I Just Want To Farm

  Look at them all, they all said that I rarely speak. I thought about it in the middle of the night last night, and I wrote a lot today.

  Originally, yesterday I decided not to guard against theft, because of various considerations and a helpless compromise, but overall my mood is fairly relaxed, probably as if I have untied the rope.

  But soon someone said to me: Great, in fact, you are very popular in the world of piracy.

  I didn’t quite understand the meaning of this sentence at the time. Was it commendatory or derogatory?

   Then she said that because many novels are pirated, mine is very popular, because most people download it to read it, so the popularity is quite high.

  I was Spartan at that time, because I have always felt that I wrote novels with typos and thieves, sometimes procrastinated, there are bugs, there should be no one who likes to steal me.

She said, "No money, there is a plot, you can watch it, and because you basically don't ask for tickets, you rarely ask for this, you don't ask for anything, we all feel that you are not short of money, and you wrote a novel that was pirated. It doesn't matter.

  I feel at ease when I look at it, I watch TXT all the way from Zuowei to farming.

  I didn’t know what to say at the time, I just made a little joke, but I couldn’t fall asleep when I went to bed last night, so I cried somehow.

  Actually, I don’t know why I cry, maybe I think I’m doing something wrong.

It is true that I am definitely a person who loves money. I have my own financial needs. I also desire to earn both fame and fortune like others, but like my parents’ education of honest people-no matter how poor they are, I can’t ask for help, and try not to Troublesome.

Yes, I don’t ask. The reason for being a bit lazy is also because I don’t want to put myself too low, and I don’t want to pretend to be pitiful. Actually, I am not pitiful either. Writing "Bai Fumei" to others for free viewing or selling TXT for free is a long way away.

  So, I should reveal what kind of person I am at least not a strong person who is treated harshly.

I was born in a rural area, and here in the county is still concentrated in the typhoon area of ​​the year. In a poor county, my village is still a poor village in the county. At that time, I only went to the bookstore in the county when I was in the second year of junior high. It costs more than 20 yuan for the books in the store, because I told my classmates how much money I have, and it seemed that I couldn't afford it. The staff member heard it and said-don't buy it, don't touch it.

  This sentence left a deep impression on me, and I can’t forget it until now.

  Then I only had a mobile phone when I was in the third year of high school, and I didn’t use it at the time, but when I was studying, I contacted people of the same age. Some people had poorer homes and had no concept, so I didn’t feel painful.

Later, when I went to Ningbo from university, I took the bus for the first time. My sister from the same village took me on the bus. I didn’t know that I had to pay two dollars, and I didn’t have a bus card. When I was in the bus, I knew that I should be my age. Start using facial cleanser.

After graduating, let’s not talk about the difficulty of finding a job. My family is definitely not able to help, and girls, the family’s network resources are basically not used on me. I tried dragging my suitcase to a city, but I dragged it that night. The embarrassment of returning with the suitcase.

  However, it is not easy to find a job and it has something to do with not studying well. Most of them are people like me, and there is nothing to complain about. After all, this is also a causal relationship.

  Let’s talk about it now, after all, the most important thing is now.

  In fact, I think now is when I feel that I am the poorest, because I grow up and know how important money is.

Last year, my mother accidentally lost a tooth. It was a front tooth. Yes, the front tooth. As a woman, you should all understand. My mother insisted on not making it up for half a year. She also insisted not to laugh in public. She looked awkward. , Because it’s too expensive to make an incisor, costing several thousand.

  Later, her relatives and children got married and she had to go for a drink. The aunts and uncles in the family persuaded her to get one, otherwise it would be too much.

  PS: When my mother was young, several nearby villages were famous for their good-looking looks.

  She was very hesitant. I couldn’t bear it. I gave her money and forced her to get her teeth. Otherwise, her teeth would still leak.

Also in March and April this year, we have a lot of tea here in my hometown, which is also lucky. The first season of tea is very expensive. The young and old in the village are very happy. So are my parents, although I have to get up and sit for an hour after four o’clock in the morning. My tricycle went to pick tea in the mountains, but they might feel that it would not be hard to make money. It was useless to persuade me, but no one thought that the next day my mother picked tea, the house would be stolen by a thief for more than nine thousand.

  At that time, I was worried that they would be too sad, so I took ten thousand to give them. My mother didn’t ask for it, and said: It’s okay, this is probably fate.

But she told me later that she had to bear it, because she believed in Buddhism, she would just reciting some sutras silently. There were gains and losses, but my dad was in pain. When he sent her to Chashan at five o’clock the next day, Said one sentence: How can it be so hard to be a human being.

  In those two days, my dad's expression was gray.

  More than nine thousand, how much does he have to do to earn it back?

   And my mother, with the mentality that the family had lost more than 9,000 in advance, she would eat two dry bread and a bottle of water a day from picking tea in the morning to the evening in the rainy day and the hot day.

  Every day after that, the effort is to make up for more than nine thousand losses. I think this gain and loss is no less than a kind of spiritual torture-your efforts will always only make up for the loss, not the gain.

  Or you can compare your heart to heart.

In fact, I have been out of society for many years. I graduated in 12 years and wrote novels full-time in 13 years. I have been working for five or six years. In the previous years, my income was not high, and the 100,000 or 200,000 I could earn and save were basically posted at home. At that time, I set aside three thousand yuan for food for the next month-I thought, after so many years to help my family get a house, at least I am not ashamed of my daughter's filial piety.

  Then I started saving my own money last year, because I am not too young, I am 27.

  Are these pitiful? It’s not pitiful, I don’t have any sickness, I don’t have a husband or a child to raise, I’m still a single dog, I’ve been very fate, I don’t meet someone I like and suitable, and I never thought of letting my parents with a heavy burden help me. One point or two, I just want to be lonely and die in the future. I can save a little house on my own and live my own little life. So, don’t you think of me as someone who wants nothing. , I just can’t let go.

I always laugh at the poor but not at the prostitution. I am always afraid that I will become the most common person, and I am envious of the achievements and income of others. I am changing a little bit, and I am also keeping my heart a little bit, at least to get myself morally. I’m very touched by those who have been watching the genuine version, and those who watch the pirated version, I’m grateful for liking my book, but I also hope that you can try your best to watch the genuine version. A subscription of 10 yuan a month can give me more comfort.

  Basically, it is very likely that Farming is also the last book. When I first wrote it, I had booked a farewell essay on Girls.com because I was a little tired of staying in the same place forever.

  I hope everyone can cherish this last fate,

  (End of this chapter)