My Sister is a Big Star

  "She didn’t say that, she seemed to have expectations of that man, but in fact she didn’t have confidence in herself. Don’t blame your sister, she was suffering enough. She has been suffering since she was a child, and she hasn’t had a good life for a few days."

  The next day, Xu Yao came to Xu Lan, she said so.

  However, he could not fully understand his sister at the time, he was more hate, hate that iron cannot become steel.

  My sister’s life is ruined.

  At noon, Song Jiaxuan knocked on the courtyard door with two fishes. He stood in the courtyard and said to Xu Ru, who had a big belly, "Is A Rong there? He asked me to touch the fish, saying that he would help you."

   "Thank you, he and A Guang are out." Xu Ru said.

   "What thanks, fifty cents." Song Jiao grinned.

   "..." Xu Ru was taken aback and nodded: "I'll get you money."

   "Don't, it's not convenient for you. I'll ask Ah Rong for it when he comes back."

  Speaking, Song Jiao deliberately scooped a basin of water in the basin and raised the half-dead fish in it.

  This man is idle and doesn't like to work in the ground. He is very good at fishing and hunting. He is also the only one who does not "comment" Xu Ru. He is probably a bad guy himself, and he is not qualified to talk about him. Maybe it was because he was not interested in chewing his tongue, or he was afraid that Xu Yao would beat him.

  The day of labor is coming soon.

Mr. Xu Ru’s did not go to the county hospital. At that time, he had no conditions to go to the hospital. In rural areas, he was usually born at a village doctor. He was slightly better than a barefoot doctor. He had studied medicine for several years, but his level was definitely very poor, otherwise he wouldn’t. In the countryside, he went to the hospital instead.

  Xujia Town is too poor and there is no sanitation center. There is a sanitation center in the town next door.

  From noon, the amniotic fluid broke, and the pain began, until ten o'clock in the evening, the child was born.

boy.

  The dust settled.

  Being a mother for the first time in her life, Xu Ru has thrown away all the troubles, only the love of her mother is left.

  Xu Yao felt that he should have hated this child, but when he saw the tender red child sleeping in the baby, he couldn't open the world to see the world, holding his small fist, he fell asleep quietly.

  He suddenly felt relieved.

  Due to malnutrition, the child was born only 2.4 kg, which is medium to small.

   "How cute is the little doll, did you name him?"

  Xu Lan, who had a big belly, watched from the side with a smile on her face.

  Xu Ru shook his head, and said helplessly: "A Rong refused to help, he still has a sting in his heart."

  Xu Lan sighed: "Don't pay attention to him, I have prepared a few names here, do you want to choose one?"

"what name?"

  "Qin Hao, Qin Xiaofan...you can pick one and change the last name to Xu." Xu Lan said cheerfully, "Xu Xiaofan is not very nice, so let's call it Xu Hao."

  Xu Ru nodded and smiled: "Okay."

   "By the way, I brought milk powder. You use it first. When I give birth, I give more milk, so I shouldn't lack it." Xu Lan said.

  Due to Xu Ru's severe bone loss and chronic malnutrition, there is no milk. It was related to her son's rations, and she did not refuse it after all.

  A very real and serious problem lies in front of us. The two brothers and sisters who have depended on each other since childhood are still dependent on each other and have one more life.

  In the case of postpartum weakness of her sister who independently carried the beam, life seemed unsustainable.

  It is not easy to raise children. Later statistics show that more than 40 million children died in the 1990s.

   That night, Xu Ru looked at the child and was silent.

  The next morning, she called Xu Yao to the room alone and asked him: "Do you miss university."

  Xu Yao was speechless, his eyes fell on the baby's face.

   In his sleep, the little baby suddenly trembled, and the faint mosquito hummed a few times.

  Xu Ru is busy comforting the child.

  "Don't worry about him, say, do you want to." Xu Ru said.

   "Yes!" Xu Yao said.

  He thought, like never before.

  Reading can change destiny, and it can also restore dignity.

  He is eager to get ahead, to escape poverty, and to regain the dignity lost by his sister.

  Xu Ru nodded.

  Just a few days later, one night, Xu Ru was suddenly awakened by an urgent knock on the door, and the baby cried.

   "A Rong, Sister Ru," Xu Guang said in a crying voice, "My sister fell."

   Vigorously knocking on the door.

   Xu Ru sat up in surprise, her sleepiness disappeared, and she didn't wait for her to call someone. Xu Yao from the next room had already rushed into the courtyard and opened the door. There was Xu Guang with anxious face standing at the door.

"what happened."

   "My sister slipped to the toilet at night, she, she was all blood..."

  Xu Ru heard it, her face was pale, unable to comfort the child, and shouted: "A Rong, A Rong..."

  No one answered her, Xu Yao has already taken Xu Guang out of the house.

  .......

  At five o'clock in the morning the next day, Xu Ru, who hadn't slept all night, finally waited until his brother came back.

"We took her to the health clinic. Xiaolan was already unconscious and could not give birth. She said there was no way. The fetus might be injured. Let us take her to the hospital. The car from the health clinic took us to the county and the hospital. She was given a C-section. The baby was alive when she first came out, but he couldn't survive for two hours. The doctor didn't save it and went..." Xu Yao's eyes were bloodshot.

   "Where is Xiaolan?" Xu Ru cried.

   "She hasn't woken up yet. A Guang is in the hospital, squatting outside the ward and crying." Xu Yao covered her face and tremblingly said, "A good kid, if you don't, you will be gone."

After a while, Xu Ru said: "Arong, let's go to the county seat, now."

  It was six o'clock in the morning when I arrived at the hospital. There were no people in the hospital. The air was filled with the smell of disinfectant. On the benches in the corridor, one or two patients could be seen scattered with drips.

  The night shift nurse looked tired.

  In the small ward, Xu Ru saw Xu Lan. She was already awake, looking at the ceiling with wide eyes, like a lifeless paper flower.

  Xu Guang, with red eyes, sat on the edge of the hospital bed.

   "A Rong, A Guang, you go out for a while, I have something to say to Xiaolan." Xu Ru said, holding the baby in her arms.

  After the two left, she sat on the side of the bed and whispered: "The child is gone."

   A word, as if to awaken Xu Lan, who was on the verge of despair, her expressionless face, her eyelashes trembled, and then she began to cry, heartbroken, a mother who had lost her child.

"There are no obstacles that can't be passed." Xu Ru said: "For so many years, it is only by these words that my sister can survive until now. Every time I am desperate, I will think about A Rong, and there will be hope in my heart. Yes. You still have a baby, you can't collapse."

   "A Guang said he is a son." Xu Lan said softly.

  There is a strange silence in her expression.

   "I gave birth to a baby in my first birth, a girl. Although he didn't say anything, I knew he wanted a son."

   "I thought, since I married to the Qin family, I should give him someone who can pass down the line."

"The child is gone, now the investigation is so strict...My dad doesn’t want me to have another child, so I quarreled with my parents. A person like him, without this child, even if he wants a son again , It won't let me regenerate."

  "A Guang said he was a son...he has always wanted a son...I can't lose this child, I can't lose his...ohhhhh, my boy."

  At first, she was able to speak steadily, and gradually became emotional. Xu Lan cried and twitched, speaking incoherently.

   Xu Ru put the baby in her arms next to her, and said in a deep voice, "He will be your son in the future."

  She speaks very softly, the expression on her face is very complicated, reluctance and pain are entangled.

  Xu Lan stopped crying and looked at her without saying a word.

  "He is your son." Xu Ru repeated.

   "Are you comforting me?"

   "No, I'm serious." Xu Ru said.

"Why?"

"A Rong said that he missed university, and I couldn't afford him to study, let alone raise this child. Just me, such a notorious woman, who can I marry?" Xu Ru smiled sadly: "The child and A Rong are me. I can’t bear the fate of both of them at the same time. I have to abandon one of them.”

Xu Ru trembling fingertips, stroking the child's cheek: "Perhaps in your eyes, the birth of this child was a mistake, then between the two, I choose Arong. My mistakes, I will bear, and everything in the future The pain and all regrets are borne by me alone. At least I am right about my parents."

"You are right, a child can't live without a father, Xiaolan, you can give him a better family and a better growth environment. He can grow up carefree, and he doesn't have to worry about being scolded by others when he grows up. ."

   "Your husband wants a son. You can imagine how sad he will be when he learns about this bad news. You are also afraid that because of this incident, will you become the heart of your husband and wife?"

  Xu Ru burst into tears: "Xiaolan, just treat it as we rescue each other."

  Xu Lan stretched out her hand, trying to touch the child, but at the moment she touched it, she retracted her hand like an electric shock.

She froze for a while, "Sister Ru, from today onwards, this child is mine and has nothing to do with your family. I will raise him up, give him the best environment, and raise him as a son. You and A Rong, I can't go back in the future."

   "Okay." Xu Ru said.

  Speaking this word, she collapsed all at once.

  "What do I need to do for you?"

  "...He will grow up in the future, and take him to Xujiazhen to see me every summer vacation."

"good."

  Outside the door, two teenagers stood there.

  "Why are you two standing at the door." The doctor in a white coat walked to the door of the ward.

  Both boys burst into tears, and the doctor was not surprised.

He pushed the door in, glanced at the ward, holding a pile of reports in his hand: "You came last night, the doctor last night was off work, I am in charge of your ward. Sorry, let me re-register here. What is your name."

  Xu Lan opened her mouth.

  Xu Ru said: "Xu Ru!"

   "Xu Ru, right." The doctor wrote a few notes, "After a while, I will ask the nurse to take you for an examination. After a miscarriage, you should pay more attention to your body, otherwise the root cause of the disease will fall."

  .......

   Soon, rumors spread in Xujiazhen.

  Xu Ru’s child died, and the wild species who was pregnant outside was fateful. Xu Lan, who came to Xujiazhen to raise her baby, gave birth to a fat boy after convalescent in the hospital for a month.

  Later, Xu Ru married, and married the man who had never "commented" on himself, a man who was idle and not doing business.

  A woman who is unmarried and pregnant, a lazy man who is delicious.

   Very good match, isn’t it?

  The time goes back many days ago, when Xu Yao said that he wanted to go to university the next day, Song Jiaxuan sent fish again.

   "A Rong let you send fish again?" Xu Ru said in embarrassment, "Excuse me, the money at home is running out."

  Sitting and eating mountains and sky for so long, there is really no money.

   "No money, just two fish from the folks in the village." Song relay said: "You are pregnant, you have to make up your body....... Anyway, we have known each other since childhood."

  Xu Ru was stunned, hesitated, hesitated, "Do you have a partner now."

   "Who wants to marry me." Song Jiao scratched his head.

   "Then do you have a wife book."

  It’s a little strange to ask what this is doing. Song relay said: “Don’t think I like gambling, but whether it’s winning or losing, I save a little money, save it, and my wife will have it.”

   "Then will you marry me."

   "I don't want to raise a son for anyone."

   "Don't worry, I will give away the child."

"real?"

   "But you want to help me with A Rong's study."

  .........

  For Xu Ru, instead of giving it to others, it is the best ending to give to his girlfriends who grew up.

  Song relay is also considered trustworthy, and weak men have the advantage of weakness.

  The day Xu Lan left, Xu Yao stood outside the town, watching the bus go away.

  He never smoked, so he squatted on the side of the road and smoked a whole pack of cigarettes.

   Later, Xu Yao got his wish and went to university, and got his wish.

  But his sister lost money, and he won’t be able to pay it back all his life.

  He regretted that morning countless times, regretting himself and said: Yes!

  In the following years, he rarely set foot in Xujiazhen. He married Miss Qianjin in Wencheng and settled in Wencheng.

  People in Xujiazhen said that the grass chicken flew onto the branch and became a golden phoenix. He had forgotten his origin. In fact, he was afraid of facing his sister.

  Each time he faced his sister's increasingly old face, he would think of that unbearable past.

"The day she passed away, she said so many things to me, saying that she did not disappoint her parents and that I was finally able to stand out. But I know what she wants to say most is the word "Aze". We have been trying to change our destiny all our lives. Work hard, but I can't change the past in my life."

  Xu Yao sat in front of the grave, an expensive suit covered with dust.

  "After my sister died, the biggest obsession in my life is not to get ahead, but to bring you here one day, point to this monument, and say to you: She is your biological mother."

  "This was her biggest wish before she died. She didn't say it, but I know. It is because of me that I have separated you from mother and child for more than 20 years. Everything is my fault and my responsibility."

  This is the biggest pain in his life.

  So he went mad as if he asked Qin Ze to "recognize his ancestors and return to the clan", trying to make up for his mistakes in the past.

  I want to make my conscience better.

   "But we promised Xiaolan that we can't mention it again in this life. As long as she disagrees, I won't take the initiative to say it."

  Qin Ze said a little bit: "That is to say, my dad...I don't know about it."

   "This is not important." Xu Yao said.

"Aze, you must never tell your dad the truth. If you concealed it from him back then, maybe it was your mother's fault, but you can only keep concealing this kind of thing. The longer it takes, the less you can say it." Xu Guang nearly The sound of pleading.

  This is very important, very important.

  Qin Zexin said.

  He had read the old man’s diary, and he knew a little bit in his heart, but he even hoped that the old man knew about it, but he rotted the matter in his stomach and pretended that he had a son.

  You think, any man knows that a son who has raised a son for more than 20 years is not his own.

  The mentality has exploded.

  The situation will get out of control then, what should mom do?

  What should I do with my sister?

   "Sorry, I don't know who your biological father is." Xu Yao said in frustration.

   "It doesn't matter, just treat him as dead." Qin Ze's tone was flat.

  I only have one father, his name is Qin Jianzhang.

   "And Zhilong..."

"What does it have to do with me?" Qin Ze interrupted him: "I have no brothers, only sisters. I can accept what happened back then and face my biological mother calmly, or face your uncle calmly, but only That's it, I have my life, I have my family. There is no need to cut off contact, but I hope you will not take the initiative to disturb my life in the future, especially not to show up in front of my mother."

  Xu Yao nodded.

  Wept bitterly, and untied the knots he had had for many years, and his whole person was much more relaxed.

   "Can you call her mother?" Xu Yao said in anticipation.

  Qin Ze was stunned, staring at the tombstone.

   opened his mouth, a very simple word, but it came out no matter what.

  .......

  High-speed rail bound for Shanghai Stock Exchange.

  Su Yu nestled in Qin Ze's arms. A woman was always emotional. After she shed a few catties of tears for the biological mother of her beloved, Su Yu became sluggish, and she did not relax for a while.

  Qin Ze was rather calm.

  "Do you feel too indifferent?" Qin Ze ran through her hair with fingertips.

  Su Yu wanted to shake his head, but finally nodded.

"Sorrow does not necessarily have to be expressed. The past has all passed, and those who left will never come back. You can't change anything." Qin Ze sighed, "If she is still alive, I will treat her better, but As they agreed, I will always have only one mother."

  Benevolence is not as good as nurturing.

   "You don't want to know who your biological father is?"

  "Do you think I should go to him?"

  Su Yu thought for a while, shook his head, and said entangled: "I shouldn't look for it, but I just can't help but think about it."

"Yes? Why do you want to think, maybe he is still in that small county, living a mediocre half of his life, maybe he will feel that he had an illegitimate child back then. But what does it have to do with me? The world is so big, I can still go Can't find it."

   "I have said it, just treat him as dead."

  Why are you looking for him, come and cry, and recognize each other?

  I'm still afraid that he will stick to me like a dogskin plaster, so I'm a tens of billions of billionaires.

  Unfortunate to make trouble at my home?

  2018, September is midsummer.

  Qin Ze, who finally learned of his life experience, was finally able to face his life more calmly.