The days of being a spiritual mentor in Meiman

The shocked expression on Luo Ji's face only lasted for less than a second, and she turned her head away with a swish.

I'm not here for psychotherapy.

I respect any orientation.

Luo Ji opened her mouth and paused for two seconds, then looked at Schiller and said, Why do you say that?

Because you're gender fluid, so...

That's not it. Luo Ji interrupted Schiller and said, Why do you think I'm against Thor...

That's a long story.

Then let's make a long story short.

But you're not here for psychotherapy.

Luo Ji was choked, and she couldn't help complaining: Why are you and the doctor so different?

Because I'm not a psychiatrist. Schiller crossed one leg over the other and said, You think your good doctor's detailed questioning, careful observation, scientific analysis and careful judgment are all because of this kind of thing? Is the process necessary?”

Is not it?

It's because he's billed by the hour and we don't need that.

Luo Ji puffed up her cheeks and said, Then you should tell me why, and I'll pay your consultation fee.

But I'm not a psychiatrist, and I don't need anyone to pay me for my judgment. Schiller leaned his body to one side, propped his elbows on the armrests of the armchair, put his fingertips on his temples, and tilted his head. He looked at Luo Ji and said: Instead, you have to be prepared to accept my judgment - usually there is nothing good to say, and it is not what you want to hear.

Then why did you say that?

Because people feel that they are capable of bearing the truth before they know the answer. Curiosity will definitely push you into a dead end. But if I stand at the end and wait for you, you will think that I am too sharp.

Luo Ji had nothing to say. She found that she always had nothing to say in front of this Schiller. Not long after they were separated, she began to miss her good doctor.

Dr. Schiller's fees are indeed very high, and he also needs other people to provide him with additional emotional value, and sometimes even have to turn himself into fun for him.

But what I have to admit is that the consultation and treatment he provided were refreshing, and the views he gave on certain things were enlightening, but not difficult to accept, because he had already understood the truth before he announced it. Make the truth clear.

But it seems that Professor Schiller has no such patience. He is better at hitting the nail on the head. He is too sharp. No one can gain the linguistic advantage in front of him. He is focused and sharp, like a real weird genius.

Luo Ji met Schiller's gaze. She felt that she had already been seen through by the slightly nervous gaze, but she had to admit that Schiller was right. His behavior made people more curious about the answer he could give.

Luo Ji let out a long breath, leaned against the bedpost, held the rounded top of the bedpost with her hand, put her chin on the back of her hand, and stared straight at Schiller who was sitting on the sofa in the corner.

So tell me, what do you think of me?

People always say that your upbringing experience shaped you. Odin's injustice, Thor's rough lines, and Frigga's excessive attention. These experiences caused you to become Loki, and caused all the Lokis in the universe to become Loki.

But it actually annoys you that you think you make who you are.

Your greed never comes from your past lack, and your perfectionism is not due to insecurity. What you think you should have is because you feel you are worthy of it. It's not that you must have it now because you didn't have it before.

So paying too much attention to your past is an insult to you. They see you as a duckweed floating in the storm. They seem to be sympathetic, but in fact they think you have nothing to anchor yourself. This view makes you Crazy.”

As far as your feelings are concerned, Odin sees you as his little son, Frigga sees you as a wronged little prince, Laufey sees you as a tool to rebel against Odin's army, Asgard People regard you as an ordinary second prince.

Only Thor, he not only sees you as his brother, he sees you as Loki.

He has a clearer understanding of your self than anyone else, and looks down upon your sociological attributes. Even when he complained to Odin, he would never say anything about my brother or your son. , he would only say that Loki did this again, Loki did that again.”

Rather than looking back at the past, Thor spends 99% of his time looking forward. Many people regard this as a lack of memory and being too reckless, but because of this, he knows you as you are now, not in the past. A collection of experiences.”

In front of him, you won't feel the slightest impact of your past experiences on the emotional relationship between you at the moment. When you stay together, you can focus on the present and think about the future without any distractions. This is something even Odin can't do.

It makes you deeply fascinated, attracted to him, wanting to possess his time, because every moment you spend with him, you feel more like yourself than you would otherwise.

Perhaps you don't realize that the firm self you think is actually far less stable than you imagine. The old shadows of the past cause you pain, but you always avoid them.

Showing your own presence to others is more like a temporary analgesic. But by Thor's side, you feel the wind and waves calm down. His independent understanding of you at this moment is like an anchor sinking into the deep sea. Because of his existence, you don't need to Express yourself and be yourself.”

This not only makes you pursue, but also makes you addicted. But if it becomes obvious that the time you spend with him will be less and less, you will be more eager to find another anchor - you are crazy to choose an anchor. But I want to avoid him as much as possible.

Because you know, what Thor does is just natural. He does this to everyone. He doesn't realize the special significance he has to you, and you don't want him to realize it, so when things are okay, you Choose to maintain the status quo, do nothing, or even retreat and give up voluntarily.”

As for why you don't want him to realize... there is still a subtle sense of victory between you. Although you have respected him as a king and acknowledged the status gap between you, feelings have always been two different things.

You hope you can hold more ropes in your hands and avoid giving your rope to anyone, you...

Schiller paused, frowned slightly, as if he was sniffing something, and then began to explore in a deeper direction.

You don't want Thor to feel at ease, from beginning to end. You want him to always be worried about you. You think you can't let him feel that 'Loki is doing well, he has nothing to ask for, and things can just keep going like this.' .”

But you are not entirely seeking his attention or drawing his attention. You seem to be seeking a kind of emotional... fairness.

He anchors you, and you think that's a power, so his obligation is to be bothered by your presence, like, 'There's a price to pay for doing this to me.'

Because he actually doesn't know what he can do to you, and you've hidden it well so far. In this way, you won twice. You held one of Thor's ropes in your hand, and you didn't lose your own. Give it to him and put him in an emotionally advantageous position.”

In your relationship, you are so competitive...it's just by nature.

Yes, you are a person who weighs his position of existence by possessing and being possessed - the more you possess, the clearer your self is, and the more you are possessed, the clearer your superego is.

When you own something, you can actively use your consciousness to make judgments that release your natural freedom. When you are owned by certain people in certain identities, you will be trapped by conscience and morality, so you are not completely good. It’s not entirely bad.”

You want to possess Thor and be possessed by him, you want to be able to release your free nature in front of him, and you want both of you to be bound by your loved ones. In the sociological sense, you must be responsible for your loved ones. the rule of.

Schiller's fingers tapped regularly on the armrests of the sofa, obviously deep in thought. His amazing talent was operating at full capacity, and the air in the room was filled with the echoes of his thoughts.

The current situation is that Thor has entered a new stage of life step by step. He has been crowned, married and had children. New stages of life always have opportunities and challenges. But whether it is an opportunity or a challenge, you are obviously not his. Main theme.

You and Thor have almost no chance to be alone. The days when you were inseparable as a boy are getting further and further away from you two. Your need to possess him cannot be satisfied.

Thor has more and closer family members. He has a wife, and is about to have a child. Even if he values ​​you as much as before, he has many more people who are bound by the rule of being responsible for his relatives out of thin air. , and you're still pretty much just him, and your need to be possessed is unmet.

Empty, entangled, pulled, torn... You think the relationship between you is becoming more and more unequal. You think the way to restore the unbalanced balance is to re-satisfy your need to possess and be possessed. .”

You need to regain Thor's energy so that he has more moral restraints on you and takes more responsibility to possess you.

You'd think you could do both by...finding another Thor.

This is extremely bold and risky, both for you and Thor, because you know that when things get to this point, you have to give up the rope. This is your leverage - to make Thor realize that you need him Not just because of brotherhood, but for a deeper reason.”

Maybe you still don't want him to realize the truth, maybe you don't think he's capable of understanding, but you want to disguise this as love through another Thor.

This will give your brother a big shock. Hold the rope in your hand tightly and pull him toward you, so maybe you can regain your balance.

So the appearance of the super troublemaker you talk about is not an accident, it is part of your plan.

You need a Thor, but not quite Thor, because if he was exactly like your brother, you're not sure you would be able to control yourself.

But what fascinates you about Thor will be reflected in most Thors, so you must find a special one so that you can use him without distraction, instead of digging a trap and falling into it yourself.

But that's not enough. When the actors are in place, you need a stage. My banquet is the best occasion. You will find a way to make the second Zu Thor chase you and let your brother hear something.

He will definitely come over and ask me. In addition to apologizing to me for your behavior, he will definitely feel that as your psychiatrist, I noticed all this in advance. He will want to know when this started and what happened. It has developed to such an extent that he will even consult me ​​about his relationship with you.

Then it is obvious that your good doctor will not peel off your skin so sharply and straightforwardly. He will only give the answer I gave you before - yes, your brother's feelings for you far exceed brotherhood. .”

Schiller said with a sigh.

The vast majority of people regard love as the most noble emotion in the world. They believe that the end point of all relationships should be love, so once transcendence is mentioned, they mistakenly think that the sublimated emotion is love.

But the human emotional system is much more complicated than this. What's fascinating is that after every emotion reaches its extreme, there is no end in sight.

But the vast majority of people are not capable or willing to understand this, and only superficially regard them as love.

How perfunctory, superficial, and full of their usual evasive spirit is one of the strong evidences that they are good at making excuses for their brains not turning around...

enough.