Incurable Pain

Yu Luoyin originally thought that this trip to Puerto Rico was just a rare episode in his life.

But he didn't expect to change his life in the dark.

After arriving in New York, Yu Luoyin threw away the flight ticket to Puerto Rico, and instead stayed there for a week.

In fact, he has been to New York many times, and didn't deliberately want to go, just...wandering aimlessly, instead, he went to the hospital many times.

Yu Luoyin didn't understand why he became obsessed with the hospital, probably because this was the ‘turning point’ between him and Bai Xunyin.

In any case, he was very grateful for the three months they had had a good time.

At least he was totally immersed in it.

So many people are afraid of avoiding places, but he just lingers.

A week later, Yu Luoyin returned to Lin Lan.

Because Lan Da is about to start school.

But this week he left, except for Zhou Xin to send a message with a few of their friends to greet, no one heard from him.

It's as if one's own existence will never affect Yu Yuan and Gu Yuan's mood, let alone... let alone others.

After the plane landed, Yu Luoyin turned on the phone that had been shut down for a week, and scanned the hundreds of messages in a circle and found no Baixunyin, not surprisingly.

He chuckles somewhat self-deprecatingly.

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Compared with the chaos in high school, college days can be said to be almost ‘enjoy’. There are no endless papers, workbooks, sea tactics, the teacher’s ‘eye of death’ behind the teacher, and endless pressure...

But for Yu Luoyin, such days are no different from "Salted Fish".

Even if his major is astronomy that he has worked hard for and loved, even if he is actually busy with many things in college.

Yu Luoyin still feels empty and terribly empty inside.

This is an inexplicable sense of emptiness that can't be filled even if it is hard to make oneself busy every day.

It's like being cut a big hole in the bottom of my heart.

Yu Luoyin knew that he shouldn't be like this.

What kind of education has he received since childhood? What kind of xinxing is being tempered?

Even if he lost Bai Xunyin and temporarily frustrated and felt embarrassed, he shouldn't be the way he is now.

So Yu Luoyin stepped back into the Cong'an Psychological Clinic, which he hadn't been to for a long time, and went to find Lu Ying.

"I feel like I'm being torn apart by a deep contradiction."

Metaphor

Luo Yin sat across from the wide table in front of Lu Ying. The boy lowered his eyes slightly, his long eyelashes blocked the intricate black eyes, and then he laughed embarrassedly: "Sister Lu, I don't know what to do."

He speaks vaguely, even he doesn't even know what to express.

But Lu Ying looked at the boy's fluffy, messy black hair, pale face, and blank eyes, and knew that Yu Luoyin was in a terrible state now.

Even if he looks normal on the surface, but his eyes are loose, it is already a sign of abnormality.

Lu Ying's heart was beating wildly, and she asked tentatively, "Why? Emotionally or academically?"

Yu Luoyin laughed mockingly: "It's all in a mess."

Lu Ying frowned, and subconsciously said, "How is it possible?"

She knew what a good boy Yu Luoyin was, and the four words "a mess" were almost impossible to connect with him in Lu Ying's thinking.

But Yu Luoyin said he was... in a mess?

"Sister Lu." Yu Luoyin's black eyes looked hollow on the desktop, seeming to mutter to himself: "What if I make a decision that the whole world will oppose me?"

What he said was'to do' instead of'want to do', and Lu Ying instantly understood that Yu Luoyin had plans in her heart.

Although I don't know what he is going to do, but...

"You should remember what I said to you, as long as you don't break the law." Lu Ying smiled: "As you please, the sky won't fall down."

Yes, the sky won't fall down anyway.

Yu Luoyin smiled, as if he was suddenly enlightened when he left.

On the next day, he went to the school leader and submitted an application for withdrawal.

This is the second month of the first semester of his freshman year.

Few students who were admitted to C9 and were in key departments applied for withdrawal. Of course, the school refused to accept it easily. They kept asking Yu Luoyin why, and even suspected that he had a problem in his heart and asked him to ask for a psychologist.

Then, both Gu Yuan and Yu Yuan were found.

But no matter how everyone asked, how to persuade, how to ask him what he thought with a look of looking at the monster, Yu Luoyin had only one answer—

"I want to repeat."

That's right, he is so ‘sick’ and self-willed. He wants to repeat and be a senior high school student.

From then on, even if he loses the advantage of being a ‘fresh graduate’, he will never regret it.

Yu Luoyin is such a person, resolutely and decisively, and never leaves room for doing things.

Do not regret it.

He dropped out because he didn’t want to go to Lan

Learning astronomy is that simple.

The reason for repeating the study was because he wanted to take the medical college entrance examination and become a doctor. The cause and effect were clear at a glance.

There is a saying that ‘to persuade people to study medicine, thunder strikes the sky’, which shows that the daily and future of medical students will be more bitter than sweet.

But often the bitterness of several days will be easily offset by the bursting sweetness of the sense of accomplishment after the successful operation, so this is the goal that Yu Luoyin insists on.

Of course, it was more difficult to be at the Medical University than when he was at Lan University. The countless courses and internships made people feel like a spinning top, but even so, he would still think of Bai Xunyin.

Occasional misses, or overwhelming thoughts when you can't sleep at night.

When he entered the freshman year of university again, Yu Luoyin was one year older than others, thin and introverted, with an aura of ‘not angry or presumptuous’ in his body.

It is clear and gentle, but the indifferent sense of vacuum on his body makes everyone afraid of him.

During the New Year's Day, when Li Yuan and Zhou Xin came out with them, the latter were a little surprised--

"Brother Yu, are you medical students too busy to eat?"

Yu Luoyin was shocked to realize that he was already so thin, and his wrists and knuckles were clearly visible.

But he obviously had a good meal.

In all likelihood, this may be because of the ‘lovesick’.

So the next day, Yu Luoyin booked a plane ticket to go to the north, just as decisive as when he wanted to go to Puerto Rico, without hesitation.

If you want to be alone, why wait?

Bai Xunyin doesn't come back to look for him, so he will go look for her.

It's just that he is close to the hometown, and went to the north to stand outside the school gate. Seeing the rare bright and healthy smile on the girl's cold face, Yu Luoyin didn't dare to come closer.

He took out a cigarette, stood by the tree and smoked for a while, looking at Bai Xunyin almost greedily through a layer of hoarfrost.

The winter in the north is extremely cold, the smoke is fleeting, and the hoarfrost is all his breath.

But when I saw Bai Xunyin, I didn't feel cold.

Don't bother you for now, just wait for you.

Yu Luoyin whispered secretly, but in his eyes the wicked and arrogant momentum was sure to win.

I don't know why, he always feels that Bai Xunyin will still be his sooner or later. When it comes to the reason, it's actually not difficult-it's just that Yu Luoyin thinks this girl looks down on others.

Moreover, I look down on others.

Yu Luoyin raised the corners of his mouth and smiled inconspicuously, then picked up the phone and patted the little girl in the distance.

Baby, just charge me.

this is

In the second year after they were separated, Yu Luoyin learned to secretly hit Feidi to see people.

Missing is nothing, as long as he has the money to fly, he can see Bai Xunyin.

With ‘charge’, the time is much faster, and five years have passed in the blink of an eye.

In the sixth year, the "accident" appeared at a family dinner.

By coincidence, Yu Shitian's girly film was also from the University of Technology. After graduating and returning home, she went to work in her company and complained all day about the lives of social animals.

When Yu Luoyin listened, he felt trivial, and he didn't ask any questions.

He didn't want to expose his thoughts in front of his family, so he always restrained He Yu Shitian from inquiring about Bai Xunyin.

Even if he knew that even if he deliberately inquired, he probably wouldn't be able to inquire, because the girl was always low-key and excessive.

Until this dinner, Yu Luoyin accidentally saw a picture of her and Bai Xunyin on Yu Shitian's phone.

He drank a little wine that day, and for a moment he felt a sudden stop of breathing.

In medicine, this is a state of stress caused by excessive excitement—Yu Luoyin can only look at the photo stupidly, unable to move his eyes.

Yu Shitian thought he was drunk: "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

Yu Luoyin didn't answer, but stared at the photo blankly, with an imperceptible reddish under his eyes.

Gradually, Yu Shitian noticed his gaze and laughed clearly.

"It looks good, right? No boys in our school don't look at them when they see their sister." Yu Shitian shook his phone inexplicably and proudly: "But I didn't expect your brother to look stupid, sure enough. My sister is the best in the world."

Yu Luoyin's voice was a bit difficult: "...sister?"

"Yes, the flower of our school's part-time job, Gaolingzhihua, is the first in the school. The goddess with a full scholarship is something mortals can only look up to." At this point, Yu Shitian patted his chest: "But I I have a super good relationship with her, so I will call her sister."

Yu Luoyin didn't interrupt, quietly listening to Bai Xunyin's experience in the past few years from others, and only smiled after a long while.

He said softly: "Really?"

In fact, he knew better than anyone how good Bai Xunyin was.

It's just that this excellence was spied on by everyone, and he was still jealous and going crazy.

"Yes." Yu Shitian nodded naturally: "The most coincidental thing is that her hometown is also Lin Lan, and she is coming back recently. I told my sister that she must come to my birthday party..."

At this point, she paused, then winked at Yu Luoyin.

: "If you are willing to come over and pay me the bill, I can introduce my sister to you."

In fact, Yu Shitian was just such a joke, never thought that Yu Luoyin would agree.

After all, she knew that Yu Luoyin had a ‘white moonlight’ in his heart.

But tonight may be an unexpected night, Yu Luoyin paused for two seconds after listening to her, and nodded unexpectedly.

He didn't know if he was drunk, his black eyes were covered with a misty blur, and he smiled and nodded: "Okay."

Bai Xunyin may be a bird chasing the wilderness, but she will be her home in the sky.

It's been six years, welcome back.

[Flying Bird. Next]

The author has something to say: Now you know, Brother Yu will not attend other people’s birthday parties casually (

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