Invade the World

  Chapter 226 "This is me."

  Xu Xiangyang felt that his breathing became a little difficult.

  His heart is beating vigorously inside his chest, and the sound of hot blood echoes in his ears.

  This kind of feeling seemed familiar, which reminded him of the day when he confessed to Xingjie;

  However, this feeling is not completely consistent with the tension I felt at that time.

   Xu Xiangyang on that day was fully psychologically prepared and initiated by him; in addition, Xu Xiangyang did not think Xingjie would refuse.

  In other words, this is a story that happens smoothly when both parties are interested.

  But it was a sudden attack right now.

  Although the squad leader’s attitude was lightly put, Xu Xiangyang couldn’t deal with it easily.

  Because it is a personal experience, you can realize the weight of words:

  The phrase "I like you" among young people is no less destructive than a hurricane or a tsunami, and it is enough to reshape people's spirit and psychology.

  This is not an exaggeration. According to Xu Xiangyang's own life experience, it is since the day of his confession that the world he lives in, what he knows and feels, has all been completely new.

   "Are you... confessing to me?"

  Xu Xiangyang couldn't help but confirm again.

"Yes."

  The squad leader lightly nodded, and then asked with a smile.

   "What are you doing with this stunned expression?"

  Xu Xiangyang will certainly find it incredible.

  How could this girl put on an expression of okay after saying this?

  "Do you think my attitude is too light?"

  Zhu Qingyue seems to see through his doubts.

"You can't blame me for this, because it's not the first time I said it. This time, Xingjie gave the answer after asking me on the initiative. It may be more formal, but before that, haven't you noticed me? Are you in the mood?"

  Xu Xiangyang tried his best to recall,

  She seems to have put on her mouth a suspicious confession...

  But the squad leader often has the attitude of drifting in the ambiguity, seeming to be joking, and it seems to be sarcasm, so he didn't take it seriously.

There is another possibility, because this girl occasionally makes a bold statement that shocks the world, so that the "likes" that always talk about it is nothing. Xu Xiangyang will not have any other thoughts in his ears, but only She felt that she was expressing goodwill among her friends-after all, she claimed to herself that she "likes Xingjie" more than once or twice.

  On the contrary, during the time when she didn't get acquainted with her, Xu Xiangyang sometimes wanted to be unfaithful and affectionate.

  In fact, getting along with the squad leader and getting along with a girl like Xingjie have two extreme styles. If you are not used to it, you can easily get confused and frustrated by the other party's teasing.

Xu Xiangyang didn’t think there was anything wrong, because it was really fun to communicate with her. The girl’s frown and smile are all fascinating, so even if she sometimes complains about "really a troublesome woman" in her heart, it still ends up in the end. Become willing.

What's more, it is precisely because she can always hide her emotions well, no matter what kind of topic she is facing, she seems to be calm and calm. The sincerity that is accidentally glimpsed from under the appearance will make people feel more precious, even if it is. You will feel cute if you are short of breath.

   "What are you in a daze?"

  The squad leader suddenly pressed his body, a pair of eyelashes flickered with his big eyes, shaking slightly like butterfly wings; Xu Xiangyang wondered if they were waterproof false eyelashes, or could they be born that long?

   "I'm just remembering..."

  He shook his head and replied.

In fact, in the daily communication with two friends, Qingyue is also gradually changing. At the very beginning, he said that he wanted to make friends with people, but he acted like a detached attitude, which makes people uncomfortable. There is no such feeling of alienation in her nowadays.

   "Then have you finished your memories?"

  Zhu Qingyue glanced at the end of the reservoir and asked with a smile.

   "Or, do you have to wait until Xingjieyou returns happily before you can remember?"

"no."

  Xu Xiangyang sighed.

   "I just didn't expect you to be serious. I thought...you wouldn't treat me as the object of a relationship."

   "I don't like you and still stick with you every day? Where can there be such a girl in the world."

  The squad leader answered very naturally.

……indeed.

  There are no other boys who can be close to a girl to this degree.

  Maybe there are friends of the opposite sex, but to the extent that they are just a pure friendship, it would seem to be self-deception.

  She said again:

  "Also, do you remember my reaction when the school teacher planned to let me do the "No Puppy Love" speech?"

  Xu Xiangyang nodded.

  Of course he remembers. Zhu Qingyue refused to give a speech at the oath meeting because "I can't guarantee."

  He thought it was weird at the time, because it sounded almost the same as saying "I want to fall in love". Later, I asked it specifically, and it turned out to be prevaricated by the squad leader using reasons such as "hate others to restrict me".

   "You mean, you have been since then—"

   "That's not true." The short-haired girl shook her head, "I just don't want to be called "pretending" after changing my mind like this."

   Xu Xiangyang suddenly realized that if the news of "Zhu Qingyue took the initiative to confess to a boy" spread, it would be a shocking and hateful thing in the eyes of other students in the same school.

  As the person involved, he only felt deeply distressed.

   "Okay, I'm done with everything that needs to be said."

  Zhu Qingyue's eyebrows were crooked, and she raised her head to look directly at herself.

  "I want to hear your answer before Xingjie comes back."

   Xu Xiangyang hesitated and asked.

  "The so-called reply refers to...?"

   "Of course I want to accept my confession."

  She clapped her hands, and she was really cute with the round and smiling face.

  "If you like me, I like you, and love each other, we can be together in the future, no longer as friends, but as lovers..."

   "Wait, let me check again, do you know that you are not talking in sleep?"

  Xu Xiangyang couldn't help holding his forehead. He couldn't act as relaxed as her, let alone laugh.

  "Do you know that Xingjie and I are in a relationship? You have expressed support more than once, and even at the very beginning, you made me confess. Do you still remember these things?"

   "Of course I know." Zhu Qingyue nodded, her eyes were clear and energetic, as if they were innocent, "but does it have anything to do with the confession I said?"

  Xu Xiangyang originally felt that he was used to the absurd words that occasionally popped out of the opponent's mouth, but at this moment, he still felt unacceptable, and only felt bored after another.

  "Of course! Me and Xing Jie are already boyfriends and girlfriends, and you still ask me if I accept the confession? Do you think she and I are in a relationship breaking down and preparing to break up?"

   "No, on the contrary, I think you two are so good that adultery is hot...Ah no, it's when the honey is mixed, there shouldn't be a happier couple in the world, right?"

   "Since you know, you still say so...!"

   "All I want to know is your thoughts."

  Zhu Qingyue raised a finger and pointed to his chest.

   "Have you liked me as a girl, so you can answer me by putting aside your lover..."

   "How can you leave it alone!"

  Xu Xiangyang's voice couldn't help but grow louder again.

  It is really difficult for him to sort out the complex emotions that are emerging in his heart at this moment.

  Angry, incomprehensible...More partly, it was directed at himself.

  Because when he heard the squad leader confess that he liked himself and wanted to fall in love, he knew that the moment of joy in his heart was not a fake.

  This makes Xu Xiangyang feel unacceptable.

  Faced with the fierce emotions expressed by the boys, Zhu Qingyue's answer was still calm and did not back down.

   "Like is like, love is love, it is desire and impulse, and some likes are inherently contrary to social norms."

  The girl's eyes were so calm that Xu Xiangyang felt chilly.

   "I just want to know your true feelings. No matter what the outcome is, I won't laugh at you. Even the best friends don't want to tell the truth. Who else can you communicate with?"

   "I... I have nothing to say."

  Xu Xiangyang frowned, and refused without much hesitation.

   "It doesn't make any sense to say it."

  The most important thing is that even he himself may not be able to understand the so-called "true mood".

  Zhu Qingyue sighed softly, then asked:

  "Didn't you confess in front of me and Xingjie that you have that kind of thought to me? Are they all deceptive?"

   "What I said at that time was just to prove that I had a desire in that area, and it was still very strong. I wanted Xingjie to think carefully before making a choice..."

  Xu Xiangyang grabbed his hair irritably, put aside his unnecessary self-esteem, and said nonsense without scruples.

   "And, I believe you can see it. If I say that I don't have any dirty thoughts about men and women, it must be false. But... but this is different from this!"

   "Where and where?"

   "Of course it means that there is no way to follow instinct! I am a human and not an animal, so isn't it strange that you mentioned this? The important thing is..."

  He took a deep breath.

  "——What is really important is that I am now Xingjie’s boyfriend, how do you want me to respond to you! Do you want me to betray her? Will you be happy if you do this?"

  The clear eyes were watching him silently, and she did not reply for a while.

  Xu Xiangyang was stared uncomfortably by Zhu Qingyue. Although he felt that his attitude was serious and his statement was more correct, he couldn't help turning his attention away.

  At this moment, another gust of wind blew across the water to the shore. This time it was not as warm and warm as before, but it looked gloomy and bitterly cold.

  He raised his head and looked at the sky. It turned out that some floating clouds blocked the sun. When the sun is gone, the temperature of the surrounding environment will drop rapidly in this kind of mountain and river.

  Xu Xiangyang noticed that the girl next to her shrank slightly, hugging her shoulders with her hands, as if she felt a little bit cold.

  He sighed, and silently took out the jacket from the backpack and put it on her.

  Zhu Qingyue pulled her collar with her hand, and whispered "thank you".

  The two did not speak for a while, just staring at the water under the railing in a daze.

   "You said, the three of us must always be together."

  He heard Zhu Qingyue's voice fluttering, as if she would be blown away in the wind at any time.

  "Have your thoughts changed?"

"I do not have."

  He heard his voice dry like a pebble, and he could not find it after it fell to the ground.

   "But that sentence means that you want to continue to maintain the current relationship. I don't know your understanding."

  Zhu Qingyue let out a soft snort from her nose.

  "Is this the idea of ​​‘I’m fine now’ again? Xu Xiangyang, you haven’t made any progress at all."

   "Different from the day I confessed to Xingjie, there is no room for it. So..."

  He tried his best to answer in a calm tone:

  "——I will not promise your confession."

  Xu Xiangyang did not look at the girl's expression. Just waiting and waiting, after a long period of speechlessness, I heard her suddenly laugh again.

  The girl's tone is as soft as ever.

  "If the person who confessed to you first was me, would things be different? Maybe, you and I will become lovers, and you and Xingjie are just "ordinary good friends"."

   "...There is no if in this world."

   "Really? Then I'm really sad."

  Xu Xiangyang couldn't help turning his head, and saw the bright smile on Zhu Qingyue's face, but could not see the sadness or anger after being rejected.

  However, his mood is still very dull.

   "There is nothing more sad than making a regrettable choice by yourself, right?"

  She smiled happily, and the more she was like this, the more Xu Xiangyang felt her throat tighten.

   "When I think that I will be happy because you two are together, I feel that I am really the number one fool in the sky..."

  Zhu Qingyue gently pressed her palm to her chest.

   "Furthermore, this kind of foolish thought has not disappeared until now."

  Xu Xiangyang finally couldn't help but speak, but what he said was not as imposing as he was just now, but more like a plea.

   "It can't, it can't be like in the past..."

   "So, your thoughts have not changed at all, ‘as long as you maintain the current state you are happy’, right?"

   "What's wrong with pursuing happiness?"

   "But Xu Xiangyang, I tell you, I am different from you and Xingjie."

  There is a calm courage in the girl's voice, even if she is facing the dilemma of failing to confess, she will not let people see her weak side, she is not like a teenage girl at all.

   "I won't be willing to stay behind. From the very beginning, I have been such a person."

  Zhu Qingyue put her hands on the railing, ten fingers tightly clenched, so hard that her knuckles turned white; she turned her head to look at Xu Xiangyang at the same time, her eyes were extremely warm and sincere.

   "Even if my life is miserable, I will definitely hold what I want in my hands——"

   "This is me."

  (End of this chapter)