The days of being a spiritual mentor in Meiman

When the agents were blown away by the air current, Keira frowned deeply. She looked at Alfred's expression and asked him, Aren't you curious about who that person is?

Alfred shook his head and said, I'm just an old butler, and the major events that are about to happen in this world have nothing to do with me.

What did you mean by what you said earlier?

Keira walked to Alfred's side and looked at him. After saying that, Alfred looked a little tired.

If it was an ordinary old man, Keira might feel that he was tired. After all, thinking and talking consume energy, but Alfred is still very strong. Although he is no longer young, Keira has no doubt that he is not Can't beat the old butler.

Valeria, you asked me in the previous letter what I think about your future plans for life. In my reply, I didn't mention this, not because I don't have any opinions, but because I'm afraid, I You don't really want to hear your opinion...

Keira tilted her head, not understanding what Alfred meant by saying this, she thought for a while, and then said:

Are you worried that I won't take your advice? It doesn't matter, I think everything can be learned by listening. Even if some suggestions don't match my expectations, I'm happy to use it as a reference, and thank the people who gave me advice...

That's why you're able to improve so quickly, but also why you don't want to take my advice.

Keira thought that Alfred was still worried that she would not accept the suggestion, so she walked up to Alfred, looked him in the eyes and said, Oh, Mr. Pennyworth, you really don't need to have such worries , I have always regarded you as my teacher and godfather...

...My suggestion is to bring your family to the United States as soon as possible, then find another job, spend the rest of your life in peace, don't mention your identity in the first half of your life, and don't tell anyone.

Keira's brows slowly frowned, and the frequency of her chest heaving began to increase. It could be seen that she became a little angry, but she still asked as patiently as possible: Why?

Before Alfred could answer, Keira couldn't bear it any longer. She said, How could I betray my career? How could I betray my ideals? The shore of Lake Baikal is my hometown, and I will eventually return there.

The more she spoke, the more excited she became. Thinking of her hometown made her more emotional. She said tremblingly:

Yes, I know that most people have a bad impression of Siberia, thinking that it is a land of perpetual freezing...

But that is also a child in the arms of a great mother. Lake Baikal is the pearl on her forehead and the teardrop in the corner of her eye. That is my hometown. I was born there, and I will definitely die there.

Calm down, Valeria, I'm not denying that, and that's why I said that you may not like my advice.

You have to tell me the reason, right? Alfred, otherwise how would you let me accept this ridiculous suggestion?

Alfred sighed and said:

Decades ago, I was as passionate and ideal as you...

Even until I followed the instructions to complete the task of delivering the list, I was intoxicated by the beautiful vision of what a great cause can achieve...

But all of this ends with a decision of mine.

what is that?

I recall, I mentioned that after stashing the list, instead of going straight back to the UK to find my supervisors and contacts, I went to Moscow.

Kaila frowned, and she said: I wanted to ask before, it should be against the rules to go directly to Moscow, right? Even if I am from the Soviet Union, I can't do it lightly.

That's right, but I had no choice at the time, because I knew that only scientists in Moscow could possibly solve that monster's egg.

The process of getting the egg from the owl was extremely difficult. During the process, we saw many things that ordinary people did not see. I realized that some kind of dark force may be threatening the world, and we must find a way Stop it.

At that time, I felt that the crisis was imminent. In comparison, the regulations were not that important, so I found a way to come to Moscow.

Then what?

I was arrested... Of course, this is not unexpected, after all, I violated the rules, but after that...

Alfred sighed, then said:

At that time, Philby had already returned to Moscow. He bailed for me, and Moscow decided not to pursue my fault for violating the regulations.

But when I told them all this, their first reaction was not how to solve that monster egg and that mysterious dark force to ensure the safety of the people of the world, they understood it as a new weapon developed by the United States ...

They asked me about the detailed parameters of this weapon, hoping to get more detailed information. I repeatedly emphasized to them the danger of that thing and the fact that we must solve it and eliminate hidden dangers for all mankind.

But the answers I got disappointed me.

The person in charge who communicated with me told me that in order to ensure that this newly developed weapon will not be used against them by the United States, they will send other agents to investigate this matter.

And if it's just an uncontrolled monster that can't be exploited, then the United States will suffer first, and they are happy to see it happen.

Kayla was a little silent, these stories seemed to be understated when they came out of Alfred's mouth, but she could empathize with the disappointment and anger.

Actually, I tried to convince myself at that time. For example, the financial situation of the Soviet Union was also quite worrying at that time, so I couldn't invest heavily in an illusory project. For example, maybe I didn't get more convincing evidence, and I couldn't prove that thing. the danger of...

Or, I also think... Maybe in the final analysis, no one has the obligation to save all mankind.

Keira could hear Alfred's voice becoming a little choked up, especially when he uttered the last sentence. In the old hoarse voice, there was a crisp sound of something breaking, which reached Keira's ears It made her feel suffocated.

But what really disappointed me was that I was assassinated just as I was being allowed to leave Moscow.

At that time, I thought it must be the American spies lurking in Moscow who wanted to kill me. They almost succeeded. The people who did it were very powerful. Two bullets hit my calf and chest respectively.

I escaped my life by chance, but when I recovered from my injuries and was going to investigate this matter, I found out that the person who did it was not an American spy, but... one of my own.

Kayla's eyes widened, and she said, How is that possible?? Why would they...

Because I know about the monster egg and the intelligence of the dark forces, if it is disseminated, it may greatly shake the confidence of the army. They don't want me to go out and spread panic...

Alfred closed his eyes and said:

Once upon a time, we walked on a road that would never be afraid. When we wanted to go forward, we didn't have to go around the mountain. The mountain would go around us because of fear.

All of this ended at the moment when we began to hesitate.

Perhaps, no one in this world is obliged to save the whole world. All of this is just an unrealistic fantasy, but when we give up this fantasy, we give up everything.

Keira saw the vertical and horizontal grooves on Alfred's face trembling, and he suddenly discovered that the aging of the butler did not seem to come from the decline of the body, but more like the decadence after the collapse of the spirit and reconstruction and exhausted.

Keira suddenly understood that Alfred did not give up this career because of his relationship with Bruce, rather, after he gave up his beliefs, Bruce became his only spiritual sustenance.

Thinking of this, Keira suddenly said anxiously: Wait, Alfred, Benjamin got your information before, and it recorded your previous resume...

If, as you said, you didn't actually develop little Wayne into a member of the organization, and he doesn't even know about your past, then you have to destroy those materials as soon as possible!

Come with me, I'll take you to that room!

Alfred looked at Keira, with some surprise in his eyes, he said, I thought you would reprimand me for making up a story, or be dissatisfied that I deliberately smeared her...

You're not that kind of person.

Keira stopped moving forward, she turned around, hesitated for a while, looked back at Alfred, and said:

In a difficult situation, people like you and Philby, withstanding unimaginable pressure, wanted to turn the tide, and you did it.

When you are dying, you can say: 'My whole life and all my energy have been dedicated to the most magnificent cause in the world - to fight for the liberation of mankind.'

Keira paused, and said with a trembling tone:

Perhaps, all mankind will not be liberated...

Alfred... Keira looked into Alfred's eyes, and she asked, ...but will you regret what you did?

Alfred also looked into Keira's eyes, he was silent for a while, then shook his head slowly.

Kayla turned her back on him, paused, then strode again.

Her voice echoed across the room like an actor struggling to finish his last line in a play when the curtain falls prematurely.

I don't regret it either.