The Reluctant Bride

Perhaps when she read the diary, Li Lan had already liked Gu Xuewu. The one who had not appeared before her, only existed in the illusion.

Later, she approached again and again, tried again and again. I wanted to see if she could defeat Zhou Ying in Gu Xuewu's heart. But she lost.

As long as Gu Xuewu was not confused by her appearance, she knew that she had lost because she was not starting from Zhou Ying.

Gu Xuewu's love for Zhou Ying has become so deep that she cannot shake it. Even if she looks the same as Zhou Ying, Gu Xuewu would not look at her more, so she had already planned to give up because she had already looked at Gu Xuewu for Zhou Ying more than once.

And most importantly, Gu Xuewu also has Zhou Ying in his heart. In this way, Zhou Ying is happy.

But when she knew that Gu Xuewu was with Qiao Xinwan, she suddenly felt uncomfortable.

If Gu Xuewu can share happiness with Qiao Xinwan for nothing. So what is Zhou Ying's suffering? What is Zhou Ying's injury? Watch a lesson.

When she saw Gu Xuewu buying flowers for another woman, especially Qiao Xinwan, on Zhou Ying's birthday, she finally couldn't help it. She wants to tell Gu Xuewu about Zhou Ying.

She wanted to let Gu Xuewu know what Zhou Ying had done for him. She didn't believe that after Gu Xuewu knew all this, she would stay with Qiao Xinwan.

"Gu Xuewu." Li Lan bit his lips desperately, with a bit of resentment in his voice: "I won't appear in front of you again in the future. I will give you everything Zhou Ying. What kind of decision do you have to make? , What kind of life you want to live, it has nothing to do with me from today."

Looking deeply at Zhou Ying on the tombstone, Li Lan leaned back: "Sister, I'm leaving. I'm sorry, please forgive me for being wayward this last time."

Yes, she is wayward. She fell in love with Gu Xuewu, from the illusory person who appeared in the diary to Gu Xuewu who really appeared in front of her in the back.

She wants to get close, wants to get close, wants to see if she can have such an opportunity. However, she did not. Gu Xuewu would not love her. Because she is not Zhou Ying.

She can't silently love someone without asking for anything in return. And Gu Xuewu could never respond to her.

She was wrong. Today, she is not sure if she has done something wrong again. But at this time, it doesn't matter whether it is right or wrong.

The secret that he had been guarding was spoken out, the burden he had been carrying was put down, and Li Lan relaxed. Looking at Gu Xuewu, in the future, there is really no intersection with this man.

Turn around and leave calmly.

Gu Xuewu sat there, looking at the extra iron box in his hand. No action for a long time. Zhou Ying is dead, cancer?

How could she have cancer at such a young age? Gu Xuewu couldn't believe it, looking at the box in his hand, he only felt heavy.

The sun rises higher and shines on people, it is very warm.

Gu Xuewu gently opened the iron box, containing a mobile phone chain, a leaf that had dried up, and a brooch with a smiling face. There is also a diary.

When he saw a leaf, he was completely stunned, stretched out his hand blankly, and picked up the leaf. The leaves are already dry, with yellow veins and clear textures.

The first time two people had a date flashed in their minds. On a mountain in that small county, they saw a linden tree.

He didn't care about those vegetation. But Zhou Ying was different. She liked the Bodhi tree and the heart-shaped leaves. She stretched out her hand to pluck a piece and looked at Gu Xuewu.

"This, I want to stay as a souvenir."

"It's just a leaf, what's to commemorate?"

"This is not an ordinary leaf." Zhou Ying tilted her head slightly and looked at Gu Xuewu: "This commemorates our first date. Of course we have to keep it."

She took the leaves back like a baby. He thought she was just a joke, but he didn't want it to be true.

And the brooch with the smiling face. Once, when he went out on a date with Zhou Ying, he drove to a neighboring county, where no one knew them. On the streets of the county seat, there was a man on the side of the road filled with words asking for help. Talk about how difficult the family is, how you need help, and how the person came up with this solution.

Set up a small stall. Then sell some accessories. He mostly maintained a deceptive attitude towards those asking for help, and left when he saw it. But Zhou Ying is different. .

She wanted to help that person. Seeing that he was going to take her away, she had to pull back in his footsteps, and asked him to give her something with a smile on her face.

After choosing the things on the small stall for a long time, she finally chose this brooch. The brooch was a hundred yuan, which seemed to him to be very cheap, but she was as happy as getting a world.

"A smiling face, I face every day, and I smile every day, you see that I am happy, will you also be happy with me?"

The memories that have been forgotten in his heart, because of seeing something familiar, Gu Xuewu's eyes are a little hot. Putting down the things in his hand, finally reached out and picked up the diary.

The diary has already turned yellow, and when the cover is opened, it is Zhou Yingjuan's handwriting.

Her words are the same as hers, serious and meticulous. The first few pages are some of her views on teaching when she joined the work. Seeing the beginning in the middle, the content is different.

There is him on it. From the first time, he gave her awards, awards, and start.

She wrote: My heart beats so hard, I never knew that the county magistrate could be so young and handsome. Is it love at first sight? However, he is a county magistrate.

The following content, bit by bit, recorded how they were together, how they fell in love, and how they dated. When she is with herself, Zhou Ying is undoubtedly happy.

Gu Xuewu felt the happiness too. Because he admitted that he was also very relaxed and happy during the more than a year with Zhou Ying. There is a sense of happiness.

All her feelings are written in that diary. Gu Xuewu watched slowly, and those clips were also his memories. It's just a different angle.

He naturally knew that Zhou Ying loved herself. But he didn't know, she loved him so much...

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Qiao Xinwan took Belle outside to bask in the sun for a long time, until Belle's face was red, she pushed Belle into the door.

Aunt Zhou took Belle and went to drink porridge. Belle is getting bigger and bigger, and now he can drink porridge and eat some solid food.

After eating, I slept again in the afternoon. When I woke up, Gu Xuewu actually came.

She checked the time, she should still be at work now: "Why is it so early today? Is there nothing wrong with the unit?"

Gu Xuewu sat on the side of the bed and looked at her with a very gloomy expression. Qiao Xinwan was horrified by his face and didn't know what to say for a while. Today's Gu Xuewu is really wrong. Very different.

"Xuewu? You, what's wrong with you?"

Gu Xuewu looked at Qiao Xinwan, who had just woke up, wearing a silk pajamas, the front of the pajamas slipped a little, a bit messy. Long hair is draped randomly behind his head, full of temptation and confusion.

She propped up her body with one hand, and leaned toward herself with the other. That look, like a rose that just bloomed, is full of charm.

Qiao Xinwan is beautiful, and he has always admitted it. But he should know that no matter how beautiful a rose is, it has thorns.

Feeling her hand touching his cheek, he reached out and held her hand, watching the shyness flashing across Qiao Xinwan's face, he closed his eyes, and when he opened it again, there was no trace of emotion in it.

"Why didn't you tell me that Zhou Ying was sick?"

Qiao Xinwan was stunned for a moment. When she suddenly heard the name Zhou Ying, she couldn't react for a while: "Gu Xuewu, you..."

"Tell me, why never tell me?" Gu Xuewu's heart really hurts. For Zhou Ying. Also, because of Qiao Xinwan.

Zhou Ying, she is sick with uterine cancer. Suffering so much pain, and then there was no one to accompany him, and died lonely in the hospital.

Zhou Ying, Zhou Ying. That name became a thorn in Gu Xuewu's heart. His heart was full of guilt, annoyance, and hatred.

He hates himself, why can hate himself be so subjective?

Why does he believe that Zhou Ying will only stay where there are students? Why did he just let people go to the schools in those mountain villages? Why did he believe that Zhou Ying must have left Beidu?

Why did he think that Zhou Ying left because of happiness, maybe she was with other men?

now what? Zhou Ying is dead.

He died just like that, with regrets, misses, and unwillingness to him. Reluctant. Leaving this world in such a bleak manner. Why does this make him feel bad?

His heartache and eagerness made Qiao Xin Wan stunned. It was not the first time he saw this emotion on Gu Xuewu's face. Time seems to have returned many years ago.

He sullen his head while drinking and ignores people at all. The warmth from his hand shows that he is still holding her hand.

Qiao Xinwan couldn't answer Gu Xuewu's question. At the time, she really hoped that Zhou Ying could go as far as possible. She thought there was no hope, but she didn't want Zhou Ying to be sick. This was the opportunity God gave her.

She knew very well in her heart that if she told Gu Xuewu that Zhou Ying was ill, she was afraid that he didn't care about it at all, and that he would die with Zhou Ying. And she loves Gu Xuewu so much, how could she give Gu Xuewu this opportunity?

Therefore, she chose to remain silent, not to speak. She did those things, so now she has nothing to say.

Gu Xuewu looked at Qiao Xinwan’s face and tightened his hand. He wanted an answer: "Tell me, Qiao Xinwan, in your heart, other people’s pain and other people’s sadness have nothing to do with you? You can achieve Is your purpose, to hurt others, regardless of their pain and life and death? Is it?"

The last two words are almost used to roar. Such excitement made Qiao Xinwan speechless. She used to be like that, she didn't deny it.

What does the life and death of others have to do with her. She loves Gu Xuewu and wants to be with Gu Xuewu. Naturally, she hopes that no other woman will have a chance. From now on, she didn't think she was wrong either. There is nothing wrong.

Silent, the atmosphere in the air was depressed and heavy, Gu Xuewu did not want to believe that Qiao Xinwan would do such a thing. Deep down, he knew that Zhou Ying was dead, and knew the past, the first time he came to Qiao Xinwan. He wants to know, are those things true?

Just now, he saw the diary...

*Month Day. clear.

The weather is fine, but my mood is very bad. I did not expect that God made such a joke with me. I'm sick, uterine cancer.

To cure the disease, the uterus must be removed. I cannot be a mother in the future.

I can't digest the news at all. I am simply at a loss. I don't know what to do. Except I stood there stupidly. I can't hear anything that the people around me say.

Back to the hotel blankly, I want to discuss with Xuewu, what should I do?

Is it treatment or give up?

If Xuewu knew, what would he think?

But I didn't wait to learn martial arts. Another girl appeared. I don't know how she knew the hotel I was staying in. She stood in front of me with an arrogant expression and stared at me with contempt.

Said I was not worthy to be the Gu family's wife, and said I was not worthy of Gu Xuewu.

I wanted to refute and argue, but I couldn't say a word. I could only stare at the woman blankly, talking bit by bit about the inconsistency between Gu Xuewu and me. Then let me leave Gu Xuewu.

I admit that I was confused, panicked, and lost all of a sudden. I have no idea what I am going to do. That medical record defeated all my pride.

When I reacted, I had already left the hotel. There is an extra check in his hand.

It was given by that girl. Five million, she is really generous. But is my love only worth five million?

Do not. I love Gu Xuewu. My love for Gu Xuewu is priceless.

With that check, I wanted to tear it to pieces, but in the end it didn't. I am afraid of death. I don't want to die, I want to survive. I want to spend my life with Gu Xuewu. Even the ordinary days.

I believe that I will not die, the doctor may have made a mistake. There must be other ways to save me.

I'm looking for another hospital, I want to cure the disease.

Xuewu, wait for me.

*Month Day.

The date of the operation has been set, and the doctor looks confident. I believe I will be well. Xuewu, will you wait for me?

I was cured and came.

The process of receiving those chemotherapy and radiotherapy is really painful. But every time it's painful, I think of you by my side.

I believe I will get through it, learn martial arts, wait for me. I am here.

*Month Day.

Oh my god. The operation failed. Even if the uterus was removed, it did not prevent cancer cells from spreading in my body. I thought I could stand in front of Gu Xuewu after the operation was successful.

But the operation failed. What I am facing is a life that is about to end, and a broken body.

What should I do? Learn martial arts. How good would it be if you were by my side? Can you tell me what should I do?

I don't want to die, I want to be with you, we stay together until we grow old.

Xuewu, will you accompany me? You don't mind, right? You will face this with me, right?

It is too painful to face illness alone. I can't hold on anymore. Xuewu, okay with me?

I want to come back to find you, learn martial arts, I believe you. I was wrong, I shouldn't leave you impulsively. Wait for me, I will come back to find you.

*Month Day.

a bolt from the blue.

How is this going? I looked at the pair of Bi people at the wedding in the distance, completely speechless. Xuewu, are you married? How can you?

I plucked up the courage to come to you, I thought you would accept it, be happy to see me, and spend the last time of my life happily with me.

But you are actually married. You are very handsome in a groom's dress, but the bride is not me.

why?

Gu Xuewu, if your love for me is true, how can you marry another woman in such a short time?

why?

Gu Xuewu, if you really love me, how can you forget me so quickly.

Could it be that you never loved me?

My heart hurts beyond words...

Learn martial arts, learn martial arts...

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That's how it is. Zhou Ying knew that she was sick, and she was too shocked to respond at all. I met Qiao Xinwan again, and Qiao Xinwan's aggressive attitude made her even more at a loss.

She was a woman with a cautious heart. To her life experience, to her family situation, to her own illness, full of inferiority.

So left in a daze. During those few months, she underwent treatment and surgery, thinking that she had succeeded in the surgery and could be with Gu Xuewu.

But the operation failed. Her life was declared to end soon.

She wanted Gu Xuewu to accompany her through the last journey of her life, but she saw that Gu Xuewu married another woman.

Zhou Ying's mood at this time can be imagined. She couldn't be a third party in the family. She was already sick. The doctor said that she was alive soon, and let her see Gu Xuewu marrying someone else.

With a double blow, Zhou Ying could never return to Gu Xuewu again.

Gu Xuewu's gaze was fixed on Qiao Xinwan's face. He hoped to get an explanation from her, even if he did see the diary and saw Zhou Ying's departure. But deep down, he actually hoped that Zhou Ying's diary was fake.

He hoped that Qiao Xinwan didn't hit her like that, and didn't drive her away from him when she was sick. Did not say those hurtful things.

The strength in his hand increased again, and he stared at her face: "Tell me, Qiao Xinwan, you didn't know Zhou Ying was sick? You didn't give her five million. You didn't drive her away. You tell me."

Qiao Xinwan looked at the excitement on Gu Xuewu's face, and her eyes were hot. She knew what answer Gu Xuewu wanted at this time, but she couldn't give it.

Because, she did everything he said.

Finally, she gently pulled the corners of her mouth and smiled.

"I know she is sick. I gave her five million, and I asked her to leave you because she is not worthy of you. She is not worthy of you."

"Enough." Gu Xuewu couldn't listen anymore, looking at the stubbornness in Qiao Xinwan's eyes, his hands clenched into fists tightly: "You, how can you?"

To take advantage of a person's most vulnerable time, when he is completely unable to make a decision, to do such a thing?

If Qiao Xinwan didn't say those things to Zhou Ying, then Zhou Ying would not leave when she was at a loss. If she didn't leave, he wouldn't use wine to sorrow, and then gave Qiao Xinwan the opportunity to drug him.

If Qiao Xinwan didn’t prescribe medicine to him, and if he didn’t marry her because of these, then at least when Zhou Ying came back, he could accompany her and walk the last part of her life with her instead of leaving Zhou Ying alone in the hospital. Here, there are no relatives, and a person died alone. He will not have this regret.

All this is due to Qiao Xinwan. Suddenly accepting these things made Gu Xuewu's mind confused, completely confused.

He didn't know how to face Qiao Xinwan, nor did he know how to face Zhou Ying.

Qiao Xinwan looked at the tangles in his eyes and struggled. He held his hand so hard. Even with a slight tremor.

She didn't understand why Gu Xuewu would say this suddenly, but she was sure of one thing. That is, Zhou Ying overwhelmed herself once again, no matter how long time passed, no matter how gentle Gu Xuewu had been to her, no matter how many times Gu Xuewu said he liked her, in the depths of his heart, the person he loved was still Zhou Ying.

In addition to Zhou Ying, it is Zhou Ying.

"What are you doing so excited?" She didn't take her hand back, and the woman who looked exactly like Zhou Ying that she saw that day flashed in her mind. There was an unconcealable mockery in Gu Xuewu's eyes: "Gu Xuewu. Zhou Ying is back, right? You find that the person you love is still her, and you want to be with her again, right?"

"Qiao Xinwan."

Gu Xuewu shook off her hand vigorously, looking at the mockery in her eyes, suddenly felt that the woman in front of her was very strange: "Zhou Ying is dead. She has been dead for three years."

This time, it was Qiao Xinwan's turn to be shocked, looking at Gu Xuewu blankly, unable to say a word.

Zhou Ying? died?

how is this possible?

"She has uterine cancer." Gu Xuewu didn't believe that Qiao Xinwan didn't know: "Didn't you know it a long time ago? That's why you said those things to her, so you told her to leave me."

"I..." Qiao Xinwan tightened her lips, completely unsure of how to react. Once, she thought about where Zhou Ying was, but she didn't expect Zhou Ying to die?

This, this is not in her expectation. Not in her expectation. Therefore, Qiao Xinwan was also stunned, not knowing how to react at all.

Gu Qinghan's face was ugly. He clenched his hands tightly and looked at Qiao Xinwan. He didn't want things to be like this. Even if Qiao Xinwan likes herself, even if she says she loves herself. But he thought that she had at least the most basic kindness in human nature.

She can be spoiled and willful, and she can take advantage of other people's diseases and then achieve her own goals.

She can be selfish and brutal, so she also feels that she has the right to interfere with other people's decisions. To beat the self-esteem of a poor woman?

"How can you?" Gu Xuewu clenched his fists, he really couldn't face Qiao Xinwan. He felt he was wrong: "Tell me, how can you?"

"How can you lie to me for so long? How can you not tell me a word? You know that Zhou Ying is sick. She left because she was sick. She was so timid, but you let her face death alone. Qiao Xinwan, how can you?"

Gu Xuewu clenched his fists and could hardly speak anymore.

Qiao Xinwan sat there, motionless. She didn't know what to say, all she knew was that Zhou Ying was dead.

She is dead? That woman, the thorn in her heart? died? How could this be?

A lot of messy thoughts flashed in her mind. She raised her head and looked at Gu Xuewu, and she was shocked by the disappointment in his eyes.

"Why not? Gu Xuewu, she won’t die, and I will never have a chance to be with you. So, why not? Besides, so many people die every day in this world. Am I going to die to them? Be responsible for?"

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The six thousand words are updated today. Continue tomorrow. . .

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