My Dragon

Chapter 79: Fanwai ②Three people ┃To love as if they have never been hurt.

S01 Nguyen Sin

Ruan Xin is a top student in the Directing Department of Beijing Film Academy. In his sophomore year, he won the director award of a domestic film festival with a short film. After graduating from his senior year, he rejected the olive branch thrown by major film and television companies. Unexpectedly, he joined Mingxi Media... and became an assistant to the president.

This incident has always been one of the ten unsolved mysteries in Ruan Xin’s circle of friends. Friends suspected that he was either kicked in the head by a donkey or pierced by the soul. Whenever friends ask why he is When making such an unthinkable choice, Ruan Xin never answered directly.

"Because I am in love with a man, I will do everything possible to get close to him, attract him, and make him fall in love with me."-Ruan Xin really can't say this, it's too embarrassing.

That man's name is Fei Zheng.

There is nothing new about his encounter with Fei Zheng.

Fei Zheng was walking the dog in the park. The dog was lost and was picked up by Ruan Xin who was running at night. Fei Zheng came to look for it, and then just met.

It was an ordinary summer night, and the road lanterns in the park covered them. When his eyes met, Ruan Xin clearly saw the shock in the other's eyes.

Ruan Xin thought at the time: Why is this person staring at me so hard?

Then Ruan Xin stared back as if not to be outdone, and thought in a mess: this man is so handsome, the kind of knowing one...but, he seems to have seen it somewhere, a bit familiar...why does his eyes look like this? …It makes people feel bad?

Ruan Xin's heart stabbed inexplicably.

He subconsciously raised his hand to cover his heart, and the man opposite finally said the first sentence: "Are you... okay?"

He was obviously concerned, but his tone was very cold, but his voice was very good, as if he had heard it somewhere... Ruan Xin felt that he must be crazy.

Ruan Xin shook his head: "It's okay."

The man stopped talking and still looked at him steadily.

Ruan Xin was uncomfortable with him: "Sir, it is very impolite for you to stare at others like this."

The man said: "My name is Fei Zheng."

That's how he knew his name.

Ruan Xin was stunned for two seconds, and said "Oh".

Fei Zheng stared at him: "What is your name?"

A stranger who had only known him for less than two minutes asked his name. Knowing that he should not answer, Ruan Xin said in a mysterious way: "Ruan Xin."

Ruan Xin clearly saw that when he heard his name, the strange man named Fei Zheng showed obvious disappointment in his eyes, as well as many indistinct feelings that he could not distinguish.

The tingling sensation came back quickly.

Ruan Xin covered his heart, wondering why he was like this.

Fei Zheng left a cold "thank you" and turned and left.

Ruan Xin watched the drifting back, his heart tingling continuously, he finally couldn't support it, and he bent over and squatted to the ground.

It was such a short encounter that completely changed Ruan Xin's life.

After that day, he could no longer erase the man named Fei Zheng from his mind, as if he had been wicked.

My friend said it was love at first sight.

Is it really?

Two days later, Ruan Xin saw Fei Zheng again under the same street lamp.

He didn't know whether to ignore or stop to say hello.

However, before he could understand, his legs and feet stopped spontaneously.

Ruan Xin was embarrassed for two seconds, searched his stomach for words and said, "It's such a coincidence, are you here to walk the dog again?"

The ferocious American bully dog ​​was squatting at Fei Zheng's feet, staring at him with piercing eyes.

Fei Zheng said, "I'm waiting for you."

Ruan Xin was surprised: "Wait, wait for me?"

Fei Zheng handed over a business card.

Ruan Xin stretched out his hand to take it, and looked at it with the light of the street lamp.

Mingxi Media, President, Fei Zheng.

Of course Ruan Xin knows Mingxi Media, a leader in the circle.

It turns out that this person is the president of Mingxi Media, and he really has the temperament of a domineering president.

Fei Zheng said: "I want to hire you as my assistant, would you like it?"

Ruan Xin: "..."

At that time, Ruan Xin had just graduated from university, and many film and television companies offered favorable terms to sign him. He was considering which one to choose.

Ruan Xin was stunned when he heard the three words "I do" by himself.

Crazy crazy crazy! I must be crazy!

Fei Zheng seemed to smile and said, "See you tomorrow."

Then, without giving Ruan Xin a chance to turn back, he led the dog and walked away.

Ruan Xin: "..."

What exactly is going on?

who am I? Where am i? What am i doing?

I must have been bewitched by some witchcraft!

However, the next morning, Ruan Xin walked into the office building of Mingxi Media.

Then, he never left, staying for five years.

He couldn't help falling in love with Fei Zheng during the day and night. He didn't want to go anywhere except Fei Zheng.

But Fei Zheng didn't love him.

Fei Zheng's heart was probably made of thousand-year-old ice, so cold, so hard, and it wouldn't be hot or melted.

Ruan Xin had thought of giving up countless times, but he couldn't let it go. He could only feel pain and happiness in the love that would never get a response.

Until, he found a rare heart disease.

The doctor said that if he hadn't had a heart transplant, he would not live to be 28 years old.

However, the chance of encountering a successfully matched heart is extremely small, which is tantamount to a miracle.

Ruan Xin thought, it's time to give up.

What kind of love does a dying person hope for?

On the night of Mingxi’s 10th Anniversary Cocktail Party, Ruan Xin first sent Fei Zheng to the Yanxi Villa, and then sent him home.

Fei Zheng drank, leaned on the seat and closed his eyes to rest.

Ruan Xin drove the car very slowly, and it was almost early morning when Fei Zheng's house was downstairs.

Fei Zheng woke up as soon as the car stopped.

He raised his hand and rubbed his eyebrows: "Thank you."

Ruan Xin was silent for a moment, turning his head to look at Fei Zheng: "President Fei, I want to ask you a question."

Fei Zheng's tone was tired and cold: "What?"

"Five years ago," Ruan Xin paused, "Why did you ask me to be your assistant?"

Fei Zheng froze when he heard the words, and did not answer for a long time.

When Ruan Xin thought he could not wait for the answer, Fei Zheng finally said: "Because you look like a person."

"...Like who?" Ruan Xinru fell into the ice cellar, his fists were clenched, his nails hurt his hands.

"Xu Shi," Fei Zheng said calmly, "the person I once loved deeply."

"Is he... still alive?" Ruan Xin asked hard.

"He's dead," Fei Zheng's voice still didn't waver, "a long time ago."

Ruan Xin was so painful that he couldn't breathe, but his face was smiling.

It turned out that he was just a substitute for Fei Zheng, no different from the potted plants in the office, just for viewing.

Really bullshit.

"You should tell me earlier, so that I can give up sooner and not waste so much time on you." Ruan Xin said with a smile, "but it's not too late to know now, I can start again. Mr. Fei , I'm really sorry, my self-love has caused you trouble."

Fei Zheng looked at him quietly, his expression gloomy.

Ruan Xin turned his head to look at him, and said with a smile: "But I still want to ask you a very old-fashioned question. Have you ever been moved by me in the past few years? Even for a minute or a second?"

Fei Zheng did not answer.

"I understand." Ruan Xin said with a smile, "President Fei, I want to take a day off tomorrow. It's a private matter."

Fei Zheng said, "Okay."

Ruan Xin didn't say goodbye, pushed the door and got out of the car, and strode away.

He didn't cry, not a single tear, but his heart hurt so much that it seemed to be dying.

He had just walked out of the gate of the community, and his eyes suddenly went dark, clutching his painful heart and lost consciousness.

Was in the hospital when I woke up.

The doctor said that his condition was deteriorating very quickly, and he might not survive this year.

Hearing this news, Ruan Xin was not only sad, but even a little happy.

It seems that death is not as terrible as imagined.

After only one day off, Ruan Xin went back to work.

He won't leave Mingxi until his body can't support it completely.

He has no extravagant desire for love. He just wants to stay with Fei Zheng as much as possible at the end of his life. He will be satisfied if he can hear him and see him.

When a person loves to the extreme, he can really be humbled to an unimaginable point.

But Ruan Xin didn't expect that his body would decay so quickly.

Only three months later, he already felt exhausted, but he had to pretend to look like a normal person in front of Fei Zheng.

That night, Ruan Xin went to Fei Zheng's house because of work. He felt uncomfortable halfway through the conversation. He insisted on finishing the words and left immediately.

As soon as he entered the elevator, he slid against the elevator wall and sat on the ground, his heart aching like a tear. He gritted his teeth, reached out his pocket and took out a small box containing his medicine.

But he failed to insist on feeding the medicine into his mouth, and fainted in a heart-piercing pain.

A second before losing consciousness, what he thought was: Don't be discovered by Fei Zheng, don't...

When he woke up, the person by the hospital bed was not Fei Zheng, but a strange and beautiful woman.

The woman smiled and said, "Do you remember me? You met me in the Yanxi Villa."

Ruan Xin searched in his memories and remembered: "Ah, hello, how are you..."

"My name is Lan Slott, and you can call me Xiaolan." Lan Slott's voice is between men and women, and it sounds good. "I originally went to find brother Zheng to say goodbye, but found that you fainted in the elevator. , I sent you to the hospital."

Ruan Xin was suddenly nervous: "You didn't tell him, did you?"

Lancelot said: "I called Brother Zheng, he should be coming soon."

As he was talking, the door to the ward was pushed abruptly, and Fei Zheng stepped forward, his face gloomy and terribly gloomy.

Lan Slote spontaneously stepped aside, Fei Zheng stood by the bed, staring at Ruan Xin's pale paper face, and asked in a deep voice, "What's the disease?"

Ruan Xin said weakly: "It has nothing to do with you."

Fei Zheng yelled: "I asked you what's wrong with you!"

All the disguise and strength fell apart the moment he heard this angry shout, tears burst into his eyes, Ruan Xin closed his eyes tightly and gritted his teeth to prevent himself from crying.

Fei Zheng turned his head and went out.

Lancelot returned to the bedside and took out a tissue to wipe the tears for Ruan Xin.

Ruan Xin quickly recovered as usual.

He smiled and said to Lancelot: "Please call a doctor for me, I'm going to be discharged from the hospital."

Before Lan Slott could speak, Fei Zheng turned back.

Without saying anything, he hugged Ruan Xin directly and walked out.

"What are you doing?" Ruan Xin shouted weakly, "Let me down!"

"Transfer." Fei Zheng replied.

"It's useless to transfer to hospital," Ruan Xin said. "My illness can't be cured."

Fei Zheng stopped suddenly and looked down at Ruan Xin: "Do you still love me?"

Ruan Xin opened his mouth, but was speechless.

Fei Zheng waited for a moment, and then said, "When your illness is cured, we will be together."

Ruan Xin looked at him in shock: "...I don't need you to pity me."

Fei Zheng said: "You know, I am not a sympathetic person, and I will not be with you because of pity."

Ruan Xin was stunned: "What do you... mean?"

Fei Zheng gave the strongest answer with actions. He bowed his head and kissed Ruan Xin's lips.

Ruan Xin, who had already given up treatment, was admitted to the best cardiovascular hospital in Beijing under Fei Zheng's arrangement for the best treatment.

His desire to survive is stronger than ever. He wants to live and be with the person he loves most.

However, the existing treatment can only prolong his life slightly. If there is no suitable heart transplant, he will still die in the near future.

Fei Zheng searched all hospitals in China, but found nothing.

When desperate, a hospital called and said that they had a brain dead patient whose heart happened to match Ruan Xin, and that the patient's family was willing to donate the heart.

In desperation, Fei Zheng immediately asked the doctor to prepare for the heart transplant.

On the day of the operation, before entering the operating room, Ruan Xin grabbed Fei Zheng's hand and asked, "What you said...can't go back."

Fei Zheng smiled gently and rarely: "Never go back, I'll wait for you."

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S02 Fei Zheng

How long can love survive when the one you love dies without one's support?

Fei Zheng didn't know.

All he knew was that after Xu Shi left, his world had undergone earth-shaking changes.

He has completely changed into a person, becoming cold, gloomy, and reticent, completely losing the temperature of his life.

Philadelphia said that he missed the old brother who was warm, crying and laughing.

However, that Fei Zheng has been buried with Xu Shi and cannot be found again. The remaining Fei Zheng can only live in this way of self-masochism, just like two completely different parts in an individual, one part is Peel off, and part of it is left behind.

Xu Shi had been away for nearly two hundred years when he met Ruan Xin.

Fei Zheng could not remember Xu Shi's appearance long ago, but at the moment he saw Ruan Xin, it suddenly became clear again, and the memories that had long been vague, also appeared sporadically.

But the heart was still dead, and it didn't throb again because of the exact same face.

The love that was once unforgettable has finally disappeared in a long time that there is no end in sight.

But why did he even get that boy around?

Fei Zheng sometimes doesn't understand himself.

Perhaps, he just wanted to pass that face and cherish the memory of those distant pasts.

But what he didn't expect was that the life he thought was going to be bleak to death, but because the boy named Ruan Xin came back to life again, he was like light, covering him little by little, warming him.

However, he hurt him.

That day, it was Ruan Xin's birthday.

After work, Ruan Xin invited him: "President Fei, today is my birthday, can I have a meal with my face?"

Fei Zheng agreed.

The meal was eaten at a Japanese food store. After drinking two bottles of sake, Ruan Xin became drunk and the road was a little unstable. Fei Zheng helped him into the car and ordered the driver to go to Ruan Xin's house.

Ruan Xin slept all the way leaning on his shoulder. After arriving at the destination, there was still no sign of awakening.

Fei Zheng asked the driver to leave after work without waking Ruan Xin, so he stayed quietly.

I don't know how long it took, Ruan Xin suddenly said, "Why don't you wake me up?"

Fei Zheng was startled, and said lightly: "I want you to sleep a little longer. Now that you wake up, go home."

Ruan Xin sat upright, was silent for a while, and shouted in a low voice: "Fei Zheng."

This is the first time he has called his name directly.

Fei Zheng looked over with a slight surprise. Ruan Xin stared at him brightly, and said every word: "I like you."

After a long absence, Fei Zheng felt his heartbeat.

But he didn't like it, or rather, he was a little scared.

If he doesn't have it, he won't be afraid of losing, and he doesn't want to experience the same despair again.

Fei Zheng said blankly: "I'm afraid I will disappoint you."

The light in Ruan Xin's eyes dimmed instantly.

Fei Zheng stopped looking at him and said flatly: "If you want to resign, I can accept it."

Ruan Xin didn't speak, he got off the car silently, walked for a while and turned back, knocking on Fei Zheng's car window.

Fei Zheng lowered the car window.

Ruan Xin looked at him: "Can I... kiss you?"

Fei Zheng was stunned. Just about to answer, Ruan Xin had bowed his head and kissed him gently on his lips, staying for two seconds, and then left.

Ruan Xin smiled and said, "Just treat me like I'm crazy about drinking."

After speaking, he turned and left.

Fei Zheng raised his hand to caress the lips that had just been kissed, his heart beating vigorously in his chest, making a "plop, thump" sound.

Ruan Xin did not resign.

He still worked hard, as if the confession that night and the little kiss didn't exist at all.

Fei Zheng felt very mean.

He didn't dare to respond to Ruan Xin's feelings because he was afraid of losing again, but he rejoiced because Ruan Xin chose to stay.

However, when the cruel fate really happened again, he was suddenly not afraid of anything.

In the doctor's office that day, he was told that Ruan Xin had a serious heart disease. If he couldn't get a heart transplant in time, Ruan Xin would not survive for three months.

Fei Zheng calmly said "I know", got up and left, and returned to the ward.

He thought, maybe this is his fate.

Rather than avoid shamelessly, it is better to stand up and resist. Even if it is still defeated in the end, it will be painful and hopeless, but at least it will not regret.

As Alfred D’Souza said: Happiness is a journey, not an end. Therefore, love as if you have never been hurt, and live as if today is the end of the world, so that you can die without regrets.

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S03 Lancelot

Although Dragon Five finally broke its shell, Dragon Six and Dragon Seven will have to incubate for about two months, so on the second day of Xide Dragon Girl, Philadelphia turned into a dragon as usual and swallowed two dragon eggs into her stomach. , Incubate eggs conscientiously.

The newly-born Long Wu was doted by four older brothers. The four little guys rushed to play with their sister. Nan Huailin worried that they were not seriously injured to Long Wu, so he had to hold him and not let go, and Long Wu was caught. The enthusiasm of the brothers was shocked, hiding in Nanhuai Lin's arms shivering.

After lunch, the four little guys all took a nap, Nan Huai Lin finally relaxed, had time to look at the phone, and then he was pleasantly surprised to see the email from Lan Slote, he held Dragon Five in one hand and the other. Click on the email to start reading.

Xiaonan:

Let me start with a happy new year.

I'm sorry, I haven't contacted you for so long because I just came back from Antarctica.

I left Beijing in July.

A week before leaving Beijing, Lowden came to me.

Surely Philadelphia told him that I was in Beijing, right?

The dishonest guy, he told him to keep his mouth open.

But I am really happy to see Lowden again.

He is still so handsome, gentleman, and charming, and I almost love him.

At the beginning, the reason why I was with Lowden was just to use him to forget Brother Zheng.

Obviously, I failed.

Human nature is humble, the more you can't get it, the heavier the obsession.

When I was born, I was discarded as a monster by my parents. Later, when I grew up, I was bullied by my fellow clan. It was my brother Zheng who saved me and raised me. Without him, I would have died on the cold seabed.

So my brother Zheng is not just love.

Brother Zheng, to me, is like a brother like a father, is the most special existence in the world, how could I easily forget him.

However, when I saw Ruan Xin, I really decided to give up, although I still deeply love my brother Zheng.

No matter how hard I struggle, after all, I can't match the power of fate. In the face of strange fate, no one is insignificant.

So, when Lowden found me again after so many years and said that he still loves me and is willing to wait for me, I was really moved.

No one knows better than me how painful it is to wait for an impossible love.

He is really stupid, as stupid as me.

Many people say that being moved is not love.

But if you are not even moved, how can you talk about love?

I didn't reply to Lowden hastily, I told him, give me a little more time.

Because I need time to clean up my heart, I can't let him live in a messy heart, this is disrespect for him.

Travel is the best way.

I decided to go to Antarctica. It should be easier to be purified in such ice and snow?

Before I set off, I went to find my brother Zheng to say goodbye.

Unexpectedly, I saw Ruan Xin in a coma in the elevator.

I took him to the hospital, and then notified brother Zheng.

When Brother Zheng rushed over, I could tell at a glance that Brother Zheng really loved Ruan Xin instead of treating him as Xu Shi's substitute.

I am happy for him from the bottom of my heart, really.

Am I very stately? Hahaha.

I set off at the end of July.

Swim from the Pacific to the Indian Ocean, and from the Indian Ocean to the Arctic Ocean.

By the way, when I was passing through the Strait of Magellan, I went to find the small island called Sugarloaf Rock again, and wanted to see if the big flaming bird was still living there.

It is a pity that the island is gone, it may have drifted elsewhere, or it may have sunk into the sea.

It's December when we get to Antarctica.

There are only two seasons in Antarctica, one is the warm season and the other is the cold season.

I have caught up with the warm season. What a pity, I still want to experience the extreme cold.

I stayed in Antarctica for more than a month.

I met a humpback whale. Oh my God, it is really big, but it is very gentle. I have made friends with it and often swim with it for competitions.

I also saved a human being. He came to the Antarctic for an expedition. He accidentally fell from the glacier and broke his head. Fortunately, he met me, otherwise he would die.

By the way, there is another very strange thing. There is an emperor penguin who has probably lost his mind and has to mate with me. Fortunately, I escaped witty and kept my innocence, hahaha!

At this moment, I am sitting in a cafe in Ushuaia, borrowing a laptop from someone to write this email to you.

This is a very beautiful city, you must come and see if you have the opportunity.

I booked a flight to the United States for tomorrow and went to find Lowden.

I think I am ready to start a new life.

It’s not too late, right? After all, I'm still young and beautiful.

Xiaonan, you and Philadelphia are really the best love I have ever seen.

You love him deeply, and he loves you deeply, and is willing to do anything for each other.

I hope that someday in the future, I can also have as beautiful and nauseous love as you.

Please bless me hard, hahaha!

The moonlight tonight is really beautiful, I'm going out to sun the moon for a while.

Wait for me to go to the underwater city to find you to play.

I really like your little blue

February 15, 2019

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The author has something to say:·

I was scared by the comments, so I started to edit my article, and I want to continue to love me, 嘤嘤嘤~

The next Xiandan Cookie "You Squeeze My Invisible Wings" is tentatively scheduled to open on July 15th. You can poke into the column and collect it in advance.

Goodbye next, okay~

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