Love Delusion

"Xiao Ran, in fact, I hope you can take this time to adjust yourself. Frankly speaking, I feel that your recent state is not suitable for me."

Doctor Zhou contacted him before the next appointment for consultation. The reason was actually that Dr. Zhou’s own schedule was in conflict, and then she said something like this with Lin Anran on the phone.

"Just take a vacation for yourself, rest, and make adjustments. You don't have to force yourself too much. If you have any questions, you can come to me at any time."

"Okay." Lin Anran's mood became clear when he heard that there was a holiday.

Teacher Zhou's voice smiled on the phone and said: "Actually, I sometimes feel that you are guarding me."

Lin Anran became embarrassed again on the phone: "No..."

"It's okay, I know your character. But can you promise me, can you think about it for yourself during this time?"

Lin Anran: "Good."

"Okay, I believe you. Let's see you next week."

"Goodbye, Teacher Zhou."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Anran standing by the window was half relaxed and half worried. It's like a primary school student who puts on the weekend before the final exam. Although the holiday in front of me is very happy, the final exam a few days later is also very anxious.

He cast his eyes down, staring at the darkened mobile phone screen in his hand in a daze.

Teacher Zhou is right. Since Lin had Shang Hao, Lin Anran has a feeling that he is pushing the people around him farther and farther.

Especially in the last few psychological consultations, Lin Anran can feel the feeling of increasing resistance in her heart. Not only did he not want to come out, he has been building a closed cocoon for himself.

Doctor Zhou had already told Lin Anran since the first day he saw Teacher Zhou.

"Psychological counseling is a spontaneous and voluntary process, not for others, but to be responsible for oneself," said Dr. Zhou, "this needs to be understood first."

"Then you are willing to come here every week in the future and actively cooperate with me in this process?"

Lin Anran, who was sitting in the consulting room for the first time, was much more silent than now. At that time he nodded to Doctor Zhou.

His aunt went with him that day when he went to the counseling center. At this moment, Lin Huiyan was with him outside, waiting for him to come out.

Had it not been for Lin Huiyan, Lin Anran wouldn't be sitting here now.

He faced his aunt's cautious face, and couldn't say anything to refuse.

When Dr. Zhou saw that he had agreed, he said, "Okay, let's now determine the time of the weekly meeting."

It turns out that one person cannot promise too many people at the same time. Lin Anran couldn't do it at the same time he promised his aunt and Dr. Zhou, even though he wanted to do that too. His character makes him want to promise everyone.

In this way, Lin Anran went to chat with Teacher Zhou twice a week from then to now.

Lin Anran walked away from the window and sat back in front of the computer. He opened the interface of his mailbox again. He didn't know how many times he repeated this action today, and now he almost has his own muscle memory in his hands.

still the same. Refresh a few times, the inbox doesn't even have a small red dot, it's empty.

There was only one official automatic reply with polite words after he sent it out, thanking him for his letter and so on.

It was already the second day after the letter was sent, and he also properly left his signature and address on the letter... But even in the same city, the reply letter should not be sent so quickly.

Thinking of this Lin Anran started to worry a little.

He seemed to be trapped in a strange circle, unable to get out, the more he wanted to ask for a certificate, the more confused he became. In the end, I was just walking around by myself, doing useless work.

Lin Anran leaned back in the chair, feeling weak. He was thinking about Shang Hao all over his head, but it reminded him of something that he cared about.

He straightened his back and checked the contents of the tattoo on Shang Hao on the Internet.

"I must have said I love you hundreds of years ago."

It's like a love story, but this sentence is actually a miss.

If it is totally different, with such a tattoo on his body, is it true that his subconscious mind is telling him something? In fact, it indicates that the two of them missed from the beginning?

...

Lin Anran went to brush his teeth and went back to the room to see Shang Hao working on the computer in bed.

He walked to the other side of the bed and sat down and kissed his forehead. Shang Hao went back to look at the computer. Lin Anran took out his mobile phone to see if there was any new news.

Lin Anran applied to join a new group chat today.

I applied in the morning, but in the evening, a group leader finally came to contact him.

group chat. In fact, Lin Anran has a natural unconfidence and cringe mentality towards the community. When he saw the group number, he was also timid, not sure if he could fit into the group.

However, the brief introduction of the group that Lin Anran saw before felt very moved.

This group is a "may be of interest" group chat recommended to him by the website when he searches for relevant information on the Internet as usual today.

He didn't know how to characterize it. It can be determined that it is a gathering place for a group of friends from all over the world who have similar situations with him.

It happened that Lin Anran was also in a stage of indecision recently. Maybe he can see how other people deal with it.

He hesitated, and finally sent the application tentatively.

I quickly received a reply. Before joining the group, a number that looked like the owner of the group came to add him.

[Group leader: Hello, I am the leader of "Cross-Dimensional Love"]

Lin Anran unconsciously sat up straight, and politely replied "Hello" to the other side.

He still prefers such textual dialogues to face-to-face communication. Within the range he can accept, people can also be less nervous.

[Group owner: There are some things you need to know before joining the group]

Lin Anran replied here: "Okay."

[Group leader: chat in a civilized group, live in harmony, no personal attacks, no violation of law and discipline]

Lin Anran read the code carefully: "Okay."

[Group leader: Those who can communicate in the group are all like the same. Everyone brings their family members into the group. I hope that after you join the group, you will respect the group members and their family members, just like other people will fully respect you and your family members. Thank you for your cooperation]

[Group owner: I will pull you in first, and you will change the remarks later, I will explain the other rules in detail later]

Lin Anran assured him earnestly: "Okay."

Then he was pulled into the group.

After joining the group, the disciplined and law-abiding Lin Anran first read the group member rules carefully, and then scrolled down to see how everyone's remarks were changed, and he also changed one.

It should be said that the members of this group are really colorful. What he saw were "Yuyan's wife", "gakki's husband"... There were celebrities, two-dimensional characters, and others. Half of the names were popular ones.

Lin Anran watched, his eyes widened.

See what he found-there is also a family member of Ultraman in the group.

Lin Anran's gaze stayed on the remark for several seconds, recalling the group member rules in her heart, and she swallowed the words "there is no Ultraman in the world" from her lips.

He had promised to respect other people's family members before joining the group. To understand and respect Ultraman, Ultraman and his family members will respect his Shang Hao.

Lin Anran digested the sentence "There is Ultraman in the world" for a while, and slowly turned to Shang Hao beside him.

Because of his family, he now has to stand on Ultraman's side.

Shang Hao asked: "What's wrong?"

Lin Anran asked him: "Do you think there is an Ultraman in the world?"

Shang Hao: "...you have a fever?"

Never thought that Lin Anran's expression was a little worried after hearing what he said. He sighed and said, "You have to believe in the light."

Shang Hao:?

Lin Anran continued to look back at the phone. Everyone was chatting when he joined the group.

It seems that discussing the experience of getting along with the other half is a daily topic in the group. Lin Anran flipped through the records, comparing his daily life with Shang Hao while understanding, trying to find some useful clues.

At this time, someone posted a news link about a report about a Japanese man holding a wedding with a virtual idol who has been in love for many years. The person asked everyone if they would consider getting married in the future.

The group discussed the feasibility of marriage in depth, and the group friends who had ideas expressed their opinions.

[Yu Yan's wife: wait a minute, I will ask Yu Yan who is sleeping next to me]

[Shang Hao's wife: Wait a minute, I will ask Shang Hao on my bed. 】

Lin Anran saw another person sending out this message in front of the screen:!

This is not right!

His id was preempted by someone wow!

Shang Hao is clearly lying on his bed now!

Although he wanted to say that very much, but after thinking about it, the other side should think so too.

Lin Anran was stunned. What should I do in this situation, he hit her husband. There is no explanation in the group member rules. He exits the chat interface and asks the group leader for help.

[Group owner: Hit it? 】

[Group owner: I have to say sorry to you, follow the basic principles of social morality, this group strictly abides by the monogamy system, this is generally not allowed]

[Host: I'm really sorry]

Just when Lin Anran wanted to post "Actually I can accept the remark of "Shang Hao's husband"", the message showed that he was kicked out of the group chat.

Kicked out...

Lin Anran was stunned.

Oh, he said, he can never do a good job of being in a group.

He let go of the phone in frustration. Lin Anran, who has been busy all day, is still going around today.

In fact, he also knew that the hope he had sent to that letter was a bit slim, but no matter how thin the thread in his hand was, Lin Anran didn't want to let it go.

He buried his face on Shang Hao's shoulder next to him, breathed the smell of his body, and shut himself down for a while.

Frankly speaking, it is no wonder that he is about to be kicked out. The speech of the "Shang Hao's wife" just now made him jealous. Lin Anran buried her face on Shang Hao again.

Look at the family member next to him, the texture, muscle, and body temperature that he feels, isn't Shang Hao? Lin Anran thought a little angrily.

Shang Hao looked down at him and touched the back of his head with one hand. I thought that the fact that there was no Ultraman in the world had such a big blow to the otaku?

He stopped looking at the computer, and closed the screen with one hand very simply, without speaking, leaning forward and pressing towards Lin Anran.

Lin Anran asked him, "Are you not working anymore?"

"No."

Lin Anran asked again: "Did you reply to the email just now?"

Shang Hao pressed on him: "No."

The suppressed Lin Anran asked again: "Then why don't you reply to the email?"

Shang Hao: "Because I am off work now."

Lin Anran still wants to ask him if he can work overtime now, but his instinct tells him that it doesn't seem very good to ask him.

Shang Hao has already pressed people under him, but Lin Anran still has questions: "Do you reply to every email?"

Shang Hao: "..."

"What kind of emails will you not reply?"

Shang Hao twisted his brows. He kissed the skin on Lin Anran's neck, pulled his arm around him, and said casually: "Spam."

After hearing this, Lin Anran began to worry again.

Happy New Year in advance, friends! Everything goes well in the new year!

(Ps: For some explanations of this chapter: there is no intention to offend some groups. Lin Anran self-recognizes that he is such a person. He is only seeking understanding and help. The author writes this paragraph to show his experience of running into a wall. The author and Lin Anran fully respect each group.

If this chapter offends you, I apologize here first, Smi Masai. But please listen to me, I really didn’t mean that)

(Pps: New Year's Eve plus change, usually more often every other day, my hand speed is very slow)