Harry Potter’s Book of Sin

Sarah once said that she is a defective product.

Since she was born in this world, she has no emotions. It is a kind of incomplete thing that looks like life but not life.

Yes, in fact, it can be said that she is just an “item” who is lucky enough to have self-awareness. That’s all.

Marx doesn’t know how Sarah has been treating this world for so many years. But from the beginning of the strange to the later familiarity, it should not be much different from a child growing up.

At least, on a spiritual level, this should be the case.

It’s hard to imagine how she actually looks at her own…

“and many more!”

When Marx re-drawn the energy of the enchanted monument back into the gems and disconnected his supply of magic power to the rune array, he suddenly thought of a problem and couldn’t help but ask.

“Say, why do you want to get emotional?” He is quite puzzled. “If you have emotions and are hidden for some reason, I can still understand some, but ……”

“Why?”

Sarah stood in the line and thought for a moment, but shook her head again.

“I don’t know, I just think… I want to have emotions,” she said, a little confused. “That’s what I lack, I want to get something I don’t have, isn’t it… is it normal?”

“Is it normal?” Marx looked at her and repeated the word.

“Isn’t it?” Sarah stroking her cheeks and gently said, “For example, when I think of Phillips, I should be sad… But I don’t even understand what sadness is. Even if I watched the crying of others, I didn’t understand what it was like.”

She said, as if she once again felt the slap of Phillips hitting her face, the subtle touch made her life unforgettable.

“In this case, I would really want to really appreciate it – even for a moment.”

At this moment, however, Marx’s fingers immediately pointed to Sarah.

“Yes, this is it!” he frowned. “I just mentioned it? Emotion is the appearance of desire, and your desire for emotion itself is not a desire?”

After pointing out this key, Marx recalled and continued: “You know, I have lost emotion for a while. At that time, my mindset changed a lot… said Really, if I had never had emotions, I might not even know what to do at that time!”

Now think about it, that feeling is still very terrifying.

Marx clearly remembers that at the time, he could not even be afraid of it. There is only one sense of violation that drives him secretly, letting him discover through self-analysis that the state is likely to be bad.

Therefore, he will begin to imitate himself as much as possible after understanding the status quo, and find reasons for him to move on.

Otherwise, he can hardly imagine what he will look like now.

Having said that, he looked at Sarah again.

“And you,” he analyzed. “You haven’t had any past as a reference from the beginning. How do you find the motivation to move forward on this world?”

“Not to mention that you want to get emotional.” – This sentence Marx did not say anything, but what he wanted to express, but already passed to Sarah.

“Forward momentum……”

Sarah tried to think hard with a puzzling expression, and Marx could see that she was quite difficult to understand about what was already very close to the problem.

In fact, if you change to a normal person, it is difficult to find an answer to this dialectical discussion.

For Sarah, this is a key – if you can understand it, then she may be a big step closer to the “emotion” she needs.

As for Marx’s position, I really want to help Sarah. Because nowadays, Sarah’s harvest is completely linked to his study of the soul and the monument to the enchantment.

It is a pity that this is the only place where he can help.

“Oh, Sarah,” Marx seemed to think of something suddenly when he was thinking about it. “I still have a question to ask you… probably this question will be easier to answer than it was.”

“What?” Sarah raised her eyes slightly.

“I want to know, how do you understand your own existence?” Marx asked. “As I know, I am a ‘human’… This answer may not be accurate, but it is my own Cognition.”

“I?” Sarah thought. “I have thought about this question many times before. I think… I should be considered an ‘item’…?”

Obviously, she is still very uncertain about this answer, but it is no wonder.

“Is it?” Marx nodded. “Then look at this -“

As he spoke, he pulled out a thick book and threw it at his feet. Then, as he waved his staff, the book swelled immediately.

It can be seen that under the control of Marx, the book changes shape quickly. In the blink of an eye, it is transformed from books into a group of irregular substances, and it is constantly refined.

Not long after, in the open space between the two, a young girl who was almost indistinguishable from Sarah appeared.

“Look at her,” Marx said. “What do you think is different from your own understanding of yourself and her?”

This is actually like an ordinary person analyzing himself in the mirror, but the realism created by transfiguration like Marx is unmatched by the mirror.

Previously in the Defense Against the Dark Arts class, Snape’s Boggart training course also caused Sarah to experience similar situations. But now, in the case of a purposeful self-examination, the effect must be significantly more significant.

When Sarah was drawn to the female child who was exactly like herself, Marx was also carefully watching all of her changes, and this may be a good time to find a breakthrough.

However, if he can know what happened to Sarah in the face of Boggart, maybe there is no need to be so troublesome…

“Do not……”

It was only a moment that Sarah felt like something incomprehensible and subconsciously took a half step back.

“I… I don’t understand,” she said, deep in a deep breath, and then she took a half step back. It seemed to want to stay away from something that was very similar to her. “I think… very uncomfortable, I don’t want to see her.” Can you get her away?”

“Sure enough?”

Marx, while secretly nodded, once again turned his wand to change the “doll” that resembled Sarah back to the book.

In fact, he understood when he saw Sarah’s performance, and Sarah didn’t seem to really have no emotional emotions. Because when she sees an object that seems to be the same as herself, she feels different because of the nuances of the other person.

And that kind of strange feeling is undoubtedly a faint fear.

“Sarah,” Marx couldn’t help but reveal a smile after he had pondered it. “I have to congratulate you first. It turns out that although the experiment failed, my guess seems to be wrong… well, or That is at least not quite complete.”

He paused, and then went on to say: “You may not lack emotion, just… your emotional changes are too weak for ordinary people.”

“I have emotions?”

Sarah blinked her eyes and looked down at her hands as if she was looking for a real feeling. On the other side of Marx, seeing her as a puzzle is like a bit relieved, and my heart is a little more relieved.

After arriving at this conclusion, Marx himself was actually somewhat disappointed.

Because he originally thought, if Sarah really did not have emotions, he might even take the opportunity to let Sarah confirm another conjecture for him.

And that speculation involves the roots of the power of the enchanting monument.

That’s right, he has decided to accept the next test of Rowena Ravenclaw.

However, if his conjecture is confirmed, then the real master of the enchanting monument will not be him – but Sarah in front of him.

As for Marx himself, it would be like trying to control the alienated Acromantula and try to be the only one after another who can control Sarah.

If Sarah can live without calming down after getting emotional, then he will not interfere with Sarah’s affairs, and if not, he will assume the responsibility he should take.

However, even Marx did not think of it beforehand, Sarah is actually normal with emotion.

However, her emotions are very weak, that’s all.

“…so, will Ravenclaw’s test have to be put on hold?” Marx, who was somewhat hesitant about the matter, shook his head. “That’s fine…”

“Professor McLorne?”

Seeing that Marx seemed to be wondering what, Sarah waited for a little while and then screamed at him.

“Oh,” Marx said, reorganizing his mood and saying, “In short, today’s attempt is here first… In fact, we have a lot of gains, aren’t we?”

Through a little understanding, Sarah has also felt some very subtle doubts. At Marx’s reminder, she sums up those doubts and makes herself aware of it – it may be just a trace of her emotions.

“Yes,” Sarah bowed. “Thank you, Professor McLorne.”

Marx hearing this, and did not say anything like “no thanks” greeted words. Although his harvest is far less than he expected, it does not mean that there is nothing at all.

but……

“The monument to sorrow… Is it really for me to come by myself?”