Dreamland Guide

　　 April 2, Saturday, sunny

　　 Mom took me to Yanma Street to buy candies. There are so many candies there.

　　 I asked my mother why it is called Yanma Street.

　　 Mom said that before, the streets were selling cigarettes and marijuana.

　　 Then why is it still called Yanma Street and not Candy Street?

　　 Mom picked several kinds of candies for me. I said I just have to eat boro flavored. Mom bought me bo Luo flavored.

　　 I actually like to eat, but I know my mother has no money.

　　 There is a lunatic on Yanma Street, who looks so pitiful. I secretly gave him a candy.

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　　 Monday, May 16, overcast

　　 Today, I helped my mother kill chickens.

　　 I grabbed both feet of the chicken with one hand and its wings with the other. Mother put a handful of hair on the chicken's neck, then cut a knife in the hairless area, and used a bowl to follow the blood from the chicken's neck.

　　 The chicken must be very painful and struggle very fiercely. I couldn't catch it anymore, and the chicken ran away as soon as I let go. When it ran, its neck was still bleeding. After a while, it stopped leaving and fell to the ground. There is blood everywhere on the ground.

　　 Although it is pitiful, I haven't eaten chicken for a long time, and I am also pitiful.

　　 But my mother won't let me eat.

　　 Mom said that this chicken is for Dad.

　　 She cooked the chicken, took another bottle of wine, and put it on her father's grave.

　　 Mom said that today is Dad’s date.

　　 But my father is dead, and the dead cannot eat chicken.

　　 Mom said that Dad would eat it. Mom is really superstitious!

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　　 Tuesday, May 17, overcast

　　 I secretly went to the graveyard last night.

　　 I don’t believe my father will crawl out of the grave to eat chicken. If I don't go, the chicken will be eaten by the wild dog, not Dad.

　　The chicken is delicious.

　　 While eating chicken, I suddenly missed my dad.

　　 I don’t remember what he looks like.

　　 When I was young, he loved me the most. He often took me to Mandian to play and took me to ride a wooden horse. Later, he rarely came back, even in the middle of the night.

　　 Later he died.

　　 Everyone said he was a bad guy, a poisonous child.

　　 I think what they said is true.

　　 Once when my father came back, there was blood all over his body, and my mother kept crying. Dad took out a bag of white powder. Mom gave Dad an injection. After the shot, Dad pressed Mom **** the bed. Mom screamed in pain.

　　 They thought I was asleep, but I actually saw it all. I really want to drive my father away.

　　 The graveyard at night is very dark, with only a little bit of star light coming in.

　　 I was full and left half a chicken in the grave.

　　Dad, although you are a bad guy, I miss you.

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　　 May 31, Tuesday, light rain

　　 Mom is smoking a big cigarette again.

　　 She feels uncomfortable when she doesn't smoke, and I feel uncomfortable when I see her uncomfortable.

　　 Mom said that she can see her father when she smokes.

　　 But she didn't allow me to smell her smoke. She said the smoke is poisonous.

　　 I told her to stop smoking.

　　 She said that when I grow up, she will stop smoking.

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　　 Friday, June 3, sunny

　　 Daowazi said that I stole his rubber. I said I didn't steal it. He hit me, and I hit him too. He complained to Teacher Luo.

　　 Teacher Luo asked me why I would steal the eraser. I said I didn't steal it. Teacher Luo dropped my schoolbag on the ground, and the colored pencils Grandpa Nkun bought me broke and I was very sad.

　　 Teacher Luo wants me to owe the knife. I owe nothing. I didn't steal anything, why should I owe it?

　　 He said that I would owe him for beating people. But the knife hit me first. Why doesn't he owe it?

　　 Teacher Luo called me a poisonous child and asked me to face Libi horn. Libi Corner means that you must stand against the wall in the corner of the classroom without moving.

　　 When I set up a horn, the knife hit me in the back, and the classmates threw me with chalk and painted a tortoise on my back.

　　 I did not cry.

　　 When I got home, my mother saw black green on my hand and asked me what's wrong? I said that I fell in the dam mouth.

　　 Mom asked me if it hurts, but I said it didn't hurt.

　　 I wanted to cry, but I didn't cry.

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　　 June 19, Sunday, sunny

　　 Many terrible strangers came to the house, all of them painted strange pictures.

　　 Mom told me to hide in the back room not to go out.

　　 I heard them talking about Gulu outside, but I couldn't understand a word.

　　 Then they left, and I heard my mother crying outside.

　　 I went out and asked my mother what's wrong? Mother didn't speak.

　　 I saw some money on the table.

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　　 July 7, Thursday, rain

　　 Mom really stopped smoking. I think it's because I grew up. I already know how to pick tea, when I grow up a little bit, I can help my mother pick dry zhe.

　　 But mom seems to be sick. She went to Mandian for an injection. I saw a lot of black spots on her arm from injections.

　　 I don’t want to go to school anymore. Anyway, no one in the school likes me, they all say that I am the offspring of the bad guys, a poisonous child.

　　 I don't want to be a poisonous child, I want to help my mother cook, wash clothes, and do farm work.

　　 They all say that work is very tired, but I don't feel tired at all. As long as I am with my mother, I am not afraid of anything.

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　　 Tuesday, August 2, cloudy

　　 Mom is getting thinner and thinner. She has become very weird recently, and she often says that she is leaving and looking for her father.

　　 They said that my mother had a disease called Aizi.

　　Many people who get injections have this disease.

　　 I think my mother is ill, and my father is dead. Where can I find it?

　　 I went to see Grandpa Enkun, and I said to Grandpa: "Grandpa, I want to find a new father, so that my mother won't always miss my father."

　　 Grandpa Enkun smoked a cigarette and said, "Well~www.wuxiamtl.com~ Grandpa is getting older and older. I told him not to smoke. He always said: "Good. "But still smoking.

　　 Grandpa gave me a fish and asked me to eat tons of soup for my mother.

　　 I am happy to go home and make fish soup for my mother.

　　 I said to my mother: "You will get better if you eat fish soup. When you get better, Grandpa Nkun promised to find me a new father, so you won’t be sad."

　　 Mom ate the fish soup happily. I think I will have a new father soon.

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　　 August 27, Saturday, overcast

　　 Mom kept coughing sou and vomiting a lot of blood.

　　 I went to see Grandpa Enkun, and Grandpa asked someone to send my mother to Mandian. We took a car in Mandian to Ruihekou.

　　 This is my first time in a car. The speed of the car is fast, like flying. But my mother was uncomfortable. Seeing her so uncomfortable, I didn't have the mood to look at the scenery outside the window.

　　 We arrived at the hospital in Ruihekou. The doctor gave mother an injection. There is a long thin tube on the tail of the needle, which is connected to a bag of water. Water dripped into mother's body drop by drop, and her dry face became moisturized.

　　 I washed my mother's face and she woke up.

　　 Mom took my hand and said, "Beauty, I want to go home."

　　 I asked her: "Why?"

　　 She said: "It's not comfortable here, but it's comfortable at home."

　　 We stayed in the hospital for two days. The doctor said: "You can go home." We went home.

　　 Mom was lying on the bed, I helped her wash her hands, and she asked me to get a picture of Dad.

　　 I took the photo of my father from the wall and gave it to her, and then I went to cook.

　　 The rice is cooked, I'm going to call my mother, my mother is dead, and I hold my father's picture tightly in my arms.