Hell (2)

Seol Joo-hee ran away to her room and hid herself in a thick blanket.

‘… Well, something… , something is wrong… .’

There was a strong compulsion in her hands that flapped and covered the blanket like a child.

She hid herself so no one could see her, then crouched down and took a defensive stance.

‘… my, i… . I hate Do Ji-hyuk… ? No, that’s absurd… . It can’t be… !’

The allusion that had engulfed her for a long time was resolved naturally with the passage of time, but

Even the memories of the past did not disappear together.

‘My, how much I love Jihyuk… !’

Unfortunately, Seol Joo-hee remembered every single thing she had done.

I was suspicious of the person I loved as if I turned my palm over a mere video.

Far from believing, he accuses him of being a filthy traitor and uses abusive language.

Not only was it not enough to despise him for being treated worse than an insect, but even the memory of being cut off by showing an ugly appearance in the end.

He clearly remembered everything he had done to Do Ji-hyuk.

‘… Oh no… . no… ! I can’t… !’

Among the countless memories, the one that hurts her the most… .

Do Ji-hyuk’s eyes were looking straight at her.

His eyes, which looked at him indifferently with eyes of disappointment, became sharp daggers and ripped her chest to pieces.

‘Oh no… .’

Seol Joo-hee clutched her hair in a sense that she was about to lose heart.

If I could, I feel like I want to rip my brain and head apart.

If only I could erase this terrible time… .

I really felt like I could do anything.

‘… It’s all a dream… . okay… . It’s all a dream… !’

She could not afford to accept the present reality.

The moment he accepted the past he hated and despised Do Ji-hyuk, he had to accept the fact that he was tired of him.

So she desperately denied reality.

‘… Oh, I’m waking up from a dream… . All you have to do is wake up from this f*cking dream… !’

Seol Joo-hee ripped her hair out and prayed that she would wake up from her dream as soon as possible.

I wanted to wake up from the dream quickly and spend time with Do Ji-hyuk as usual.

However.

“… … .”

Of course, this was not a dream.

It was an unrecoverable, heartbreaking reality no matter what he did.

“… heh… .”

In the end, facing the wall of reality, she thought with tears in her eyes.

No matter how terrible the hints were, what he had committed was not at a level that could be forgiven.

How can you say that you love someone and put an apology in your mouth?

“Black… .”

What is even more heartbreaking is that there have been many opportunities to undo the mistakes made so far.

Do Ji-hyuk did not abandon Queens despite suffering such humiliation.

If he really didn’t have a heart, he wouldn’t have avoided contact or even paid any attention to it.

However, Seol Joo-hee thoroughly uprooted Do Ji-hyuk’s regrets.

Not only was it not enough to kick directly to the last chance, but he also gave him a huge disappointment.

“👌… .”

Seol Joo-hee, who had been shedding sad tears, could recognize that her mind was gradually breaking down.

Even now, if you get up and take medicine, you will probably feel a little better.

But… .

She didn’t have the courage to run away again with drugs.

The effect of the drug is temporary.

Even if you take the medicine now, the effect of the medicine will decrease someday.

Then reality will come again, and you will have to face the cold reality while struggling with sadness… .

Seol Joo-hee did not have the confidence to feel her current feelings again.

“… … .”

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What should I do?

Should I get down on my knees and beg and apologize now?

Wouldn’t it be accepted if I earnestly pray that the suggestion was released, and that I really had no choice but to do it because of the suggestion?

… Then what if you don’t accept it?

Do Ji-hyuk is cold-hearted.

He doesn’t even give a brief glance to the person who once opened his mind.

I’m already very disappointed that I got my hands on drugs.

What if the apology is not accepted?

What if I mistake myself for the last chance and make it even more disappointing?

“… hey hey hey… .”

Seol Joo-hee, who had fallen into extreme fear, crouched even more and fell.

Wouldn’t it feel like walking through a minefield?

Fear of dying no matter what you choose.

The dilemma of death began to gnaw at her mind again.

“… Mi, I’m sorry… . I, I was wrong… . never… . I’ll never do that again… . Sorry… .”

Seol Joo-hee constantly mumbled an apology and asked for forgiveness.

Because this was the only thing she could do at the edge of the abyss.

But, of course, there was no one to listen to the apology,

She fell into an endless abyss, repeating apologies and seizures until she lost consciousness.

*

The after-party didn’t stop until the day changed.

Normally, it would have been time for us to part ways, but thanks to a sense of liberation that the season was over, everyone showed no sign of ending it… .

“Oh! Do Ji-hyuk, you bastard, drink water instead of alcohol!”

“Ah… ! I’m Purodusoni… ! Drinking something like water is not good for your body… !”

“Right! Here, drink this instead of water!”

“Come on, come on, get a drink.”

Kim Jun-hyung, who doesn’t want to give me a break with the momentum to kill me, and Bang Han-na, who has a twisted tongue.

And Na-rae Kim, who secretly pours a full vodka, and Gyu-ri Han, who pours a overflowing glass.

Their faces bursting into laughter just looking at the rolling glass of wine, just looking at them from afar, made me feel like I could smell the alcohol.

“These crazy people… . I will drink water!”

“Huh!? Run away!”

“Catch it… !”

Not too long ago, I thought I shouldn’t be getting close to my teammates.

The reason was that from a position where they had to give directions, getting too close to the team members could make each other uncomfortable.

So I’ve always kept a reasonable distance from my teammates, and I’ve been running the team by narrowing the distance only to the members who need emotional exchange.

By the way… .

The longer I spent here, the more my values began to change.

Team Seoul City Hall is a very rare team.

From Kim Jun-hyung, who took over the job because he was young.

Gyu-ri Han, who was pushed back and moved departments as if relegated.

Hanna visits Tokyo alone to become a hunter with a talent that no one has recognized.

Kim Na-rae was a part-time job as a D-class hunter who had nothing to do with it.

Jin Seo-won, who lost her only guardian and almost became a cruel murderer.

and… .

Abandoned by the team I had been with for 10 years, I wandered into alcohol addiction.

We gathered at the Seoul City Hall as a team with our own stories, and while we had a successful season as a team, my values, which had been rigidly rigid, began to change gradually.

In retrospect… .

From the moment I got the phone call from Junhyung Kim, it must have started to change.

“… brother.”

“Oh, Seowon-ah. I haven’t seen you for a while… . Where have you been?”

“… yes. restroom.”

“Are you still in the bathroom? You haven’t been drinking too much… ?”

I inadvertently gave a worried reaction to Jinseowon, who appeared late.

“… Nope.”

Then she thoughtlessly shook her head and claimed that she was fine… .

Kwok-

Out of nowhere, she grabbed my collar, pointed inside the empty lounge, and softly asked to accompany me.

“… brother. Wait here.”

“yes? suddenly?”

At that time, I was puzzled for a moment by her sudden behavior.

“Oh, it’s a vow!”

Hanna Bang sneaked in while sipping her newly made cocktail.

“… Unnie, go and play with Narae unnie.”

“Yes… ? Why don’t I deal with you… ?”

Jin Seo-won stares at Bang Han-na with strangely dissatisfied eyes.

It felt as if the plan had been distorted and dissatisfied.

“Play with me too… !”

“… no.”

“Why… !”

“… go away.”

‘cute.’

I quietly admired the two like real sisters, sipping cool water,

The frantic night that everyone was drunk, barely came to an end when it was almost time for the sun to rise.

So time goes by again… .

Coming to work as usual.

“good morning.”

“Come!”

I greeted Han Gyuri, who came to work first, and showed my face to the office.

“Who is Junhyung?”

“ah. Junhyung went to the HR team for a while.”

lately. After the frenzy after-party.

After enjoying a one-day reward vacation on our own, we started work in earnest to welcome the new season.

“Have you got any offers?”

“Hannah and Seowon each had one, and Narae had two.”

As the transfer period approached, our team slowly began to get bites.

Perhaps it was because the Sejin Guild was holding up well, so there was no movement except for the suggestion that he poked him in.

‘by the way… . Narae is very popular.’

Kim Na-rae is currently receiving the most attention from our team.

Rather than the strategically limited Jinseowon or Hanna, Kim Na-rae, who can perform various missions, was receiving much more attention.

“Kill all the offers… When Junhyung arrives, we start with the reorganization meeting.”

“All right!”

Waiting for Junhyung Kim to come back like that, I hope he is busy with his work for a while.

blat blat blah blatantly

Suddenly I heard a rushing sound from the hallway… .

Bump-!

“Do, Do Ji-hyuk is here!?”

Someone rushed into the office and searched for me.

‘yes?’

It was Kim Junhyung, who went to the HR team to do business.

“Why are you looking for me in such a hurry?”

I paused what I was doing, got up, and spoke to him through the partition.

OK… .

“… Ji-hyuk… .”

Junhyung Kim made a very serious expression and told me one piece of news.

this morning.

Seol Joo-hee tried to commit su*cide.

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