End of Mystery

"What?"

The moment this idea appeared, Xiao Xiao suddenly woke up with a start, covered in cold sweat from fright.

It was almost the first time in his life that he was the slowest, but after reacting, he entered the state of thinking explosion in the most flustered state. He quickly analyzed his current spirit and psychology, and then he became more and more shocked: "Why did I suddenly give birth to a baby?" Such an idea? It was so natural, and suddenly there was an idea that maybe death can solve all problems..."

The mood has been extremely gloomy, and I actually feel that death has become the only thing that still has color.

"Am I under some kind of influence?"

"Is it this kind of influence that caused me to have the emotional change?"

"Is this a kind of power that can make me lose all happiness, liveliness, and joy, leaving only a gloomy mood?"

"..."

Xiao Xiao analyzed quickly in his heart, and even hesitated for a moment, whether to move forward.

At this moment, his mobile phone suddenly rang, and he almost needed a lot of motivation before he was willing to pick up the mobile phone, as if he knew that the information from the mobile phone was very important at this time, but he didn't I am too lazy to look at it, because I feel that there is nothing in the world that I need to care about or care about: "You have entered the radiation range, please proceed with caution."

"If necessary, you can withdraw."

"..."

Only then did Xiao Xiao notice that there were no living people in the surrounding wards.

It seems that it is precisely because of this that Mr. Ye cannot communicate with himself with the help of other people's mouths, but can only send messages.

"Do you want to quit?"

Xiao Xiao hesitated for a moment, but continued to walk forward.

He also confirmed the horror of this kind of radiation power, but the ability to think explosively can help him alleviate it a little.

The power of this emotional radiation is like polluting a blank sheet of paper.

Xiao Xiao discovered a long time ago that his thoughts exploded, like endlessly stretching the blank paper so that it would not be completely covered.

So he tightened his mind and went deeper step by step, clearly feeling his emotions falling into an endless abyss.

Gradually, even though he had already reacted and began to intentionally fight against this invisible pollution, he still felt more and more depressed. Everything he could perceive became gray and pale, and everything was dull. Instead, it piled up into a thick, terrifying cloud layer that cut off all sunlight and rain, leaving only the gloomy gloom pressing on my heart.

Death became the only temptation.

It's like being locked in an airtight black room, every second becomes as long as ten years or hundreds of years.

Death is the only key to leave this dark room.

After he took a few steps, he even backed up again, untied his silver pistol and dagger, and put them in the corner.

I dare not move forward with these things, for fear that this desire for death will make me shoot myself.

In this way, he endured endless depression, resisted the "desire for death" that had become the real and only desire, and walked towards the end of the corridor bit by bit. Before that, he even couldn't understand that "death" could also be It became as strong as "hunger and thirst" and "sexual desire", occupying the most important position of one's soul, as if forming the meaning of "salvation".

The backlog of gloom in his heart has turned into complete darkness.

He even felt that every movement was so difficult, that his body had been taken over by darkness, stiff and cold.

Even the body is longing for death, but the spirit is still supporting it in pain and suffering...

Nosebleeds flowed out slowly.

This is a phenomenon in which Xiao Xiao even used his ability to explode his mind to the extreme.

If it wasn't for his ability to think explosively, he didn't know how long he could last, and he might have already shot himself.

But just when this exceeded the limit, he finally came to the end of the corridor.

Turning around stiffly, I saw a person sitting on a chair in the center of an empty room on the left.

The door of the ward was not opened, or rather, it had been torn down.

It was just so open, and in the empty room, there was only a plastic chair, and the figure sat quietly on it.

He was wearing a black dress, but strangely, Xiao Xiao was sure that he was a man.

His slender arms, resting on his knees, were full of marks from knife cuts.

[Taboo things: Death's favored person]

【Hazardous Level: Class A】

[Description: In a dark and boring world, death has become the only sweet candy]

【…】

"Class A?"

Xiao Xiao couldn't help being a little shocked in his heart.

This is the first time he has seen A-level special items.

No, it's not the first time, it seems that the little girl from the Rotten Kingdom I saw before was also A-level.

But for Xiao Xiao, when he saw that little girl, he didn't have enough fear because he didn't understand her. , with a gloomy sense of despair.

"Is this the woman you're talking about? But he's obviously a man..."

He talked to himself and asked Mr. Ye.

At this moment, the mobile phone rang. It was located next to this woman. The ringtone of the mobile phone seemed extremely dull and slow, as if hearing the ringtone across a sea. Xiao Xiao picked up the phone with clumsy limbs and heard it. Mr. Ye's words:

"Yes, that's her. There's nothing wrong with this name."

"He is the only A-level abnormal creature that has appeared in Black Gate City in recent years but has not been cleaned up."

"..."

"A-level deformed creature?"

Xiao Xiao was even more surprised: "Even the Kingdom of Rot is only a B-level distortion."

"Yes."

The microphone was clearly attached to his ear, but Mr. Ye's voice seemed to be coming from the sky: "The old president and I discovered her a long time ago, but we didn't clean her up. Because of some special circumstances, she controlled her. She herself did not release the distortion effect, but because of this, she has become the biggest threat to the entire Black Gate City, not only threatening us, but of course also threatening the hell organization."

"It's just that she is too uncontrollable, so I don't have the ability to take advantage of her threat."

"..."

Xiao Xiao took a deep breath and said, "So, you want me to try?"

Mr. Ye said: "You are the president, and you are qualified to decide whether to use her or get rid of her."

Xiao Xiao was slightly silent, countless thoughts flashed through his mind quickly, and then he made a decision in a very short time.

He was silent, but the three eyes of the seer quickly looked at the man.

The ability of the seer is undoubtedly revealed at this moment. With the observation of the three eyes, and then overlapped, he saw a little spiritual power released under the huge emotional radiation of this man, and then began to understand this spiritual power. Carrying out the analysis is like starting the dual flow of space and time on this man, but there will not be so much pressure.

Under normal circumstances, in reality, or in other words, at the city level, Xiao Xiao will be under great load and pressure to exercise this ability. That is because he is going back to the time and space of the entire city, but for a single person, the load And a lot less stress.

One of the abilities of the third stage of the insight, perhaps it can be called: mental profiling?

Looking back at the city level, I am profiling the spiritual power of the city level, and now it is profiling the individual.

...

...

Everything around him suddenly became unreal, and Xiao Xiao saw sections of his life:

In this sanatorium, which already seems a little outdated, some special patients are often sent in. There are middle-aged men who can always hear hallucinations and auditory hallucinations, and there are women who can't control their temper, but as this family They are used to the nurses in the hospital, especially the girl who always smiles and seems to be bathed in sunshine all over her body, who is the most patient with them.

This girl is always smiling to everyone, especially to the boy who is still young.

For some unknown reason, the boy fell into deep depression. He was sent here by his family because of repeated wrist cutting or taking sleeping pills. The responsibility of the hospital is to take good care of him and cure him, so as to avoid one day when he really successfully completes it. suicide.

The young female nurse took good care of him, chatted with him, brought him small gifts, and talked about movies with him.

The boy knew that she wanted to arouse his desire to survive, and he also calmly explained to the girl that he had always been in a gloomy spiritual world, explaining that there was no longer anything worthy of his concern in this world, not hypocrisy, but I really can only feel this kind of gloomy thing, exhausted all methods, but I can't make myself happy, just depressed.

"It was so painful and I just wanted it to end."

He explained all this calmly, without even asking her to understand.

"I understand."

The girl smiled and replied: "Depression, that's it. As long as you take the medicine on time, you can always cure yourself. After you cure yourself, you can feel happy again. These gloomy emotions, the tide of despair , will disappear.”

The boy remained silent and gave up hope.

Because even if he came to the hospital, he had tried to commit suicide several times, so the hospital also regarded him as a thorn in the side, staring at him all the time, so after the girl persuaded him a few times, she could only resort to violence against him. With the trump card, she held his palm pitifully, and said: "Now you are under my control, you can't harm me, if you die, my hope of promotion and salary increase will be ruined."

The boy closed his eyes silently, he really couldn't bear to ruin her future.

Because this sunny girl has a clear plan for her life. She wants to work, earn money, marry a particularly handsome husband, have three children, raise a dog and a cat, and live her best life. Happy and beautiful...

He envied this kind of warm and bright life, and couldn't bear to ruin it.

So he is also enduring, even if the desire for death always comes out of his mind quietly, he is enduring it.

I can't feel sorry for this girl, she has always been very kind to herself.

However, this kind of patience is powerless, the world is getting darker and darker, so dark that I can't breathe all the time, the grayness settles a little bit, and even begins to turn into darkness, the strong and inextricable darkness, which is under control My body is so stiff and numb, it seems that even breathing has become a luxury, as if every second of despair weighs a ton, and it keeps accumulating.

Death became the only sweet candy.

That kind of temptation gradually overwhelmed everything else, and still made him want to chase after it impatiently.

After another attempt, he almost fell into a peaceful sleep, but he was still found and rescued.

While lying on the hospital bed, he saw the girl again. The girl changed into casual clothes, a small black skirt, and her face looked very pale. It was only after seeing this girl that he realized that he seemed to have not seen her for a long time Yes, she lost weight.

"Why do you want to seek death again?"

She held his palm with an angry expression: "So many people want to live, why do you want to die?"

He is powerless to explain because he has lost the desire to explain.

Then the girl looked at his expression, and suddenly reached out and plucked off her own hair.

She who used to have thick and beautiful hair turned into a bald head at this time, and tears welled up in her red eyes: "I want to live, I am not married yet, and I have no children of my own. I know overtime, work, I haven't even raised a puppy of my own, but I'm going to die, the doctor said my disease can't be cured, I'm going to die..."

He hasn't felt shocked for a long time, and his emotions are like a lake of stagnant water, never turbulent.

But at this time, there was a ripple uncontrollably, and he leaned up in disbelief, looking at the girl.

"How I want to live..."

The girl held his palm, and tears of fear flowed from her eyes: "But I have no chance to live anymore."

"You have a chance to live, but why do you refuse?"

"This is the last time I come to see you, will you promise me?"

"Don't look for death anymore, just treat it as fulfilling the wish to live for me, okay?"

"..."

"..."

Since then, he has never seen the girl again.

I asked other nurses, but all I saw were regretful expressions.

But whenever the turbulent despair surges at night, he can always see the red eyes of the girl, and see her crying and begging himself to let him live her share of life, so he feels a kind of Unprecedented pressure, can only hold on.

Living is painful, but I have no right to end this pain.

Because I promised that girl, I could only keep my promise and live in this world for her.

This nursing home has found a turning point: "The most troublesome guy in the hospital is the guy who thinks about suicide at every turn, as if he lives to commit suicide, and now he seems to have become obedient. He used to make troubles every once in a while. It made everyone hard to guard against, but now he is fine, he asked the doctor for a little black skirt, and every time he fell ill, he would wear this skirt."

"Then he doesn't commit suicide anymore, he just sits there quietly and waits for the urge to die to pass."

"That little skirt is more useful than restraint belts..."