About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple

"what about now?"

Raku Sakakihara, who was straddling him, stared straight at her beautiful face and her calm eyes as clear as the blue sky.

July?

wrong.

July shouldn't be here.

If July is here, it means that the one who flew with him has always been July.

It was also July when I came to the UK and said I wanted to visit Maple Leaf Avenue, take care of myself, and accompany myself to sightseeing spots in London.

The fundamental problem is not her appearance, but all the behavior of Tianhai Jiuliuli during this day!

If Qi Qi could even imitate these things so that he could not see the flaws, then it would be——

"too exaggerated?"

Amami Kuruuri seemed to see through Sakakibara Raku's thoughts through his eyes. She stretched out her hands and placed them on both sides of his head. She leaned over and looked directly at him, still maintaining her unwavering expression. "Brother, did you forget so quickly? Or is it because you have a bad memory to begin with? I remember me." You said it before, if I seriously pretend to be my sister, even my father won’t be able to tell the difference between us.”

"." Sakakihara did not take the initiative to speak, but just looked back into her eyes.

I actually said this in July, a long time ago.

"That being said, how can I be sure it's not Liuli who is pretending to be Qiyue?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli smiled again, "Lejun is a little smarter and started to use my words to question me. Well, indeed, if something cannot be judged, asking the person who asked the question is also a way. Yes, maybe I am Liuli, and I am deliberately testing Lejun whether you recognize me."

Sakakihara Raku was a little confused.

She spoke in Liuli's tone, but the content was what only Liuli could say to herself.

Just like the interaction she had with him at the hotel door just now.

"I still don't believe you are July."

"Don't believe it? Lejun, what's the basis? Facts always need some basis, right~"

“Actions, words, tone of voice, micro-expressions.”

"Lejun, these can actually be disguised." Tianhai Jiuliuli replied, deliberately lowering his voice and dodging his eyes, "Why doesn't Lejun accept the reality?"

Sakakihara closed his eyes and admitted that he couldn't tell whether the person in front of him was Ruri or Qiyue.

If he had been at the hotel door just now, he would have immediately identified it as Liuli. That kind of shy, timid, a little angry, but not really angry character cannot be faked. If Qi Qi can really disguise it, Sakakibara Raku can only admit that this is the brilliance of their twins.

However, it is not without methods of falsification.

Sakakibara turned over hard and pressed Tianhai Jiureli onto the hotel bed.

Her head was resting on the pillow, her hands were released outwards, facing upwards, and her two pairs of white thighs, wearing only a pair of shorts, were tightly closed inwards.

Her expression at this time was the same faceless look she usually had in July.

The tone was also cold and cold.

"Are you angry? Are you going to use violence against me?"

"I think you are thinking too much."

Sakakihara stared straight into her eyes, put his hand on her waist, and then lifted up the thin pajamas she was wearing to look at it. He saw——

The white belly is pure and white.

really.

It's July.

Sakakihara turned his eyes back at once, leaned over, and faced each other. He couldn't help but increase the strength of his hands to suppress her. He frowned and asked:

"When? Where's Scar?"

"Tear it off after taking a shower. It's uncomfortable to wear."

"."

"Why, you don't welcome me? I don't know who wanted to take care of me just now, and kept saying nice things to me."

"Obviously, very unwelcoming."

Tianhai Qiming ignored his answer. Even though he was pressed under him, he still had that expressionless face, "You talk with a straight face and you still work so hard. Aren't you tired?"

Sakakihara Raku only found it funny, "Compared with this, some people told Liuli that they would treat me like nothing in this life, but they still pursued me all the way to England and engaged in such a thing as lying to others."

Tianhai Qimingyue: "Do you think I want to come? If my sister hadn't been begging me, I could even hand over the matter of you accompanying her in England. Do you think I am willing to see you again? It's useless to listen to you talk so much if?"

Good. Good. Good.

After hearing this, Sakakihara Raku was 100% sure that she was July.

Sakakihara Raku found it unbelievable that Ruri could say those words at the door of the hotel. Ruri who said those words that he couldn't bear could actually be Qiyue in disguise.

"Do you feel uncomfortable being deceived? Do you feel that those words that were obviously the pillar of your heart suddenly collapsed and your heart is blocked? Brother, can't you understand this emotion?"

"Ah."

Sakakihara felt even more ridiculous, and did not avoid her gaze at all. He suppressed her hands with much more force, "I don't know who found my heart-to-heart words annoying. Since you don't agree, why bother letting me do it at this time?" Will I sympathize with you again?"

"Have I ever denied your idea of ​​comparing one's heart to another's? I have always only asked you to have less contact with more people and to use less of your overflowing compassion."

"I didn't? Did I have casual contact with other people?"

"Isn't it Zhixue?"

"Zhiyuki is in the same situation as you! July!" Sakakibara raised his voice slightly.

"What's the same? You want to accept more women. As your girlfriend, shouldn't I supervise you and ask you to make corrections?"

Sakakibara regained his composure, let go of her suppressed hands, and closed his eyes in front of her, "Sure enough, Qiyue, you still haven't realized what I said about you and Zhixue's similarities. What part of me as a human being are you denying?"

"Is it wrong to ask you to restrain yourself?"

"That's right. In my previous answer, I also admitted my mistake."

"Then why don't you correct it? Why do you still want to recruit Zhixue to your side?"

"I don't want to repeat it again, July. The thing is very simple. Zhixue still needs me, and no one has ever been willing to give her the right guidance. Just like no one has ever really cared about you, and I still want to respond to you, The essence is the same.”

"You know that Zhixue won't meet someone who can give her the right guidance?"

Sakakibara found it funny and left her, sitting on the edge of the bed with his back to her, "Then Qiyue, why did you bother to worry about me in the first place? It's not impossible that there will be someone who treats you well in the future. Why do you still have to You want to pester me after I've rejected you countless times? Force, threaten, beg. Why can't you just be Liuli's sister? Why do you still come to me and want me to be responsible for your feelings? "

The quarrels and arguments are endless, and neither of them can convince the other with a single word.

Even Sakakihara Raku himself realized that he was settling old scores with Qiyue, bringing up past mistakes again and again, blaming the other party, and trying to completely refute the opponent in terms of "correctness".

By the end of the argument, Sakakihara's head was pounding, and he stretched out his hand to hold his head.

Try your best to suppress the depression in your heart. Full of exhaustion.

"That's enough. That's enough July. I don't want to argue with you anymore."

"Admit defeat?"

Sakakibara looked at her face again. No matter whether it was her or himself, there was no expression on it.

".In July, my life is already tiring enough."

"What, do you mean you don't want to be responsible?"

"How do you see that I don't want to be responsible? It's because we can't get along now, I can't be responsible, our life concepts are no longer compatible, and you can't agree with my current behavior. I'm tired of dealing with your rejections again and again. Tired. That’s normal, isn’t it?”

"."

Amami Nanami didn't speak at this time. She noticed that Sakakibara Raku's back suddenly seemed to have aged more than ten years, full of fatigue.

"Tell me why you came to me."

"I said it because my sister begged me. She wanted me to go and listen to you."

".So what if you listen now?"

"nothing."

"Yeah, it's nothing." Sakakibara stood up, went to the sofa, picked up his clothes, put them on, and put his coat on his shoulders, "In the end, you were just forced to come here to meet me by Ruri. What would you want to see?" My reason?”

Sakakibara pulled his jacket over his chest and glanced back at Amami Nanamigetsu who was sitting on the bed.

"Just like what I just said. If you want to say that I am wrong, how can I not be wrong? Of course I know that I have made a mistake. What really makes me angry is always that you choose to deny me. July, you Do you understand? When you believe with all your heart that there is someone who understands you, supports you, and encourages you to move forward. But in the end, this person denies you, how you feel. That day I knew what Liuli heard her aunt say. That’s my mood.”

Tianhai Qimingyue saw him zipping up his coat and taking away his mobile phone and wallet, and asked, "Why did you say those words to me that day?"

Sakakihara was silent for three seconds inexplicably. He walked at the door of the hotel bedroom without looking at her. He smiled and said, "What else could it be? It's just because you denied me and I hate you."

Sakakihara Raku left alone.

Walking alone on the streets of a foreign country, meeting unfamiliar people, walking on an unfamiliar road, and looking at the unfamiliar bricks and tiles under my feet.

Sometimes he looked up at the black sky, and sometimes he looked sideways at the citizens and tourists walking in front of Starbucks.

He kicked the Coke cans everywhere under his feet and felt that the Japanese on YouTube who said that British streets were all neat and beautiful were all lies.

This world is the same everywhere, there are good and bad everywhere.

Just like Qi Qiu, who had just quarreled with him, there are good and bad things.

You are all hiding under the "good" skin, useless disadvantages, right?

Even the words I heard today were all made by Qi Qi disguised as Liuli to deceive herself.

While walking, Sakakihara came to the bank of the Thames River. Next to the upper left is the iconic British building - the Clock Tower, also called the Elizabeth Tower.

He squatted on the shore, not looking at the bell tower of the civilized world, but quietly staring at the featureless water of the Thames.

After waiting quietly for a long time, I suddenly wanted to find someone to chat with, so I contacted A Ling.

I made an international call but was hung up before I could answer it.

Probably, she is still busy.

I found Zhixue's phone number again, but she never got through.

Judging by the time, it was probably that she had just left home not long ago and was playing basketball in the park next to the apartment.

There are actually a lot of people playing golf there during the day. Two days before she left, Sakakibara had already seen her start to learn to play ball with strangers.

Sakakihara wanted to find Liuli. Then he remembered that Liuli's mobile phone was in Qiyue's hands.

I turned around to look for Qiyue's account, but found that Qiyue had already deleted her contact information.

"Everyone, isn't this great?"

After a moment of silence, Sakakihara burst out laughing on the river bank.

Ah Ling took the initiative to hang up the phone, indicating that she was busy with her career.

Zhixue didn't answer the phone, which meant that she also had someone who could accompany her to play.

The fact that Liuli didn't come to England with him meant that she could be independent long ago and didn't care about the agreement she made with him, so she gave the chance until July.

July?

Not to mention!

She had a lively quarrel with herself just now. She has been busy with her company and living her own life a while ago. She is so good that she has become independent a long time ago!

What do you need to worry about?

Mom, I'm traveling around the world with my uncle.

Hmm. Very good. Everything is very good.

Sakakibara smiled, lowered his head, and relied on the weak street lamp beside him to see his own reflection undulating in the river.

He stared at his face, which gradually became calmer, until it became completely calm. It was as if he saw another shadow.

A face that I should have forgotten long ago.

A face that no one remembers from a previous life.

Sakakihara Raku was completely silent.

What is this life to me?

In my previous life, I was used to being alone. No matter what I did, I would sing to myself, encourage myself, and tell myself that I just need to work hard.

If you work hard, you will definitely win the game. However, the fact is that no one cares about how hard you have worked. Everyone and the audience only care about the results.

Negative emotions are constantly conveyed to me on the Internet and in reality. I can bear all these voices, and I can also blame all my mistakes on my lack of hard work.

It is necessary to bear these negative emotions because of lack of strength.

It's fair to bear the insult because I didn't meet everyone's expectations of "definitely being the first" and won the first place in the competition.

These negative emotions can be tolerated.

But if you get used to this kind of emotion, you will inevitably long for it, fantasize, and imagine that someone different from everyone else suddenly appears in front of you, someone who is willing to give you infinite light, infinite care and warmth in times of suffering. To look forward to the little bits of light seen in the gloomy life.

Unfortunately, there was no such character in the previous life, and some of them just had boring endings of being shot to death by the river.

I can be sure that my parents, who have not been involved in my life for a long time, will not hold a funeral for my son who was born unexpectedly.

Well, it's quite miserable.

This life is good, I have a real family in this life, and I have a sister who can hold my legs and call me brother.

This kind of kindness and warmth that I had never experienced before made me swear when my father ran away. I had never met someone who was full of infinite light and warmth in my previous life, so I would be such a person to let my sister. Let my mother no longer feel the indifference she felt in her previous life.

I should focus on helping everyone and my family.

You have to start from an ordinary person and work hard and work hard again. Let the sister know that she still has her brother supporting her, and let the mother know that there is a son in the family who is working hard to live with everyone.

This mood and thought has continued until today.

And therefore, because of these thoughts, the people around him, including Qiyue, Liuli, Ling, and Zhixue, were all hurt by him.

Strictly speaking, we are not wrong. What is wrong is that we want a relationship that can be 100% responsible after being illuminated by the light.

Yes, everyone is right.

It's my fault that I can't devote 400% of my energy to taking good care of them and handling them harmoniously and harmoniously.

The fault lies with you.

Raku Sakakibara suddenly stood up in front of the Thames River. He took two breaths of the coolness of the night wind and silently stared at the turbulent cold river surface.

"That's it, do you want it to end?"

There was a sudden call, and Sakakibara knew who was standing behind him without having to think about it.

"What are you following me for?"

"I just wanted to see what you wanted to do. It seems like your guess was pretty good."

Sakakibara closed his eyes and responded calmly, "I thought I was going to jump into the river. You think of me as too fragile. In fact, it's not for this. I just want to leave and don't want to see you again."

"Tough talk."

"Oh, everyone has the right to say that about me, but you, who was squatting in front of Tokyo Bay back then, don't have the right to say that."

"Huh, I never thought about it that way."

Sakakibara turned his head and looked straight into the eyes of Amami Nanami, "Talking hard."

"well"

A sigh suddenly sounded behind Tianhai Qimingyue. Another girl with long flaxen hair, wearing the same white dress during the day, sighed and walked out. Her eyes swept over the two of them and said unhappily, " It's true that each one is tougher than the other. In Qiyue, wouldn't it be nice if you softened your attitude toward Lejun?"

Tianhai Qimingyue looked back at her sister, "Why? What I said was not wrong."

". Then it's not like you don't agree with what Lejun said in Qiuyue. Why are you so stubborn?"

Amami Kuruuri hung the hair that was blown away by the wind by the river behind her ears, looked at Sakakibara Raku in front, and tried to explain: "Raku-kun, too, why are you so stubborn? You still care about Qiyue so much."

Sakakihara Raku saw the two of them appearing together. Although he was confused, he didn't want to ask at the moment.

"I just hate her."

"I know, Lejun hates her the most."

Tianhai Jiuliuli suddenly pinched Tianhai Qimingyue's arm and motioned for her to step forward and speak for herself.

Although Tianhai Qimingyue looked very dissatisfied, after her sister glared at her, she still stepped forward extremely reluctantly.

"I - actually - very -"

"Oh, Qi Qi actually wants to ask Lejun a question. She doesn't want to admit it in her heart, and what Keke did is particularly in line with this mentality."

"." Tianhai Qimingyue looked very embarrassed.

Seeing that there was no movement from Sakakibara Raku, Amami Kuruuri had to take the initiative to speak again, clearing his throat and raising his voice:

"Lejun, actually Qi Qi was eager to come to the UK with me as soon as she heard me tell you about your current situation! It wasn't like I strongly asked her to come with me, but she lied to you again!"

Tianhai Qimingyue held her forehead awkwardly, "My sister is just talking nonsense. It's not like that at all. Besides, doesn't it mean that my sister has to drag me here? When I heard that I was coming to the UK with this guy, I was really angry. I didn’t want to talk to you, sister, at that time.”

".What? Isn't that what it is?"

"No, okay. Sister, you go down and I'll go on my own."

".I don't believe it. You guys are definitely going to quarrel again."

"I try not to talk about him."

"You said so in July, promise."

".ensure."

The two murmured for a long time, and Sakakihara Raku just waited without any emotion. It wasn't until Amami Nanami was pushed in front of her with great reluctance by her sister that the two of them looked face to face under the bell tower.