I Really Didn’t Want to be a Savior

　　 This month's reward speech dragged to today, really ashamed.

how to say.

　　 This autumn is indeed a troubled autumn.

　　 People speak lightly, but a duckweed shakes the sea.

　　 looked back at him all the way, never smooth sailing, but desperate.

　　I am indeed a very simple person.

　　 has three goals in writing a book.

　　 First, feed the family.

　　 Second, loyal to hobbies.

　　 Three, named Qingqing history.

　　 I never dare to misrepresent talents.

　　 After all, there are not many people who haven't achieved anything after writing fifteen years.

　　In this industry, I wrote about my year, either how much I have already held a great divine appointment, or I have already recognized myself and changed my career.

　　 Fifteen years of not red taste, it is difficult to describe in words.

　　Life is only a few decades, and I don't know how many 15 years can be wasted here.

　　Every night when people are quiet, I always think that when I get old, I can't press the keyboard and I can't write a beautiful story. Will I regret my choice.

　　I have always said to people that I am very peaceful and do not envy jealous gods.

　　 But I seldom tell others that my so-called peace was not born like this, but it was just kneeling in the quagmire again and again, struggling to struggle, and finally learned to face reality.

　　 My reality is very simple.

　　 I am too weak, too rotten, too garbage.

　　I was using my talents that I didn't have to force myself into an industry that didn't match my talents.

　　 After all, the reader's eyes are sharp. Why should I wait fifteen years if I can write a good book?

　　I am self-proclaimed as clever, but in fact stupid and ridiculous.

　　 Really smart people should have gone for a more suitable path.

　　I don't know if I'm afraid of change, or if I'm not reconciled.

　　The ups and downs of these days, the author sees it, the reader also sees it.

　　 Actually, I understand many people's claims and positions, and the rights that everyone wants to fight for.

　　 I thought about saying something.

　　 But I woke up suddenly, I was not worthy.

　　 Others worry that they won't get more generous rewards after the book is red.

　　If it was fifteen years ago, I would have exactly the same worry and the same indignation. At that time, I was young and bloody.

　　 But when I looked back, the fifteen years behind me, I couldn't even write a book with coveted value.

　　 is not a year, not two years, but fifteen years.

　　 There are really few fifteen years in a person's life.

After fifteen years, I still haven't been able to write something worth fighting for.

　　 So I thought, what am I fighting for?

　　A man who hasn't been able to write a red book for fifteen years, what is it worth fighting for?

　　 survived, it was already tough enough.

　　 The current trend of "Savior" is also the best time since I started this industry.

　　 I told myself that the strong winds and waves outside were violent, but in the end it was not my life.

　　 What I should care about and always pay attention to is that I must be worthy of my book and my readers who have always supported me.

　　 So I'm trying very hard to keep my head empty.

　　 I don't think about anything, only a very simple idea.

　　Write your own book.

　　 Smashing the writing, how will the outside environment develop in the future, no matter what gets better or worse, what can I expect?

　　Who will help me support my family?

　　 Help me pay the debt?

　　I am worthy of myself, worthy of the readers of this book till now?

　　 In addition, I don’t know how you think about the quality of the most recent chapters of The Redeemer.

　　 From my own point of view, I am not satisfied, I am never satisfied with myself.

　　 This book will inevitably become more and more difficult to write to the back, and the difficulty of creation is increasing at a geometric level.

Not only must it be logical, the scene is constantly being enlarged, but also to start with the details, the characters must be vivid, and the plot must be interesting and fascinating. The so-called truths I talked about, but also the readers must be interesting and able. Thoughts.

　　 The core of this book is actually very sad.

　　 This is the biggest difficulty I face now.

　　I must, and can only concentrate on this matter with all my might.

　　 Otherwise, I'm sorry no one.

　　 By middle age, the corners were smoothed, but I still remember what my original intention was to write the story.

　　 I am still arrogant.

　　 still wants to be a writer who can write works that are memorable enough, rather than always being said to be a code word.

　　One hundred years later, some people read my book, and because of my book, they were full of blood, moved to tears, and laughed.

　　 I am still greedy.

　　 I also want to be rich, just like JK Rowling.

　　 At the same time, I also always firmly believe that the wealth and talent of a writer can be equal.

　　 I can't guarantee that this book will do it.

　　 Thanks to all readers who subscribed, rewarded and voted for me during April 2020.

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