The Heroine’s Route is Wrong

After a day's work, she simply ordered a bowl of plain noodles when she came home. Now she is in financial difficulties and can't buy meat often. Fortunately, St. Mary’s Hospital provided employees with lunch vouchers, and she ate more meat for lunch.

After eating and washing, I originally had to work overtime to write English, so I wrote nearly 250,000 words this month, and the first part is almost finished.

Although there are updated parts in the rewriting, after all, it is easier than completely recreating, and her English level will be 90% by the time the original owner.

But thinking about the case of the child's wealth and wealth, she put aside what she had written again.

I can't help thinking about the weight loss treatment plan of Chinese medicine, drug prescriptions, acupuncture methods, massage techniques, and progressive exercise plans. Managers have lived too long, don't want to be omnipotent, and have experienced too much.

As a result, she began to think about items one by one, listing the big boxes first, step by step and modify the details. When a doctor's life is at stake, the doctor's little effort may change a family. Even if it was Zhao Qingyi, who believed in him, to treat the disease clinically, and it was related to his better condition to perform surgery in the later period, she thought about it six or seven times.

Before she knew it, it was 11:30 again before she went to wash her face and sleep.

In a daze, the manager was in chaos again, and she couldn't help thinking that the system would joke with her on April Fools' Day. In fact, the system is afraid of interfering with her, making her over-reliant, or worrying that she will maintain a superior sense of play in the life of the character she traverses and not live well, so he will not appear in her life later. Unless she calls to sleep urgently, the system can appear in a dream.

[System, where are you? 】

The manager called, no one responded, and suddenly she saw a woman's back, so familiar.

The manager suddenly reacted and said: [Did you look for me? 】

The man turned around and nodded, but with a trace of sadness on his face, he said: [I also need to make it clear to you that you feel my feelings, but there are also misunderstandings, because some things depend on feelings and memories, You also can't tell. 】

The manager nodded: [I'm willing to listen to this. People's feelings are sometimes messy and complicated, and they are really unclear, so I can rely on my own judgment. 】

The original owner said: [I am an ordinary person. Because of my growing experience, the more I lack, the more I want. My ideal is that I want to be decent, and I want my husband and son. But the more you have no self, the less you can get it]

The manager said: [This is not your fault. For women, willing to give, the results sometimes require luck. You just happened to meet a very tacky man. In fact, many historical celebrities are scumbags to their wives, let alone Qian Yunfan? this is not your fault. 】

The original owner said: [It is my fault. I felt that even if I lied to my parents, it would be difficult for me to marry into Qian's family. Later, I didn't have contraception. 】

The manager accepts the memory of the original owner, but the memory becomes more burdensome, and the memory that the manager thinks is meaningless is "closed", and because it is empathetic and unified, at that time, she naturally stands in the position of "own company" superior.

[Isn't contraception a man's business? 】

The original owner said: [I indulged him. At that time, I thought about having children. For the sake of the children, I could always get married earlier. As a result, I was delayed for the crucial three years, took a wrong step at the last moment, and lost all the games. But I am sincere, and I try my best to reduce the burden on him, so as to be worthy of him. It became your subconscious disagreement with that kind of woman, and you knelt down in front of the rich family. it is ridiculous! 】

The manager said: [My dear, the Qian family is not a rich man...]

[In my eyes, that is already a great giant. But they won't give me decentness, and they won't support me when I have a son or work in that family. Rather than being innocent, I don't want to accept the favor of my parents anymore. 】

【what? No way? Without this kind of operation, I have already come. You can't ask me to go back. It's not you who invited me. 】

【You misunderstood, I am not asking you to go back, but since you are here, I will ask you, and I will pay the price. 】

【What's the meaning? 】

[When I died, I had repaid my parents for their life-saving grace, so the stigma after death was enough, but they couldn't look away, so I can only do that. I also don’t want to be a vain woman, but I don’t have your knowledge. From the beginning of my sensibility, I have lost too much because of those. I am just an ordinary person. My heart is also long and my face is tender. I support Can't afford everyone's cold words and ridicule...]

With a sad look on her face, the manager hurriedly said: [People are not sages, people are not plants, and when you want to integrate into a group, and receive those things, your heart will always feel like winter. 】

The original owner said: [Just believe me, no one believed me before I died. Everyone said I was a white-eyed wolf, and everyone thought I was utilitarian. My parents once tried to explain to the leading colleagues in my hospital, and the leading colleagues felt that I was the kind of negative teaching material that pityed the parents of the world. 】

The manager ridiculed disdainfully: [Everyone despises your utilitarianism because they hold utilitarianism in their hands earlier, they will have it if they are not exceptional, but you have to work hard to get it. Some people in the world are like this, and they laugh when they see others struggling for the fame and fortune they have long ago, and feel a sense of superiority. And some people are not good at judgment and are brought into this so-called emotion of justice, but in fact they are nothing. There are no perfectly good people in the world, so don't care too much about what others do to you. 】

[You are a totally good person. 】

[Not counted. I have killed as many people as I have saved. 】

[But you have never killed a person for your own anger. You are the emperor, you are the prime minister, you are the general, and you have to kill people. 】

[Although it is not to vent anger, but to kill is to kill. Achievement is based on bones. From another perspective, don’t I use human life to make my position? Of course, the karma of fighting for the country is shared by the national destiny, and I don't have to bear the karma, and the country Xu, based on my reputation and merit, is more hooligan than venting private anger and killing people. 】

[I'm always narrow, and I haven't penetrated the word ‘family’ in my entire life. If I hadn’t cared about my humble ‘family’, even though I did not have your experience, I would still be able to do something in society. Through you, I understand that although others will not give me, but the results I have made are difficult for others to take away. 】

【exactly. So in the future, after I leave, you can walk your life alone. 】

[You don't understand, I don't want you to go, I don't want to face those things myself, I'm tired of it a long time ago. 】

[It will be different in the future. 】

[When I was born, my biological parents abandoned me. Although my adoptive parents raised me, they also gave me the biggest obstacle in life. As for the people around me, no matter how hard I tried to blend in and accommodate, no one knew me. Then my husband abandoned me, my mother-in-law abused me, and finally... my son killed me. Everyone is suffering for me, and I am tired in this life. I could forget all this as soon as possible after I died, but I didn't expect that my parents would have it, so I had to start again with you. And my only concern is that it was originally broken, and the adoptive parents paid a huge price for the sidelines. I can't accept their favor. 】

[Not to mention whether you can top it by yourself, but even if you can, the price will not be too great. 】

[Life originally came naked, and walked naked, without worry. You don't need to persuade me, your original intention was to'go home', then do you understand my original intention? Yes... I once really wanted to leave my adoptive parents' house completely. I couldn't do anything like that, but I thought about it. 】

[People are not sages, thinking about it is not a sin, and the law does not punish the heart. 】

[When you can get close to them like that, in fact...I am not touched, I really don't like adoptive parents. 】

【Because I have not experienced what you experienced, so I can easily play. In those matters, no outsider is qualified to judge you for not breaking the law. Tragedies are sometimes just tragedies, but the world is stupid and always likes to find someone to be responsible for the tragedy. Stepping on the bones of others, their hearts are noble, and the tragedies they don't like to see make them feel the sublimation of their moral character. Actually it's their shit! 】

When the original owner heard the manager’s words, his eyes exuded. This was the only person she met who could tell her a word of justice. Although she was extremely powerful and had been the emperor of heaven, her heart still understood the struggle in the world. The helplessness of mortals.

The original owner couldn't help talking to people about his deepest feelings for the first time: [Although they also want to be my parents, they are indeed the shadows that accompany me throughout my life. From the time I was young, I received unfair treatment and psychological harm because of them, to when they came to Yangcheng secretly to see me but got into a car accident and was taken to the hospital-the workplace situation opened up to me with all my strength and the marriage maintained by gritted teeth The family is an instant explosion of destruction. Even people who knew me later knew that my son could put it on me if he didn't recognize me because I didn't recognize the moral punishment of their retribution-but I didn't deny them. They gave me a chance to survive, but they brought me all pain. They didn't mean it. I was fed by them when I was a child, but I was tortured to death for their existence all my life, and there was still a stigma after death. 】

The manager was silent for a long time, and said: [Hold on, you can always keep it safe. 】

The original owner sighed: "It's fine if I haven't died. Once I owe myself to death, I don't want to face those people and things by myself. We are all mortals in the world. Think about it, Qian Yunfan can accept that I am a complete orphan, but cannot accept that I have such parents. There is love in the world, but you can't be with the light just because you are the high emperor, the world has its own unchangeable reality, there are more people who are colder than me, and there is darkness in the world. I'm not as evil as others say, but I'm not as good as you are. After this life, I can't love them anymore. Once you go, I don't know how to do it. But I must pay what I owe. I don’t have to be in the next life. If there is a next life, I will never see it again. 】

The manager understood. She said that she had died once, and all grievances had disappeared, and she didn't want to have anything to do with her adoptive parents. The adoptive parents loved their daughters, but as they admitted when she first met them, they didn't have children and wanted a daughter. They didn't know the situation of their husbands and wives, but they still wanted family happiness.

Is this out of love for children or the desire of human nature?

They are such a disadvantaged group, and they also have the right to enjoy a family relationship. Sometimes onlookers will think of this and sympathize with them, but everyone ignores the child's right to choose. The starting point of that child's life was set to the end because they wanted to enjoy the right to family relationship, and the future life will have to carry such a burden.

Like the facts of the original owner’s life, if she came out of the orphanage, Qian Yunfan would still accept it. With their burden, she would not be able to accept it.

This is cruel to adoptive parents, but the original owner is not innocent?

They handled the adoption relationship and did not ask the child whether he would like it or not, because the child was too young to speak.

The manager can't help thinking of the role of changing children. Yu Niang is a villain, but she loves her biological daughter. Yu Niang's situation is not as bad as Ugly Father and Ugly Niang. Yu Niang has to endure never admit her daughter and let her live a good life.

The adoptive parents of the original owner left her initially out of kindness, but later they wanted to compensate for the psychological lack of no one under them. With the current social ethical situation of planting flowers, is there no desire to raise children and guard against old age?

Because planting flowers does not have a complete old-age security system, all children support their parents. So they didn't think about sending that child to a better place. They will have a daughter since then, and they will have to rely on when they grow old.

They are indeed selfish. Seeing their daughter's life end so miserably, they are still touched, which arouses their selfless side, but they don't know whether the original owner needs their selflessness.

This time, it seemed like the beginning of their relationship, and their task this time couldn't ask the original owner whether they wanted it or not.

The manager said: [I understand your mood, but I can't be the master. 】

Everyone wants her to bear all the cold ridicule, and her rights are deprived. Under the cold ridicule, the extreme lack of material, the dignity is difficult to maintain, she is asked to be a bitter and filial daughter, and she is asked to radiate a brilliance that is much higher than that of mortals, and the morality of outsiders. Feeling satisfied.

The original owner also fights, she doesn't want what others have imposed on her, and she doesn't owe it, she is responsible for her mortal heart. ——Why don’t I have the right to be a mortal and live within the framework you decide?

Zhao Qingyi woke up at midnight, was dazed for half an hour, and then fell asleep again when she was too sleepy.

The next day, experts from St. Mary's Hospital gave Li Tianyou a consultation, and Zhao Qingyi was listening in the periphery. The experts discussed left and right, in short, Xiao Pangdun was hospitalized first.

According to the opinions of family members, let the internal medicine department of Chinese medicine regulate the spleen and stomach, treat dampness and puffiness, and improve the physique of Xiao Pang Dun.

This is a big customer, and the dean also spoke.

Dr. Chen couldn't help being cautious again and again in the face of such intractable diseases and super-tyrants.

I also discussed with Zhao Qingyi when I prescribed the prescription, one case of Chinese medicine.

Zhao Qingyi always low-key and modestly put forward his views on prescriptions at this time. Of course, Dr. Chen is an expert who can appreciate the details and benefit a lot.

Chinese medicine prescriptions are the same as surgery, and clever details are like art.

Zhao Qingyi does not have a Tibetan teacher for acupuncture and massage. She is also for children, and now it is not easy to ask for a false name. Since Dr. Chen has such an attitude towards practicing medicine, she does not take her age as a priority, and she has a good mind, so she can be a partner for cooperation.

Privately facing the mannequin, she explained all the complicated acupuncture techniques and precautions very clearly, which shocked Dr. Chen. She couldn't help asking who she studied in school, and whether she was born in a medical family.

Zhao Qingyi haha, did not explain, if she said that she was just a poor girl, people would not have confidence in her, and he had no confidence in what he learned, and it would be bad for the patient.

However, Dr. Chen has to weigh this kind of thing himself. He dare not do it. He has all the qualifications to listen to the words of an epigenetic and treat someone. After the treatment is broken, he will definitely not be responsible for the latter, but he Be responsible for yourself.

He had to do what he was sure of first, such as Chinese medicine conditioning, which would not cause any dangerous harm to the child. There was also exercise guidance. Apart from the child being a little tired, it would not be too dangerous.

...

Zhao Qingyi and Physician Chen cooperated in a conservative approach to the treatment, and the time passed like this for a week.

In fact, this little fat guy is not good at serving, and he is too spoiled at home.

As a gunner, Zhao Qingyi could not move needles, but she did most of the exercise and massage work, and she was appointed by Dr. Chen in name.

Zhao Qingyi's actions were more cruel than Dr. Chen, and she knew better, so she massaged Xiaopangdun's acupoints that day. He cried in pain, and called her badass, pig head, and witch. Mrs. Li felt sorry for the child. Sometimes it was inevitable to look at her more. Eye.

Zhao Qingyi feels that the child is suffering from this disease is pitiful, but the spoiled temper is unnecessary to care, smiles slightly, and preemptively said: "Mrs. Li, you must cooperate with the treatment. If the body is so weak, the operation will be successful in the future and there will be problems in recovery. There are more complications, and it’s a problem again. But if you don’t care, I won’t give him a massage on the acupoints."

Mrs. Li heard her say this, how could she dare to blame her for cruelty?

So Mrs. Li coaxed Xiao Pangdun again, Xiao Pangdun cried aggrievedly, and said slickly: "Mom, she beat me! She dares to beat me! It hurts!"

Zhao Qingyi:...

Mrs. Li said, "That is not to beat you, but to treat you."

"I'm not sick, mother, I want to go home."

Zhao Qingyi had washed her hands in the sink and said, "There is still exercise."

"I don't want to run, it's hot and tired, Mom, I want to eat ice cream."

Mrs. Li: "..."

Zhao Qingyi smiled slightly and said, "If you don't run today, let's play football. If you can score a goal, you can get revenge."

Xiao Pang's thin eyes actually shone brightly: "How to get revenge?"

Zhao Qingyi said: "If you score a goal, you can kick my **** and I will never hide."

"good!"

St. Mary's Hospital still has a lawn in the back garden, and a small goal was temporarily set up. Zhao Qingyi accompanies this little fat to play football. When he is thirsty, he drinks medicinal tea that tastes barely acceptable.

Xiaopangdun was panting, but in order to take revenge, he ended up. After untold hard work, he finally scored a goal. Seeing the badass doctor guarding his **** miserably, he kicked the ball into her **** without sympathy.

If the ball didn't hit, he can lie!

"Mom, I want to kick again."

"No, Mrs. Li..."

Mrs. Li was embarrassed, Xiao Pang Dun sat on the ground, Zhao Qingyi had to give in, so Xiao Pang Dun kicked, kicked two, three kicks, until the tenth ball, finally the ball hit the badass doctor's ass, he was happy Jumping and jumping.

Xiao Pangdun was proud of Zhao Qingyi's aggrieved expression.

Zhao Qingyi saw that he still had the energy to exercise again, and used acrobatic skills. A ball in her hand could make flowers, and Xiao Pang Dun was attracted all of a sudden.

Zhao Qingyi taught him a few simple postures, but to practice, Xiao Pangdun really started to practice. This exercise regulates righteous qi, discharges accumulated dampness and can relieve puffiness, and is also good for the operation of the five internal organs.

Almost half of the day at work was spent on Xiao Pangdun, and he finally returned to the office at five o'clock, sweating all over.

Xiao Wang also took the medicine and just took a rest. He saw her and said, "You have played with that Li Tianyou for most of the day."

Zhao Qingyi drank tea and said, "Tomorrow you will play with him and I will grab the medicine in the pharmacy."

Xiao Wang waved his hand and said, "I can't wait."

Zhao Qingyi smiled and said: "People are a big tyrant, why are you so incomprehensible?"

Xiao Wang sighed: "I still practice for a few more years. By the way, Qing Yi, who are you from? If there is a nationally recognized teacher, you can verify this year instead of waiting for the next year."

Zhao Qingyi is an expert, others don't know, how can Xiao Wang be unclear?

"Speaking of which is J South University. Our school is very good. Our clinical medicine majors are ranked in the forefront of domestic medical schools. It is the only one in China that can take the global medical license. I will pass it next year. "

Xiao Wang murmured: "It's not that I don't know the students from your school, how can they be so good."

Dr. Chen came back after a short meeting, and Zhao Qingyi said, "Master, I will take a shift tomorrow, and you and Brother Wang will have to work harder."

Physician Chen couldn't help sighing, if the Li family hadn't been polite to him, he wouldn't want to wait on such an insignificant phoenix egg.