42 – Me to You, You to Me

By the way, Han Yuna is lying on the bed that should have been my reserved seat, and I am lying on the futon next to the desk.

“Hey, since I sleep underneath….”

As expected, she closed her eyes and tried to sleep, but in the dark room, she heard Hanyuna’s voice full of regret.

“It’s okay, so just sleep. I don’t care much about the bed or the floor.”

“That means I care.”

“So don’t worry and have a good night’s sleep.”

I’m not saying this in empty words, I don’t have much trouble sleeping on the bed or on the floor. On the contrary, in the past, the floor was more comfortable, so there were times when I left the bed and put the blanket on and slept on the floor.

But even with that said, I didn’t think that Hanyu would be able to get her attention. It is probably more strange that there is no discomfort in the heart even though a stone that has rolled in has taken the place of the owner of the room, like removing a stone from which it is stuck.

Still, I wanted my rebellion to subside for a while at my prompting, but Han Yuna’s voice resounded quietly in the room where the silence was lingering.

“… Hey, thank you for today’s work. I live thanks to you.”

“If anyone sees it, they’ll think they’ve already solved it. What are you thankful for?”

The word thank you was very unfamiliar, so the words came out bluntly without my knowledge. Actually, that wasn’t a big mistake.

We don’t even know if the stalker really exists yet, and it’s unknown if the stalker will really appear next week as Han Yuna said. As of now, nothing has been resolved or found out.

But the meaning of her gratitude expressed by Hanyuna was different. She showed a somewhat lonely smile with her face sticking out from the edge of her bed.

“Even if it wasn’t a specific solution, I’m grateful. Actually, I never thought that anyone would believe me.”

“… ….”

“It’s not that I don’t trust my family. It just means what I said was that stupid.”

Somewhere in Han Yuna’s tone, I felt loneliness. She has to live with a secret she can’t tell anyone, a loneliness like a protagonist in a novel carrying the fate of the world.

I don’t know why I felt that way. While I still feel that there are many things I don’t know about Han Yuna, I also wondered what it was that made it possible for me to express this level of loneliness.

Sounds stupid, but maybe she really has some kind of psychic ability to see into the future. Even that speculation lingered in her head.

“Actually, that scared me more than the fact that someone might be watching me. When I said this, I was afraid that people around me would look at me strangely.”

“It’s not even a day or two that you’re strange.”

I spit it out in comfort of her. A sense of self-doubt rose over her own vocabulary, but in fact, her hanyu laughed silently as if she was right.

“Yeah, so I wonder if that’s why you believed me. To you, I will always be a fool and a strange person.”

“It’s not always like that…. It just feels that way sometimes.”

“It’s a coincidence, even a child like you is like that to me.”

The words ‘excuse me’ almost popped out inadvertently, wondering if it meant that I was as stupid and weird as Han Yuna, but rather than that, the guy’s words continued a little faster.

“Usually, it’s infinitely stupid and strange, but sometimes I rely on it, and sometimes I think of it….”

“… Go to sleep if you are sleepy, don’t kick the blankets tomorrow.”

Her drowsy voice and her uncharacteristically soft remark tickled her, so she spat out a word as if avoiding a conversation and turned her back.

Like that or not, as if she was going to continue talking, Han Yuna’s waters, once bursting, showed no sign of calming down.

“If you think about it, are you really an idiot too? I don’t know what made him believe that what he said was trustworthy. Is it because you’re just a close friend?”

“… ….”

“Hey, answer me.”

Couldn’t you just sleep a little better? At least, I would understand if tomorrow was the weekend, but I don’t know why I’m so anxious about not being able to catch and eat when I’m in a position where I have to walk to school with my heavy bodies together tomorrow morning.

Still, thinking that if she kept her mouth shut, she would be quiet on her own, so I closed her eyes and went to sleep in silence. Hanyu-na, who wanted to go back and forth for a while, continued her voice again.

“Okay. I won’t bother you anymore, so can you really just tell me one thing? If you just answer that, you’ll be fine. Huh?”

“What is it?”

Thinking that even if Hanyu’s whining continued, she would not be able to fall asleep soundly, so she sat down in front of the final negotiating table. On the other hand, her curiosity was welling up as to what the hell was so curious about and why she was making such a fuss.

It was the car I was trying to urge my words from behind, feeling like hesitating for a while and feeling frustrated at the question that never came out.

“… Would you have believed it if Han Yujin or Subin said the same thing instead of me?”

Han Yuna’s voice continued, with a completely different atmosphere from a while ago, and a sense of pity somewhere. The moment she heard that, she didn’t understand the meaning of her question and her head went blank for a moment.

Han Yujin or Kim Soobin, what are you talking about? Why are they out at this point? What the hell did he ask this question because he wanted to hear an answer?

All sorts of questions cluttered my head, but the result was simple. I had an unfounded conviction that it would be okay if I just conveyed my honest feelings from my heart to Yuna Han.

“I don’t think you could believe it.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know either. I just have a feeling. I’m sure they’re trustworthy friends and younger siblings…. A little different from you.”

I don’t know if such an ambiguous answer will solve my doubts, but I decided to be honest because I didn’t want to give any reason to cover up that even I couldn’t give her a correct answer.

I was waiting for the words to follow, thinking that the Han Yuna I know would tell me what kind of answer that was and give me a straight reason.

“… Okay? That’s enough.”

“…… ?”

I was momentarily stunned by Han Yuna’s behavior as she quietly backed away as if she had received the answer she wanted unexpectedly.

After that, I didn’t really talk to Hanyu until I fell asleep, based on her negotiation plan. In the end, she had no choice but to fall asleep, not knowing what answer he wanted or why she asked such a question.

***

In the room, only Park Si-yoon’s gentle breathing resonates. Looking down through my sight accustomed to darkness, I saw Park Si-yoon’s face facing me again before I knew it.

Until recently, you were turning your back on me as if you didn’t even want to hear me. In fact, I wondered if he really wanted to look at me, so I inadvertently thought he was cute.

“Park Si-yoon, now… ?”

“Koul….”

I carefully call out Park Si-yoon’s name just in case, but all I get is the sound of sleepy breathing.

That’s stupid. You could just sleep comfortably on the bed, but why would you want to sleep on the floor? If that’s the case, I’m the only one who can’t sleep because I’m uncomfortable. Anyway, I don’t even think about my feelings.

No, I know the truth. Park Si-yoon must have given up his bed on purpose for me. Not too long ago, when I went down to my grandmother’s house, I had complained that my body was sore after sleeping on the floor.

I would have expected that it would make me feel uncomfortable, but I think it was because I wanted to sleep in a more comfortable place. Because I’m an unnecessarily caring fool.

However, I am not of a race that can easily accept such consideration. If you think about it, it’s a little outrageous. Where are you going to cosplay as a good person?

“Park Si-yoon, are you really sleeping?”

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“… ….”

There is no reply this time either. After confirming that, I removed the blanket and carefully got up from the bed and went downstairs.

As if her aunt expected Park Si-yoon to sleep well, she spread her futon quite wide, so even if the two of them lie down, it doesn’t feel cramped. Recognizing that, I lay down next to Park Si-yoon.

It’s not that I want to sleep with this idiot head-to-head. I know how uncomfortable it is to sleep on the floor, and I already guess that tomorrow morning I will be complaining of pain all over my body.

Just because I don’t want to be an ungrateful guest who doesn’t know how to sleep on the bed alone, leaving the owner of the room alone. Another excuse, no, if I had to give a reason, there is also a side where I am afraid of this darkness today.

Anyway, in my dreams today, I’m afraid that I’ll have that suffocating chase again, and I’ll run through the endless streets of the night without knowing who’s chasing me.

But if Park Si-yoon is by my side, he will be able to protect me from danger, even though I am a man. So that dream won’t reappear. It’s just a justified action that comes from such a variety of reasons.

“… Good night, fool.”

Park Si-yoon gently closed his eyes while saying good-bye to the night. The answer to the question he asked earlier began to flow into his head.

– I don’t know either. I just have a feeling. I’m sure they’re trustworthy friends and younger siblings…. It’s a little different from you.

You know what, Siyoon Park? Actually I was the same. Subin and Choi Min-seong are trustworthy friends, and Han Yu-jin is also a precious younger brother to me, but strangely, he is a little different from you.

I don’t know what’s different. It’s just that when I woke up from that terrible dream, I thought that if there was anyone who could believe in this nonsense, you were the only one.

Thank you for accepting my silly foolishness. And see you tomorrow

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