My Sister is a Big Star

At the end of 1993, in an underdeveloped small county town, Xu Yao carried the cloth bag sewed by his sister and walked in the messy alleys, flanked by old mottled houses and rusty water pipes. Every household There is a trash can at the door, exuding a faint smell.

  He and his sister live in a small alley, the location is poor, and the rent is not expensive. These days, in such a small county, there are very few people who come to work and rent houses in the city.

  Xu Yao came to his door, took out the key, and opened the door.

  A small house of only 30 square meters. The curtain was drawn to separate two rooms, one for each of the two brothers and sisters. My sister’s room has only one bed, and the clothes are kept in a box.

  Xu Yao’s "room" has an extra desk and a lamp. When I bought him a table lamp, my sister felt distressed for a long time, but she still bit her teeth to buy it.

  The rice is cooked in the corridor. It is simple and simple to cook with a small earthen stove, a pot, and raw coal. Better people have already bought a gas stove, but Xu Yao and her sister have no such conditions.

  Usually at this time, my sister should make a fire in the corridor to cook, and Xu Yao, who comes home from school, will make some handmade products. This is the extra private work my sister takes outside after get off work, and can earn a few dollars a day.

   "Sister?" Xu Yao shouted when she entered the room, but her sister was not in the room.

  It may be that she found some work outside. She often does this. She wanders around the county town every day, and then she can do all kinds of work, only the things that men can do to earn money.

  Xu Yao put down her schoolbag and saw a bag of unfinished handmade products beside her sister’s bed. She should have come back, have she gone out to buy food?

  He is in a good mood today, because of the test results in the school, he won the first place without a surprise.

  The teachers really like this plainly dressed student, hardworking, hardworking, and serious, saying that he is a good seedling who can enter the university.

   How simple the teacher was at that time, I can’t wait to dig my heart out of my students and meet a motivated reading seed that I like more than my son.

  At that time, the female classmates were also very innocent. They liked learning tyrants and motivated boys. Even if Xu Yao grew up very ordinary, there were many girls who gave him love letters privately.

  It is different from the later love letters. The love letters at this time are very subtle and restrained. First, write a modern poem by a certain celebrity. At the end, attach: What do you think of this poem. Then he handed it to the boy who liked it. If the boy is also interested in the girl, he would reply and secretly put it in her drawer the next day.

  One come and two, the story comes.

  The eighteen-year-old flower season, love is green, immature, but also beautiful. After this age, no matter how you fall in love, you can't find that feeling.

  Ke Xu Yao dismissed the hints and love letters to the girl, as if standing on a stone statue in a rain of flowers, watching the colorful petals fall, too lazy to reach out to pick up one of the beautiful petals.

  He does not have the capital to fall in love, nor is he interested. The rural baby only knows to bury his head in school and live up to his sister’s expectations.

  Furthermore, his lilac flower floated to the Shanghai stock market with the wind. He originally wanted to take the Fudan exam, but Lilac got married in the freshman year of high school.

   Married to a gangster in the Shanghai stock market.

   Xu Yao hasn't gotten back for a long time, and once heard about the Shanghai stock market, he wanted to hit someone.

  He is too silent, too low-key and too introverted. He always keeps the emotion of liking in his heart, but what is the value of not talking about the liking?

  On the day of the wedding, Xu Yao went, and the fare he took from his sister was very expensive, so expensive that he almost cried out.

  At the wedding, his lilac flower was very beautiful...No, it was not his lilac flower anymore. It's the flower of the man who is the teacher.

  Xiaolan was very happy to see him, happy from the heart, and gave Xu Yao some comfort.

  The girl I like, she weighs more and more money in my heart. Fortunately, I am not as light as a feather in her heart.

  The man looked at his newlyweds with a smile.

  The wife said: This is my brother in my hometown.

  Reality gave Xu Yao a heavy blow. At that time, he asked himself in his heart, is it just a brother...

  He felt a sudden pain in his heart, but he still didn't cry.

  But when I really cried, it was after the wedding banquet, that boy Xu Guang said: Is your sister-in-law's illness caused by your sister?

  Xu Yao cried, and then he beat the kid to tears.

  The time when Xu Guang was born is a bit earlier. If it is now, he will definitely comfort Xu Yao in other words, such as: A Rong does not cry and stands up.

  Xu Yao was sitting on the bed, making handicrafts, and thinking about it. My sister's hands were covered with frostbite and blood dripped in winter.

  Unconsciously, it was getting dark, and my sister still did not come back.

  Xu Yao decided to go downstairs and look for it. He closed the door and left the residential building. At the corner, he saw his sister and a man talking in the twilight. The two of them were holding hands, and the man's face could be vaguely seen.

   is a calm and serious young man. When he talks with his sister, his eyes are full of smiles.

  When Xu Yao saw him, the young man also saw Xu Yao. Xu felt that the young man's eyes emerging from the corner were too sharp, and he was taken aback.

  This stunned, my sister found out, and followed the youth's gaze, turning her head to look around.

  My sister's face changed slightly, she whispered a few words to the youth, and turned to meet Xu Yao.

  "Who is he?" Xu Yao asked.

  "Peng...friend, you helped me." Xu Ru briefly explained, without saying more, turning the topic off: "My sister came back late because of something, and Ah Rong is hungry."

  Xu Yao looked at the young man's back, walking farther and farther, disappearing into the night.

  Since then, Xu Yao has never seen a young man again, and her sister is no different, working as usual every day, with hard work.

  .......

  In 1994, two events happened this year, each of which caused this small family to face the disaster.

The first thing is that due to the bursting of the real estate bubble, an extremely terrifying economic crisis was set off. It is difficult for people who have not experienced that era to imagine how terrible that economic crisis was. It was an economy that collapsed directly, far better than any subsequent economic crisis. . In fact, it collapsed once as early as 90 years. In 1994, the two crises superimposed on each other and promoted and expanded each other.

boom!

  The bubble collapsed, and I don’t know how many people were killed.

  Although the crisis has been stabilized in a relatively short period of time, it has had a very large impact during this period of time.

  The aftermath of the small county town is not too great, but the life of the citizens has indeed suddenly become tight.

  As a result, Xu Ru started to lose money and made life unsustainable.

  The second thing, Xu Ru is pregnant.

  That day Xu Yao was still in the school, rushing into the sea of ​​questions, preparing to sprint for the college entrance examination.

  My sister asked someone to call the head teacher’s office and said that she was sick and hospitalized.

  Xu Yao rushed to the hospital and learned from the doctor that her sister was pregnant.

a bolt from the blue.

   "Don't work too hard, your body is important, go home and raise it." The doctor complained to Xu Yao, "You are her husband, why don't you know that you care..."

  The doctor hadn't lied yet, but the older sister who had recovered from the shock, interrupted embarrassingly: "He is my brother."

  Xu Yao developed relatively early. When his peers grew fluffy and excited about the thickening of the hair in the crotch, he looked like an adult, at least not like a high school student.

  The doctor was also embarrassed and asked: "Then your husband."

   was silent.

  Sister and brother were silent.

  Back home, it seemed that nothing happened. My sister was sitting by the bed doing handicrafts, and Xu Yao was sitting by the table writing test papers.

   "Pattern!"

  The ballpoint pen was pressed heavily on the tabletop, and the sound was not loud, but Xu Ru was taken aback, her hand visibly shook.

  Xu Yao stood up with a gloomy expression. He looked straight into his sister’s eyes and asked, “Who is that man.”

  Xu Ru did not speak, and Xu Yao did not speak. He stared at him and gradually became red.

   "Arong, don't worry about it..."

  "Is it that man? Is it that man." Xu Yao said loudly.

  Responding to him was the silence of his sister.

  All of a sudden, it seemed to light a barrel of explosives.

  "You have been lying in the hospital for so long and he hasn't come. Did you not contact him, or did he refuse to come?" Xu Yao grabbed her sister's hand and walked out the door: "Go call, contact him now."

  "I'm not going." My sister said.

Xu Yao was stunned, and it exploded in an instant. He yelled and said: "If you want to be shameless, we are poor, but we can't be without dignity. No matter how poor we are, we must know how to love ourselves. If a woman doesn't cherish herself, then she There is nothing left."

  "What do you do now, you are pregnant with a child, can you raise it? When you unfastened your belt, you thought about what you would do in the future, do you know if you want to marry, your life is ruined?"

  In the dimly lit room, the teenager was hysterical, his face flushed, and his eyes were crazy.

  That day, he said a lot of excessive things.

  Every sentence is like a knife, inserted in my sister's heart.

  Xu Yao is mad, he hates, hates that man, and hates his sister for not loving herself.

   Sister sitting on the edge of the bed, her head down, weeping.

  After all, she is a woman, a weak woman, life makes her stronger, even more desperate than a man in some aspects, but in front of her brother, she cry helplessly, lowering her head.

  Many years later, whenever he thinks of this scene, Xu Yao will tremble all over, and his body and mind will feel pain from the inside out.

"I remember every sentence very clearly, and every sentence is printed in my heart. I hate myself back then. I was too selfish. I never thought about her feelings. I never thought about how wronged and wrong she was at that time. Help, I long for someone to help her, just like a person in the mud, longing for someone to extend a helping hand, but my brother stepped her down with a hard kick." Xu Yao wept bitterly.

   Lost his father at the age of two, and his mother at the age of four.

  My sister took pains to raise him up, a teenage girl, with a rough cocoon on her hand, looks like a man who has worked for many years.

  My sister worked hard to help him study. Every breakfast is porridge with three steamed buns. Why do you want three steamed buns? That is for lunch. Steamed buns with pickles, she has eaten for many years.

  Since she was a child, she refused to give him away. When she grew up, she had nowhere to be unmarried. She left all the time to her younger brother and all her hopes to her younger brother.

  Ke brother did not consider her.

  Qin Ze looked at this man silently. At this moment, he stripped off all his coat, successful, serious, and beautiful...

  He squatted in front of his sister's grave, like a broken child, crying like a fool.

  The reason regret is regret, because it is destined to be irreparable.

  You are crying and crying, you hate yourself at the beginning, and you can’t wait to go back in time to make up for the mistakes of the past, but life will never give you a second chance.

  So, you desperately want to recognize my nephew.

  Want to make up for your own fault, want to appease the pain that is hidden in your heart, day after day?

   "What happened later?" Qin Ze asked with a hoarse voice.