Morbid Attachment

Ji Wang scratched his hair, and before he could answer, the doorbell rang. Outside the door was a delivery man. Ji Wang placed an order this morning, and estimated the time for delivery in the afternoon when he would be discharged from the hospital. He opened the door to take the delivery, and took out the cake box from the thermal ice pack. It was small and delicate.

Since Ji Wang took the cake, Qi Boyan's eyes became brighter and brighter, and finally he rarely showed a happy smile.

He looked at Ji Wang again and again, but in the end he didn't dare to be too happy, but moved closer to Ji Wang's side to look at the cake.

It's Qi Boyan's favorite flavor. On the snow-white surface of the cake, a big peach is drawn in the middle, and a piece of chocolate that says happy birthday is inserted.

Ji Wang put the cake down, went into the kitchen, wrapped in an apron, and cooked noodles. Qi Boyan followed hesitantly: "You still hurt, why don't you order takeaway."

Ji Wang finally spoke in the midst of his busy schedule: "It's okay."

It's really okay, a bowl of noodles is made very quickly, and it's not considered rich. After serving it out, Qi Boyan was very satisfied, and asked, "Is there only one bowl?"

Ji Wang hummed without expression: "You eat."

Lighting candles and making a wish, Ji Wang sang a birthday song to him cooperatively. Everything was so peaceful, as if nothing had happened. Everything was simply celebrating Qi Boyan's birthday and wishing him a happy nineteenth birthday.

As the candle was extinguished, Ji Wang looked across at Qi Boyan who closed his eyes and made a wish, the boy he liked and had been with him for a year and ten months.

He wanted to give a chance, give each other a chance.

"Happy birthday." If these things hadn't happened, Ji Wang might have added, my baby.

Only by contrast can one feel sad, some things that can be done cannot be done, and some words that can be said cannot be said.

Qi Boyan opened his eyes, and his eyes were moist with water: "Brother, I made a wish."

Ji Wang nodded, as usual: "So now, can you give me a reason? Your reason for doing that."

Qi Boyan knew what he was asking, and his expression paled in an instant, as if he was less willing than Ji Wang to talk about what happened in the box.

Ji Wang stared at Qi Boyan calmly, it seemed that he was calm, but in fact only he knew, he didn't, his hands were hidden under the table, clasped tightly together, shaking violently.

He slowly coaxed Qi Boyan to speak, feeling sore in his heart, if Qi Boyan didn't want to make up an excuse, he could help make it up.

Ji Wang knows that if other people know what he did in this relationship, they will think him cheap.

But Ji Wang didn't want to care about other people, he was like a person about to fall into the abyss, trying to hold on to the last straw.

He asked Qi Boyan to speak out.

Qi Boyan stared at the piece of birthday cake: "As I said, I can't let my family know about our relationship, so I deliberately pretended not to care about you."

"And Ren Ran, he brought you here on purpose just to want us to break up! He is from my brother's side, so don't trust him too much."

Ji Wang didn't speak, and listened silently, but the emotion in his eyes was so obvious, Qi Boyan turned coldly: "You don't believe me."

"Do you think what you said is reasonable?" Ji Wang said, "Even if it wasn't me, if other people listened, they would..."

"What's the matter with other people? I'm just asking you, do you believe me or not!" Qi Boyan said hoarsely.

He couldn't wait for Ji Wang's answer for a long time, and he couldn't control his emotions anymore and said: "Since you don't believe it, why do you still ask!"

Ji Wang breathed heavily and said, "Because I want to give us a chance!"

Qi Boyan stood up suddenly: "You don't want to give a chance at all, you just want to blame me and resent me!"

"I've been apologizing to you all the time, how many times do you have to say I'm sorry to forgive me, or you also scold me, you go tell Ren Ran that I'm disgusting, I'm a monster who doesn't understand love, is that enough?!"

Ji Wang didn't turn his eyes red with such harsh tone, he gritted his teeth and said, "Not enough, how can this be enough!"

Qi Boyan's body was trembling with anger, he stared at Ji Wang for a long time, and then said word by word: "You just think I lied to you, what kind of shit loves me, and believes everything about me, Ji Wang, you just It's that liar who can only talk nicely!"

Qi Boyan swung the cake off the table vigorously.

Ji Wang looked at the cake that fell on the ground, like a loud bang that fell on his heart imperceptibly, shattering his already faint hope.

He only realized now how absurd that little hope was, because from the beginning, there was no hope at all.

Qi Boyan didn't know that what he destroyed was not only the cake, but Ji Wang's last rescue of this relationship.

Exhaustion swept over, Ji Wang seemed to be plunged into the deepest darkness, and finally understood what it meant to give up.

He stepped back: "Qi Boyan, let's break up."

Memories are like the healing of the surface. After digging out the scars that bleed ferociously, everything seems to reappear yesterday.

Ji Wang turned pale in the thunder, he looked at Ren Ran in front of him: "I'm sorry, can you go back first, I'm really uncomfortable."

Seeing his discomfort, Ren Ran got up without a word, closed the window of the room for him, asked him if he wanted to go to the hospital but was rejected, and left the room wisely.

Ji Wang closed every window and got a mop to clean up the water on the ground. While cleaning up, the house suddenly went dark and the power went out.

The collapse of an adult may be in an instant, but Ji Wang's emotional loss is more caused by Qi Boyan.