About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple

I don’t know how I feel.

I don’t know how to describe my mood at this time.

When Tianhai Qimingyue faced the person in front of her, she never thought that he would think so at the beginning.

"So what were you planning to do?"

"Is it important?" Sakakihara asked softly.

"Of course it's important. I want to know your answer."

Sakakibara's eyes stayed on her face for a second longer, shook his head, and took the initiative to throw away her hand, "Nana Mingyue, what happened is no longer important."

"Then what do you think is important? Is it that after everyone no longer needs you, you choose to take on everything and leave alone? What good will this do to you? The good things will always be left to others, and what about yourself? ?”

Tianhai Qimingyue completely understood.

After he was completely angry, this guy knew that with his own personality, he would continue to make people around him uncomfortable and painful.

This is true for my sister, Ling, Zhixue, and myself.

That's why he deliberately said those excessive words to himself after that, and continued to encourage and cultivate Ling Yuxue's growth to fulfill his sister's dream.

This bastard understands his own mistakes and knows that there is no way to solve these mistakes. No matter which side he chooses, he will hurt the other side. That's why he pushes everyone's back, and when he hates him, everyone does not When you need him again, go away silently.

".idiot."

Tianhai Qimingyue thought about this kind of person for a long time, and finally could only find this word to describe him.

".Swearing at me again?"

"It's you who's being scolded, you idiot, idiot."

Although he was a little tired, it was now that Nanamigyue still looked so domineering. Raku Sakakihara felt even more tired and uncomfortable.

"Okay, okay, since you hate me so much, then don't say so much in front of me, and leave me alone-"

Under the street lamp, Sakakibara Raku hadn't finished speaking. When he raised his head, he saw the little bit of crystal in the eyes of Amami Qimingyue.

Why are you still crying?

Besides, she is Qi Mingyue, how can she cry?

Sakakihara Raku found that in the eyes of Amami Nanamigetsu staring straight at her, there were not only tears, but also the true feelings that she had not expressed in her heart as her eyes trembled.

what is this.?

Can't bear to leave yourself?

From her perspective, the things she did were not enough to make her angry?

It's not that Sakakihara Raku wants to escape from them, but that being around them will only cause them to cause unpleasant things again and again. This brings pain to everyone, and the wounds in everyone's hearts are irreparable.

Since Qi Mingyue hates herself so much, since Ling, Zhixue, and Liuli have all been hurt again and again because of herself.

Then, let "they no longer need to be by their side" and let them "be able to live happily on their own." This is enough.

".Then what should you do?" Tianhai Qimingyue asked this question again on the bank of the Thames.

What should I do?

To be honest, it seems that I have never seriously thought about it, nor have I seriously dealt with this issue.

In my last life, I was miserable and no one could like me.

Hmm. It's probably because of this relationship that I want to take care of the unloved guy around me again and again. I want to give them warmth and care.

This is also equivalent to redeeming myself from the suffering in the past.

He doesn't want them to end up in the same miserable situation as he did in his previous life.

What should I do?

I really never thought that as long as I could help people in the same situation as myself, I would be able to gain happiness and salvation.

It's the same feeling as a child who grows up in an orphanage and wants to start a family in the future and doesn't want his own children to become orphans.

"You guys are always like this."

"Why am I always like this? Qi Mingyue, don't you guys have the same bad habits? You have a vicious tongue, you are also arrogant, and you are also extremely aloof. You are obviously feeling very uncomfortable, but you still insist on saying that you are fine. You are fine? You are really fine. I don’t know yet? Is it fun to come to England and play pretend games with me while saying you hate me? Since you hate me, why don’t you go further away?”

"Because you are always such a bastard."

"how do I?"

Before Sakakihara Raku could finish his words, he felt something bump into his arms.

He looked down. His hands had been subconsciously placed on the flaxen hair, and she had put her head on his shoulders. Their heads were intertwined with each other, and they were full of familiarity with each breath. The fragrance of green apple.

There were no words, just the sound of the wind blowing by the river.

This is probably because Tianhai Qimingyue wants to use practical actions to convey her inner thoughts at the moment.

——Still, I don’t want you to leave.

She hugged her waist tightly, and the words she spoke through the movements of her hands became so clear.

However, Sakakihara Raku didn't find this heartwarming.

You must know that an hour or two ago, he was arguing with her on the bedside.

The relationship that had been estranged for a long time was now so close again, and Sakakihara just felt very uncomfortable.

He sighed softly and said earnestly:

".You were the one who said you hated me before."

"I have to correct you. You are the one who said I hate this word first. I just said that I can no longer accept your endless sympathy." Nanami Nanamiyue said calmly on Sakakibara Raku's shoulder.

"But in July, didn't you also get the thing you most expected in your life because of this compassion?" Sakakibara opened his hands outwards and did not choose to take the initiative to hug her.

"."

"Then this cannot be the reason for you to accept other women. I cannot accept that you choose to break your promise."

Hearing this almost whispering words

Raku Sakakihara once again heard the insecurities that existed in her heart in the past.

Why is July so insecure?

It is not difficult to guess now. She is afraid of being abandoned, just like her mother left her alone on a rural platform in the past.

It is obvious that what a lonely and aloof person really fears in his heart is loneliness.

July is also such a contradictory person.

".You are holding me like this because you don't want me to leave?"

"."

"If you don't speak, take it as your acquiescence."

"."

"What is there to miss about a rotten person like me? Feelings, feelings cannot be responsible. People, people cannot be satisfied. I have to keep messing around with women. You are so good. Wouldn't it be better if you left me? "

"."

After waiting for a long time, Sakakihara Raku saw Amami Kuruuri smiling at him on the other side of the street lamp.

He sighed and looked away.

".When I set out to come to England, my aunt said something to me."

"What words?"

"When you are angry, people will always only see the bad side of things. Just like when quarreling, everyone will bring out the past mistakes of the other party and repeat them. In the quarrel, you must reduce the other party to be worthless. This will establish your own victory."

".What does Qi Mingyue want to say through this?"

"This is irrational. Because magnifying the worst side will only make the good sides of the past disappear. Many things are not irreversible, but they are just temporarily irrational. And I need to repay Yours, the things you brought to me, I will never be able to repay.”

"."

Hearing this, Sakakibara couldn't help but sigh.

Qi Qi was actually talking about the care he gave her when she was a child, right?

Her feelings are too deep, and because she understands her own character, she has never felt safe.

“Not just at first, but as a gift from someone just for my birthday.”

"."

Don't know what to say.

Should I say July? Is it too affectionate?

On the surface, she seems to care the least about feelings, but in fact she is the one who needs feelings the most among all people?

"I don't know who said I didn't need a gift that day."

"Ugly, no need."

"You are still being stubborn. If I had given you an ugly one in Qiyue, you would have accepted it. After all, which girl is so stupid and likes shark dolls so much at this age."

"If you don't need it, you don't need it."

"You're still being arrogant. But that's it. If you weren't arrogant, you wouldn't be you in July. Who doesn't know that you are a sharp-tongued fellow. Did you hear what my aunt said that I wanted to die, so you rushed to the UK to find me? Who wants to die? It's just I just feel tired and want to go out and find out if there is any other place that can make me happy."

Sakakibara looked up and saw stars filling the night sky.

"Actually, I have already thought about it. I will go to a remote orphanage to stay. I usually help the children there with cooking, tutoring and homework. I want them to understand that they don't have to envy normal families. In this In a big family, everyone is a brother and sister, everyone will support each other, and everyone will move forward. There is no cynicism, and we never laugh at the shortcomings of family members, but tolerate and guide each other in a friendly way. He grows and changes.”

"It's really your style." Tianhai Qimingyue said.

"Haha, what else? If everyone can say thank you to me, I would be quite satisfied."

"No wonder the children in the orphanage liked you so much."

"Well, if nothing else, I am quite popular with children."

Had a chat.

The atmosphere has indeed relaxed a lot.

"but."

Sakakibara took the initiative to push Nanami Nanami away, "July. Just these things don't mean that the wrong things I did don't exist——"

Halfway through his words, a slender index finger touched his mouth.

Tianhai Qimingyue stretched out her hand. Although her eyes were a little red, she still looked like her usual faceless face:

"I know what you want to say? You think that the wrong things you have done cannot be ignored, and what you do around us will cause us to be hurt again and again. But are these not your arrogance, brother?

"Look at the sisters in the back, think about Ling now, and recall the snow now. Which of them didn't become what they are today because of your good side? Have they grown up differently?

"Without you, Ling would not have grown up so well in that family environment.

"Zhixue is still spending every day in my hometown without you.

"Without you, my sister will only be under the control of her mother to fulfill her dream of becoming a star in the art world.

"They are all as bright as they are now because of you, brother."

Tianhai Qimingyue's eyes shone brightly, and her tone became softer.

"Brother, you should never only see the bad side of things. Everything has good and bad sides. Even they and I will think you are a bastard at some point, but this does not mean that your good qualities will disappear. If it were not for you For everyone's sake, we will not get together at all, and experience a different life in a tortuous but fun life.

"If Ling knew that you would leave her side, she would definitely cry the hardest, leave all her work behind, and desperately want to find you. For her, after more than ten years of experience, you are the right partner in her life. The same is true for Zhixue, my sister, and me.

"Brother, when you save us, we will also care about you.

"Brother, your position in everyone's hearts is far more important than you think."

The wind by the river blew the girl's flaxen hair.

Sakakibara looked at her real face, her sky-blue eyes, and her throat rolling gently along with the water beside her.

He didn't know why, but he smiled slightly.

Youxin laughed.

Then it was interrupted.

"Of course, there is a premise." Tianhai Qimingyue crossed her arms.

"What...?" Raku Sakakihara was shocked that this warm moment was interrupted in less than a moment.

"Explain clearly why you chose to take Zhixue back and how you plan to place her."

". She is really like a young lady, she is aloof and condescending."

"Shouldn't this be asked?"

"Yes, yes, Second Miss Tianhai, of course you should ask. But according to Second Miss, do you want to get back together with me? Sorry, I won't agree."

"To be precise, after I understand that you are not so selfish, I want to take back what I said before - wait, what do you mean?"

"How can we get back together less than three months after we broke up? I think it would be nice to have less restraints on weekdays."

".Do you think what I said is not enough? Do you want me to say it again?"

"." Sakakibara just wanted to make a joke, but he didn't expect that Amami Nanami would care about him again.

Seeing Tianhai Qimingyue rarely be so sincere, he no longer meant to be joking.

He put his fist into his mouth, coughed twice and said:

"Ahem, don't worry, I really have no intention of seeking death. From the beginning, I just wanted to go out and find something to do."

Tianhai Qimingyue stared at him with half-closed eyes, "I said it so lightly, but I just wanted to carry everyone on my back and fly away."

"Don't worry about these details. Also, this is what you think about Zhixue in July?"

Tianhai Qimingyue first sighed helplessly, then crossed his arms and said:

"What happened to Zhixue was not your or her fault in the first place. I have never hated her or anything. I just feel that your previous actions are unacceptable to me."

"What now?"

"I'm very angry now. But since Lingdu said she won't get married, why don't I understand what she means? Now it's just one more Ling."

As Tianhai Qi Mingyue spoke, he put down his hands again, sighed and said, "It was my fault that Zhixue took my casual response last time seriously. It was also because of that incident that Zhixue's problem surfaced in advance. I came out of the water, but since you, brother, can handle grandpa, then there won’t be that many things going on in the future. In addition, if you, brother, hadn’t argued with your father and grandpa, my sister and I wouldn’t have been able to live so comfortably in the back. From now on, For one thing, I still have to thank you.”

"Reconciled?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli, who had been watching behind for a long time, appeared behind her sister at this time. She was extremely happy to see that the two of them could communicate so calmly now.

"Look, look, Lejun, let me just say that Qi Qi followed me from Tokyo in a hurry because I was worried about you!"

"." Sakakihara Rakudo looked at Amami Kuruuri who was dressed exactly like Amami Nanamiyue, and thought of what happened tonight, "Today, the whole day -"

Tianhai Jiuliuli explained with a smile: "It was me in the morning, and July in the afternoon! Then it was me in the bathroom, and I was chatting with Lejun at the door of the hotel. It was actually July."

The one who lost his high heels is July.? !

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"Lejun must have been deceived. Can't you tell the difference?"

".Don't play like that again, I can't recognize you."

"It can only be someone's problem if they can't recognize it." Tianhai Qimingyue interjected.

Tianhai Jiuliuli hugged her sister's arm and smiled: "Isn't it interesting? Besides, Lejun, where will Qiyue stay tonight? We can't let her have a hotel room by herself. It would be nice for me to chat with her at night." "

".I sleep on the sofa."

"Don't sleep together?"

".Anything is fine."