn't know if it was because of the dark sky, but she felt that someone's figure had become a little darker.

"I agreed. Since it's your request in July, why can't I agree?"

"."

Tianhai Qimingyue didn't know why her head was so uncomfortable today, and her head was in a mess.

She pinched her eyebrows again and turned to look at Sakakihara Raku who had stood up at some point.

He didn't smile either, but looked at himself with his usual cold eyes.

"The last thing I want in my life is to quarrel with you in Qiyue. I always feel that I can smile and coax you shamelessly. But, in Qiyue, you seem to have forgotten what our first relationship was. I remember We have discussed it countless times. I not only feel sympathy for you, but also the love you have given me later. Since you want me, I don’t need sympathy.

"Okay. July, I agreed. Just as you asked, maybe it was my mistake that I chose to take you home in the past. I should have left you alone at the bus stop that day. Why should I sympathize? You? Why did I go up to talk to you? Why did I show you unnecessary sympathy?

"In my hometown of Songshan City, when I accompanied you to ride the Ferris wheel, I should have ignored your confession again. Why do you want me to sympathize with your uncomfortable mood again and again?

"Because you have persisted for more than ten years and I sympathize with your experience? Why do you think it's based on this? Isn't it just because of my bad-good character?

"Are you enjoying it because you took the initiative to be so happy? Of course you can think so, but I only have endless regrets for Liuli, but I have to continue to hide Liuli because I sympathize with you. It's not like I can't live without you, insert Isn’t it you that I live with?

"In the back, and because of you, I have to wander back and forth between the two of you, sandwiched between you, taking care of your feelings and making you happy.

“Really, July, just like you said, I shouldn’t sympathize with people, and I shouldn’t sympathize with you, so I shouldn’t sympathize with you.

"Now, let's do it. You must hate me being around you when you are sick, and you don't need me to sympathize with you or take care of you. If you want to stab me with a knife or take revenge, you are welcome, and I won't hide for a moment. "

Sakakihara Raku didn't get angry or make any moves, he only spoke calmly one by one.

"That's it. Let Liuli continue to take care of you. I'm leaving. Goodbye."

He left quickly and neatly.

The green apple that was placed on the bedside table and half peeled for her was still shaking slightly in the bowl.

Tianhai Qimingyue looked at it in disbelief