Magica Technica ～Sword Demon Rakshasa’s VRMMO Battle Record～

Magica Technica Chapter 151

――Alice stiffens and opens her eyes wide to the words I told her.

For her, who is usually expressionless, she has revealed her emotions.

Well, if you look at the situation of the two people from earlier, you can't help but be convinced.

Alice is distorted.

It's not the constitution itself. It is an emotion that was born from having that constitution.

I don't know how to call it, but--

"In society, always adapt to the surroundings. You have to live while you do, but don't you feel uncomfortable with yourself? "

" ... Why do you do that? "

"I myself ... and my guys are big and small, and I have something like that."

As expected, it's as much as Alice. It's rare for people to have a strong personality, but it's not that they aren't.

Dedicating yourself to martial arts means moving away from the world.

Abandon the way we are as a person, turn our back on the society and devote ourselves to Takeshi--

"... We are That property is called "beast sex". "

" Beast sex ... "

" Beast sex. As a person. It's an unnecessary feeling to live and must be suppressed in society. Originally, everyone has it-but it's the nature of living without revealing it. "

For me, it's "anger".

The flame that dwelled in my heart when my companion was killed on the battlefield.

It still smolders like a blaze, and now it appears as a murderous intent against the devil.

It is unnecessary in modern society, such as murderous intentions against enemies.

But I can't throw it away. That's because it's already part of me.

"If you live as a person, you should hide it. No matter how uncomfortable you may be, the sensibilities that belong to the beast are excluded."

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"That's ..."

Even though I muttered a little, I couldn't put it into words, and Alice was silent.

You probably remember it. Because she has no pain, she has a different sensibilities.

I can't sympathize with the pain of others because I can't understand the pain.

I don't really feel the life because I don't have a sense of survival.

That's why-Alice found her life in that moment that escaped the recognition of others.

"Once you realize it and hold it as a desire, you have to live with it"

To that word, Alice quietly puts her hand on her chest.

In a sense, starting this game is a failure.

If she didn't know her beast, she would have been able to live normally, though she was helpless.

But it's difficult for Alice now. She said it was "just right".

――I have found an act that fits my beast.

(Is it the thrill of the moment when you jump into the other person's pocket and push the blade? It was a moment when I could feel it)

It's a pretty dangerous idea. But what she was doing was PKK.

If I didn't choose a target, it wouldn't have stopped if it was PK.

However, Alice chose to target PK to the last.

If you can kill someone without a guilty conscience-that is, you still have a guilty conscience to attack indiscriminately.

, it's still in time. There is one method in two.

"That's why you have to choose"

"... What can you choose?"

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"Whether you live as a person or as a beast. Will you live with your family and friends while suppressing your own beast? Or, we At the same time, do you live while tame it-either? "

This is probably not the correct answer.

In the former case, although it is painful to live while suppressing the beast nature, you should be able to obtain the same level of happiness.

In the latter case, you can live without hesitation while releasing yourself.

It's Alice herself to choose. Which one will she choose? I wait for the reply.

But--

"... From a while ago, just tell me what you don't understand! To Alice-chan! What are you going to do !? "

" I don't do anything else. I'll leave all the choices to Alice. I have no intention of doing it. "

In response to Shizuku's swordsman, I lightly give up my shoulders and return.

I can't deny the real intention to secure Alice, but I'm still not forced.

It is none other than herself who chooses her way of life and her future.

"Alice is the one to choose. Neither me nor you"

"That's it! Alice-chan, Alice Chan is--! "

" --Shizuku, shut up. Please, "

Alice crawls on the ground. Restrains Shizuku.

There was a strong conflict in his eyes, but at the same time he had a definite will to look forward.

"I was thinking. What should I do when this game is over someday?"

"... divergence Because there is no place to do it. "

" I was scared of myself. At that time, I think I would bring this feeling to life. Someday, I would hurt someone. Isn't it? "

Alice exhales thinly and slowly raises her gaze.

From that expression, the conflicts so far have disappeared.

With determination, on top of that-Alice slowly spins words.

"I'm Kuon. I had a traffic accident when I was in elementary school. Since that accident, my body has lost my sense of pain and has hardly grown. "Tawa"

"Is it the same for almost ten years?"

The words were hidden in her. It was a reflection of the back of the chest.

I can't say that I can understand the feelings she had.

People who do not have the same experience are not qualified to sympathize.

Alice continues to feel relieved that I haven't responded so much.

"I want to forget about the accident anymore. If such a clear abnormality did not appear, it would have faded long ago."

"I don't need sympathy"

"Yes, I'm merciful and look down on myself ... I'm tired of being treated as a socially vulnerable person. "

The words make me laugh in my heart.

It is an undeniable fact that Alice is a socially vulnerable person.

But she still wants to stand alone.

I want to avoid adversity and live forward.

"So Kuon. I'm really grateful that you treated me on an equal footing. Not a child, not a disabled person-just I was really happy to be treated as an equal person. "

Alice smiles a little as she talks in her heart.

It must have been an unfulfilled feeling for her.

It is difficult to treat a person in such a state as an individual. While understanding it, still.

"I'm grateful to the people around me. What helped me, what supported me ... I couldn't live without everyone's help. But ... I don't want to rely on anyone anymore to live. "

" Alice-chan, but ...! "

" I'm sorry, Shizuku. I can't stand it anymore. "

Shizuku squints at the words of none other than Alice.

Alice seemed to be a little ignorant of Shizuku-but still, the two are actually friends.

And Alice wants to change herself just to be protected by such friends and family.

I'm not going to talk about that relationship. It's a story that nothing can be solved when an outsider speaks out.

"The beast nature you say and the current situation where you are just protected by the surroundings-I can't stand it as it is"

"... Did we hunt you down?"

"Yeah ... but I'm sure I'm grateful. You support me. I've come this far because I'm sick, but ... I want you to admit me. "

With that said, Alice quietly stares at Shizuku.

The words that are truly true.

In response, Shizuku, who was choked with words, sighed and sank in his chair.

"Oh ... I understand. I'm sorry, Alice-chan"

"I'm sorry for this. And thank you"

Telling that, Alice turns her gaze toward me again.

What was included in that line of sight was a certain determination.

"I've decided, Kuon. I'll accept both of your offers."

"Hmm ... I understand. Let's proceed with the process. "

I will not imitate to confirm my determination again.

It's rude to her to ask it anymore.

She has already chosen her own path. If so, I just accept it.

I confirmed in my mind the setup for proceeding with the process-then, Shizuku next to me screamed again.

"I tell you, I don't know if Alice does anything."

"... I hate that kind of place." Wasn't it? "

" This isn't the case, I'm just worried as a friend! It's natural because I'm trying to go far! "

Shizuku screams indignant at my point.

Apparently, it will take some time to quit being treated as a child.

They also seem to have a slightly complicated relationship, but it's still better to get along with friends.

"For the time being, I log out once to get the paperwork ... Can I still continue after this?"

"Yes, no problem. Do you want to work now?"

"Usually, it's just about moving as the same party. We move to Bedinzia, Is it possible to transfer with a stone tablet? "

"Yes, I can do it, but it's up to the ranch." ? "

At the end of the story, Hishin, who was asking for a replacement for tea, asks while pouring tea from the pot.

What is this guy doing when he should have been talking nervously?

Well, it seems that I was asking after the story settled down, so I'm not going to dig in there.

Alice replies with a bitter smile to such scarlet words.

"I haven't bought a knight. I thought I'd buy one ... but that's a stirrup."

" Ah ... Scarlet, put it on you. "

" Aha ... I understand. "

How much repaired By the way, it cannot be denied that Alice's physique is the child itself.

With her physique, far from riding a large battle horse, even a normal horse will not be able to stirrup.

It's a different story if it's a pony, but it's impossible to match it with a battle horse or Ceylan.

"For now, let's move to the ranch with a stone tablet and head straight to the royal capital. I want to equip Eleanor once."

"Well, I want to review the armor-related items once ... Oh, can I buy Pegasus at the ranch?"

"That's a confirmation. Please wait ... I'd like to talk a little bit. "

" ... I understand "

I Alice nods a little, squinting at her words.

With a small smile on the face, I paid for everyone and logged out of the game.